its been a long time!!!!

I have been sick and busy these past few months. I will be so happy when it is finally over. Just a few more weeks I got. They are going to induce me. I told him the sooner the better for me. I am getting a Baby shower from my friend and her mom. I can't wait. I never had one before. I got to get my baby bed together and get her a car seat too. We are going to do that the first week in September. I am hoping that I will have the baby the 15th of Sept. If I can have her sooner that is fine too. LOL But I think that week of Sept. 11 is the soonest I can have her at 37 weeks. I am getting nervous the sooner it gets here. I go tomorrow for another Ultra sound. Hope to see how big the baby is. They are inducing me cause I have big babies. So at least I know when I will have her and not worry to go in labor at any time. Well, I am getting off of here and getting ready to watch Big Brother my fav. show. Well, at least it was when Howie and Kaysar was still there. I still got Janelle and hope she makes it to the end. Have a good day!

Lord where have I been?

It has been a long time since I wrote in here. Where or what have I been doing? NOTHING MUCH! I live a boring life. I am 7 months pregnant and so ready to have this child. Even if I don't have what she needs now. I am buying a little at a time. I just don't have no place to store it. We are also got the house for sell too. We have had 3 people looked at it and all 3 said it was too small for them. I KNOW THE FELLIN" IT IS TOO SMALL FOR US TOO!!!!! But really it is a cute littel house. just too little! It would be good for a couple or an older person. I wanted to move before school starts but it does not look like it. Well, I need to run someone is IM me. HAve a good nite.

Monday morning....

The start of the week! YAY! Not much going on here. I am getting ready for the bug man today. I am hoping he is the cute one. LOL I go to the baby dr. Wed. I am 6 months pregnant now. Only 3 more to go. YAY! It seems to be moving fast! Well, ask me again when the heat of the summer comes. LOL I got a few things for the baby over the week end. Thank god for Yard sales! YAY! Well, I got to go freshin' up for the bug man. LOL HAve a great Summer day!

open house sunday...

We had it Sunday and no one showed up. How rude! LOL Oh well. It has only been a month. I got a call last night. SOmeone is coming tonight to look at the house. SO I have to claen again. Lord does it end? That is all I have been doing is cleaning and cleaning. My house has never been so clean. LOL Well, I best get off to clean before we have to leave. Have a good Day!

The end of MAY.........

Thats all I know it is the end of May. I think it is Wed. Not sure. The holiday thing monday screwed me up. So not much going on here. Getting ready for OPEN HOUSE sunday. I have to do some major cleaning! At least we worked on the kitchen this past weekend and it is done. YAY! Laid the new floor down and it is painted and cleaned up!YAY! I love it! It is so nice. Well got to get busy again clean up, clean up, Everyone do their share!

Friday

Well, it is the first day of Summer break for my daughter Ana. So far so good. We stayed at home. I was going out this morning, but she never got in the shower. She hates taking them. I have to make her. If she could the whole summer she will no take a shower at all. That would be a stinking little girl. Not much going on over here. I have been having these long naps. Why do I take them? I guess when the baby comes I will not be able to take any at all. I am sitting here waiting on my Hubby to come home and hope he will bring some Ice. His brother is leaving tomorrow to go back home. I bet my Hubby will miss him. I wish Michael would find another job. He took his shoes off yesterday and a part of if was swollen bad. It was almost like a vein swollen. It looked bad. He broke his ankles about 8 years ago. He is a good guy sometimes. I really have not been able to talk to him lately. I been too busy with my American Idol and other shows that are ending. I got Lost TiVo, I have to watch that. I did see the last few minutes of it. But need to watch all of it. To see what is going on. It has been a boring day today. I did try to clean a little. It sure is hot here. I got the 2 air conditions in the bedrooms cleaned out and ready to use tonight. I was sweating hard last nite. And doing nothing but laying there sleeping. I hate to wake up full of sweat! YUCK! There was no action there to be sweaty. LOL Well, I hope all is well! I am hoping to get the new floor down in the kitchen this weekend. Have a good one.

Tuesday....

What a busy weekend. I had a yard sale. I put it in the paper and it was high. Almost $30. Are they crazy? And I did not do nothing until after 1. Lucky I had some dealers come and got a lot. I sold cheap so they will make lots of money. They told me let them know if I have another sell. I sure will. I have been to busy to write or even get online. We painted the kitchen Sunday. I helped a little. I am not a painter! Either is my hubby. We went to get a new floor yesterday. I can't wait to get it laid down! I've been wanting a new floor for a long time! I might not want to move after it all gets done. LOL Well, I best get busy doing some work on cleaning. Have a good day.

I am so ready......

To know what I am going to have. I can't wait no more. I go tomorrow at 10:30. I want to know for I can start buying stuff. But then where would I put it? I really can't get too much until we move. The realtor called and we are going to have an OPEN HOUSE on June 4th. OMG! I have to really clean and clean. I am hoping to have a yard sale Sat. And have Michael paint and lay floor down in kitchen/laundry room.Keep your fingers cross that he does it. And I can have a good yard sale and sell out of everything! I hope I feel good that day to have one. I need to put an ad in the paper. I am just waiting to see if it is going to rain first. I should be going through the house to see what I have in here to sell. I am sure a lot! Well, I need to go and do some stuff around here. It is almost time to go get Ana at school. I got Tivo today and I can record my General Hospital while I go get Ana. She got fired the other day from her safety job. All the kids that did it after school did. They said they was making their foot out when holding the door to make the other kids trip. I am sure my Ana did not do that. I just HATE that school anymore. Emily went thru there and really did not have no problems. Well I did with one teacher. She was cussing at the kids and my mom turned her in. This is an elementary school with little kids. Do Not talk like that to kids. I don't talk like that at home! I'll be glad for Ana to go to a different school.I hope soon!

Monday, a better day.....

I sure feel better! I just don't know what happen to me the past few days. I guess this pregnant hormones are driving me crazy. I just cried and cried. I did go out after all. We went to Red Lobster. We had to wait so long and had bad service, but it was ok. Then went to super walmart and to a park. We was at red lobster for over 2 1/2 hours. What a mess! I have been trying to catch up on laundry today. I need to clean too. I have a funny feeling that the Realtor will call this week and will have someone to look at the house. It need a good cleaning again. I am hoping Michael will paint and lay new kitchen floor down this weekend. I am going to try to have my yard sale too. If it don't rain. It has been raining a lot. It is kind of cool too. I don't care I like it! Hope all has a good day!

Mother's day...

What a one already. Yesterday was a bad day for me. I was so depress and today is starting that again. My hubby acts like a little kid and I can not stand that at all! He and Ana were fighting. I feel so sorry for Ana. WHat a dad! He just makes me so mad sometimes. HE was playing with her but to me it sound more like fighting. Ana don't like that I am sure. We was going out to take me somewhere to eat. I just decide I am not going no where. I will just stay in and be even more DEPRESS! WHy have a mother's day when we all can not get along. FORGET IT! I have enough to worry about and don't need all this too. I am so ready to call it quits! I feel that no one worries here like me. I should not even sell this house and just stay here and be depress and hopless. The questions of "What if?" comes to me and I hate them. Why I have to be so negitive? Life SUCKS! Or is it just mine? I have no one. I miss my mom! It is so freaking crazy! How life is... Your born, you suffer, you die. That is the end. Why do some lifes suffer then others? DOes God think we can handle it? I know I can't! I feel so bad I have no parents. I don't really have a family that I am close too. Heck, friends where are they when you need someone? I am so freaking shy, I can't meet people. I do not talk unless you get to know me then I will talk. Why did god make me like this?I got secerts that is killing my soul. I just keep everything inside of me. It is killing me. I do not need any stress being that I am pregnant. Does Michael care? Does anyone care? I am sure not. Ana is so close to me. I feel I can not get close to her. There is getting a distance there. I am always busy for her or do not feel good to be around her or so freaking depress! SHe goes to the arthritis dr soon. I am so scared that she has that. What if?

Friday afternoon....

OH MY GOD! I hate IRS. Why are they so crazy? My taxes got screwed up 5 years ago and they said they have never got a copy of it as I send it to them 5 times already. I even went to the IRS here and they send it in 2 times. I just want to scream at them! YELL!!!!!!! As I was getting off the phone they asked me what bank do I bank at? OMG! Are they going to take my money that I got saved in there? I am so nervous now. Should I go get it all out? Why are they messing with us? They are the one that screwed up the taxes. I did not owe anything that year. I was going to get a refund. Now they say we owe over 41 thousand dollars. Do we even make that much a year? Every year they take our refund and put it toward the money we owe(but we don't owe) So what now? I am so sick of it. WHY ME? Why? I am trying to buy a house and sell this one. Will they end up taking what I get for this house and pay back those freakin taxes? That we don't owe?

Tuesday..Tuesday..Tuesday..

My house is clean and the realtor came to take pictures. She told me she plans is to sell this house in May or June. That is the biggest time to buy houses! That means This month! OMG! The work that needs to be done. I got to get in that Garage and get rid of some stuff. So much work and little time! But hey my house is clean! But for how long? We shall see about that. I am so shocked on how this house looks so good. The outside of it. I wish I took before and after pictures. The new grass growing! It is beautiful! I got all the flower beds with plants and mulch. Michael said we will fix up this house and I will not want to move. Yeah Right! LOL But I do have to say it is looking good then what it was. Thank you Mr. Michael. My hubby, He is a HARD worker!

Thursday...

why do I have to take a nap almost everyday? After my naps I feel worse then I do before I lay down. What is a girl to do? I know I need my rest, cause when this baby comes there is no rest for the mommie. Will I be able to do it? I hope so. It is all new to me again. It is like starting over. How do you do it? WHat to do? I hope it comes back to me. Maybe it is like riding a bike. LOL It is coming up the Derby in a few days. I have never been to the track on Derby. I am sure it is crazy there. All those people. All those drunk people! I miss working at Holiday Inn at this time. I made good money during those days. The people you meet that comes every year. Heck I even seen and met Wayne Lucas the famous horse trainer. Man did he smell so good! I remember taking a basket of flowers to his room when he was not there and just going in there and getting a big smell of his room. I did not take nothing! I am not like that. Just going in there and his great smell. Everyone knew I loved him! He sure looked good too. I took room service to him all the time. He did make me mad one time and that was the end of our romance. LOL Well mine. We was so busy that day and it took a little longer then said. When I finally got it there he fussed at me about the whole hotel and rest. I was like so sorry then. It made tears in my eyes then. After that He was not so hot no more to me. But hey he is still famous! I was still glad to meet him and touch him. Oh yeah and smell him too. LOL

Boring day...

today is pay day and I have no where to go to. What a boring life! I did go get my lottery cash. I had $23 in wining tickets. I bought $8 more and won nothing. I wish to have a friend! LOL I just want to do something, I don't know what? I lead a boring life. I should be home cleaning. My house will be on the market real soon. No telling when someone will show up to look at. Lord I got to much stuff too. I need to get a storage unit to put some stuff in. I could pack a little. I got 2 boxes yesterday at Save-a-lot. I hate to spend extra money when I got a big garage out there to put things in. I guess that's why it is full now. LOL I am sitting here watching Regis and Kelly. Tom Cruise is on there. I do not care that much for him. Why is everyone so HOT for him? I just wish I had his money$$$$$$. He owes 4 planes. Must be nice. You could go anywhere you want to at that moment. Humm He just said he worked here in Kentucky at an ice cream place. I did not know. I wonder if he was born here. You learn something new everyday. LOL I just learn the not so interesting stuff. I had the septic guy come yesterday and lord you talk about smelling!OMG! What a smell. I hope it helps. The guy behind us has almost a little pond in his backyard from our septic overflowing. I was lucky he did not call on us. It has been doing that a long time too! We need to get hook up on sewers. But my gosh it cost $1000 to have someone to put it in, Plus almost $7000 to the MSD for all the work they did to put it in the street. How can anyone afford that? Well, I think I need to find something to do.Where should I start? Have a good sunny day here in Kentucky!

Tuesday morning....

OMG! I had worked my butt off this past 3 days. Michael did not work yesterday for the boycott of immigrant's. He did work at home. We did so much in the 3 days! We clean the garage a little. Took a load to Salvation Army. Threw away some stuff, move some stuff. I seen there is money to be made out there. I just got to make it! LOl I am going to plan on having a yard sale after Derby. THe lady next door is driving me crazy. I live by both crazy people! One on each side of me. I can not throw nothing away the lady next door wants it. And if you give to her you have to see it in her yard for months to a year. She has 2 kitchen sinks in her back yard. Why? What causes a person to have 2 sinks in their back yard? Oh well. Who knows why? She just makes me so mad too. We was working in the garage and she had to put her nose in it too. She can't hardly stand up, she walks with a cane. She told me that me and her can work out there while Michael is working. HOW? I can't lift those heavy boxes, she can't stand? What a crazy lady too. She also told me she wanted some table out there and I told her that it was old and then she tried to tell me no it is not! I ask my Aunt and she rem. It of my mom's and YES it is old! What is she trying to do to me? She told me to let her see what I am selling before I sell it. OMG! Am I able to have a yard sell now? If it was not too much trouble I would have it at a friends house. We shall see in a few more weeks... Yard sale or no?

Friday......

It is the end of the week. Yay! Rest time! Not for us. Realtor is coming tomorrow at 12. So we have to work our butts of like a crazy person. I'll have to explain to her about my yard from the other day. I hope she wont take any pictures. I just tell her to wait until I get that clean up. We are going to lay that outdoor carpet on the porch, spray paint the iron things out there. Work on the flower bed on the side. I almost got the weeds up. It is a big one. I have to go get more greenery to plant over there. I sure hope this house sells fast! I hate to sell it. I should rent it out. But these neighbors are going to kill someone and I cant put someone else life in harm that I rent too. Specially if they have kids. They still have not fixed my yard up or the person who did it or her hubby has not even said sorry to us yet. What jerk-offs they are. I wish to hurt her bad! But could not. I am an Angel remember this. LOL I guess in some ways I am. I not feeling to good today. Don't know why? I took 2 naps today. I must have been wore out. I do not know how when I have not did nothing. I just started to do a little now before I got on the computer. But why do anything when you have someone come behind you and mess it up. I don't understand that at all! I got Ana trying to clean her room. We got so much stuff it is not funny! I need to get rid of it all! Forget about it and give it to DAV or someone else. I got them coming May 12. I hope to get rid of a lot of stuff then. I best get a moving and find some stuff we do not need! Hope all has a good weekend! I will be here working my butt off.

My poor tree and yard from the crazy lady next door. How am I gonna sell this house? Lord Help us sell and find a house before this baby comes. He/she needs a room of their own. I never had a baby's room. I can't wait!

WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!

Went to see the loan guy and we are appoved for buying house! YAY! He told me that we can start looking today. I was like WHAT? Don't we have to sell our house first? He said NO. I just can't believe it. So, Michael when can we look? LOL He is not here for me to ask. Darn. I guess we are going to stay home and get this house worked on. I called the home owners and they are gonna call me back to let me know. We don't have the extra money to add more work to this house. We already have enough to do here. The realtor is coming Sat. To get this job a rolling! YAY! Go Angel!

What a day!!!!

Went to the funeral. It was ok until they said my mom's name and when we die, we will be together again. How so freakin sad. I broke in to tears! Why did he have to say that? I do not want to die. I do want to see my love ones again, but not by death. The day just got worse as of this evening. I been cleaning and Ana came a running to tell me she got to get the dogs in before some thing happens. I was like what? So I dropped what I was doing and went on the front porch to see what is going on. Those crazy people got in to it again. The lady was in her truck and was blocked in by her son. So she could not get out. SO what does she do but get speed and takes off close to my house and hit one of my good trees ( it was a good size too) and speeds and tear up my yard with tire marks. Why did we put grass seed down and straw? For some crazy idiot tear it down and make it worse? Lord help me move away from these people! She was so close to the house, she would have killed or hurt Ana in her room. Ana was in her room at the time. I got my heart beating so fast. I do not need the stress with this baby! I am already stress out over the age thing and my grandma dying. Now all this. I got my tree down and it was planted by my mom. How are they going to replace that? It looked so good too. It had pink flowers on it and was so full! What to do? I called the police, but she was not there so they could not do anything. They told me to go downtown and complain with pictures and she will force to have to pay and maybe go to jail. Her sons told me they would fix it. But Gees how much longer do I have to wait to put this house up for sell? It is going to take a long time to sell anyway. I want to move in August. Before this BABY! But will I make it?

Visitation day.........

My grandma sure look so different. She did not look herself at all. She had make up on. I don't think I even seen her with make up on. She looked so young laying there. I got to meet one of my half brothers. I don't think I every seen him before. How sad! He was with another brother that I did know a little. My mom had four boys from another man before my dad. They stayed with their dad. I never got to know them. Well, the brother I meet tonight, Jimmy Pat, he said that we need to stay in touch. He said he is gonna mail me cards and letters. Let's just wait and see. After they left, Michael (my hubby) said That he can see in me that I wish that I was closer to them. They remind me of my Mom so much. Made me cry. Thinking of her. I sure miss her! I feel like I have no one. No family! I am not close to any of them. There was so many people there and I did not know them, or have not seen them in many many many years. I feel like a orphan sometimes. NO MOM! NO DAD! I was the only child between my mom and dad. I am Happy that I have Ana and Michael. I guess I depend on him too much! I break down and cry too much too with him. I can't tell him nothing, that important! It has been a long day today. I went there at 1 til 8. My feet are swollen and I am wore out. I got to go back in the morning at 10. I am going to keep Ana home to go with me. I picked her up today from school early for she can go too. She was bored there. But she loves to be with her mommy. That's me!

I just got that phone call that no one wants. Telling me that my grandma died last night. I went to see her Saturday and how different she looked from 2 weeks ago when I seen her last. I hate when someone dies that you know. She was 87. She had 5 daughters, 2 already died (one was my mom). I feel so sad now. Now I have to go to the funeral and I do not like those! Who does? I get kind of panicky at them. I do not want to die! I hate death! It is no fun at all. Is there a place after death? Is there really a Heaven? Or is it just say? I do not want to find out either. I had so many bad dreams last night. Being pregnant, I been having some wired dreams! But last night, I had many different dreams. They all was so bad! I even dreamed of my mom too. I wonder if it had anything doing with my grandma passing?

Saturday evening...

What a nice day and I am inside not enjoying it. Michael is sick with the Flu, I guess. We was going to go over Thunder over Louisville. But he is too sick. I really don't care. I just don't think I can walk that much. My foot is swollen now and not even hot. I went to see my grandma today. Boy is she not doing good at all. I seen her maybe 2 weeks ago and from then til today she looks very bad. She is on morphine as off yesterday afternoon. She looks like my mom did before she died. My Aunt says that my mom is going to be the one that come for her. I don't understand the whole dying stage. How does that work? Who comes for you? When my mom was dying she saw Jesus in the front yard hiding behide the trees. It was hard today to see my grandma. It brings so much memories of my mom. I talked to one of my cousins that was there. She made sense to me. I am living here in my mom's house (and dad's and grandmothers) and they have too many old memories. I need a new house to make my own and have memories of my new family. There is a dog wood tree in the front of my house that when my dad was here in the hospital bed dying. My 2 sisters had planted it out there for him. He was in the house moving his hand to tell them where exactly to plant it at. I was in here too with him watching. That has been over 27 years ago. Those are old memories. I wanted to take the tree with us when we move. For I can have those memories with me always too. But now that I been thinking. I will plant our own Dogwood tree and let it have memories of our own and a new life. And tell/show this baby all the new things that we are going to do and let him/her have memories of us. I have to think good about all this. I know my mom and dad would want the best for me. I have to get over my stress and nervousness for I can go to the loan guy and get this ball a moving. I got a life inside of me that needs good memories! :)

Friday evening.........

I am so full! I just ate a sloppy Joe and chips. I can't eat too much now being pregnant or I get sick.I feel a sickness a coming soon. Rain here today and yesterday. We sure are getting a lot of rain lately. I am ok with that. We have been working in our yard trying to get this house ready for sell. We lay grass seed and straw down in the front yard. We still have to do the back yard. Maybe this weekend. It is starting to look better. I see the grass a growing (new grass). There has been a bear spot in the yard for the longest time. Michael parks his truck there. But NO MORE! YAY! I can't wait to see the grass there and no straw there. Michael fixed the 2 flower beds. We got 2 more to go. Hopeful that will be done Sunday. I got to get the weeds out of them and Michael will fix the rocks around the beds and lay mulch down. I may have to go get some more greenery to plant too. I need 2 or 3 more hosta's for the front yard. I hope that Michael will also pressure washer the drive way and porch. He has to go around the house too with it. We also are going to lay a green out door carpet outside too. He asked today if his brother will help him. I am so happy that he did. I feel bad that I can't do more to help him. He does so much! He is a hard worker! That's why I love him so much! LOL Tomorrow is Thunder over Louisville. I don't think I can handle all that walking. My feet swell up so bad now. They hurt when they are swollen. Doctor said it is normal 'cause of the heat. I just can't wait until Summer and swell all over. LOL I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Thursday morning...

I went to the baby doctor yesterday. He says I am high Risk being old. Heck, I am only 35. I did not think that was old. lol My body feels like old but I still get carded when I have to buy lottery. Crazy life, humm? At least I look young and I'm young at heart. lol I need to go have some more blood work done to make sure that the baby is ok. Then after that I guess I will have to end up at a specialist to get to know about my history and do ultra sounds to see more about the baby. And if all that does not work it is that big ol' needle in the belly. I do not think I can do that one. I am scared now. Maybe he is just trying to protect me if the baby does have something wrong with him and I can terminate the pregnancy. He says I have to look at the long haul and he can't decide for me. Would I be able to take care of a kid that has something serious wrong with him or her? God, I hope and pray nothing is wrong. I am sure nothing is, but you never know. I never took my prenatal vitamins in the first 3 months of this pregnancy. So lord help me have a healthy baby boy or girl. I really don't care what he/she is. I just want a healthy one!

Tuesday morning............

Why every time I eat Fish I get sik now that I am pregnant? DOes the baby not like it? It is one of my fav. foods too. Man this baby don't let me drink soda and eat certain foods. How can a small little baby take over my body? Hope everyone has a good Tuesday! I go to see the loan guy today to see how much money we get. I hope enough!

Bye,

Easter Sunday.

Happy Easter! Did the Easter Bunny come to see ya? Oh my allergies are really bothering me. I have sneezed almost 100 times already this morning. My eyes are itchy and dry now. I do not know what I can take for it. I go to the doctor Wed. My second time to Baby Dr. I need to ask him what I can do about my feet. The get so swollen and hurt. I know he is gonna say stay off of the salt. But really I don't think I eat too much salty thing. I hope I don't have to ever stay in the bed and not get up. That be soooooooooooo boring for me. I am having Easter dinner for us 3. If I had a bigger place I would invite some people over to eat. Next Year! When I have that big house! I sure hope so! We go Tuesday for the loan and see how much we are gonna get. I am so READY! We found out yesterday that the Crazy neighbors was ran into our fence and bent it in a place. I am so PISSED off at them. And then another thing she did. We have a old pine tree back (almost in corner) in the yard and she trimmed some of it. And then threw it in our yard for us to pick up and get rid of. That is the second time she has done that. She trimmed the trees on the side of house too and threw them in our yard. They was not even bothering her. Why trim my own trees? So I have had it. What do I do, but move! They are gonna run into my house one night while we are all sleeping. They are drunks and crazys!

IT is sooooooooo hot!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, is it summer now? God it is in the Middle 80's. I was just sweating here by typing. I NEED FANS OR AIR. It really is too early to turn on the window air units. But, I am ready to clean them out! I hate the heat and more being pregnant! I have to go thru the whole summer to be pregnant! My feet are killing me from swelling up. How will I go walk anywhere? I got sick yesterday from the heat. I worked so hard in the yard and I guess the heat got to me. My face was red and I thought I was gonna pass out a few times. But I still got up to cook for Ana and Michael. They was starving too. Poor Angel. I wish Ana was older to help me cook sometimes. Michael was too busy outside washing the cars with a pressure washer. Then here it rain in the night. He was soooo mad. He did all that work for nothing. LOL

Nice day...

It is such a pretty day today. It is a little windy but feels good. It is gonna be in the middle 70's. Tomorrow and next day in the 80's. Gonna be a hot one. LOL I am just happy that winter is over and it feels like spring. All the trees are a blooming. My allergies are a blooming too. Michael called me a grouch this morning. From being one last night. I am truly sorry if I am Honey bunny. He has been real sweet to me lately. I told him I need to stay pregnant always for him be so sweet! LOL At least I am ok now. I was worried when I no can eat and throwing up all the time. I got 5 more months of Hell. How can ladies work when they are pregnant? I know I could not! Sick and now feet are swellening up. My belly swollen up too. LOL
HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday night.....

Well, I got my first Heartburn today. (the first of being pregnant) I hate heartburn. All I ate was fish and fries in the oven with Tartar and ketsup. Boy am I in a foul mood too. I been in arguements with Michael today. He just makes me mad easy now. I just walk away and forget it. The neighbors got on my nerves tonite too. They have a grand daughter that lives there too and the little girl told Ana that her mom said she can't play with ana no more or come over here. Then I heard the grandmother say 'cause how mean Ana and a friend was to the little girl. I just wish I could speak out and not be so freakin shy. But those people are crazy anyway. They drink and fight all the time. Last summer the grandma and the daughter in law got into a big fight outside. One was biting and the other was pulling hair. Long time ago The lady (grandmother of the little girl) had a brother there that lived there and he shot his self. They get drunk and yell, fight all the time there. I get scared living here next to them. They are gonna get someone killed one day. It may be that little grand daughter of theres if they don't be careful. I just can't wait to move more now. Get the freakin out of here! I hope this house sells fast!

Tuesday

It is such a nice spring day here. I am happy, the weather is good, the nausea is gone. What a beautiful day! I had another sign of pregnancy yesterday. Swollen feet and a real bad backache. But I rather have that then that throwing up stuff. That was horrible! I hope it does not come back! I think I may go work out in the yard today. We got to get this house together for we can find us a house. I want A house sooooooooooooo bad. I think we are gonna have a hard time getting a house now. We did our taxes sat. And screwed up big time on them! Lord! What to do now? I just hope if they see we sell this house and get that as a down payment. They wont look at our income. But who knows. Well, I am gonna get busy and clean some more. I had energy yesterday and I cleaned and cleaned. SO I am hoping I will do the same today.

Monday after the break.....

Spring Break is over! It did not last long. I got to get back in my routine of work. We got some straw yesterday to lay over grass seed. I can't wait until we do it. I may do some of it today. I still don't know what to do about the house. TO sell it or rent it. We got a lot of cleaning to do if we sell it. Painting and just all cleaning. We need to get our butts a moving! I want to put this house for sell this month. Well, I best get a busy doing something here. It is a mess here. I guess I was on break too last week. lol

It is April.

April rain begins May flowers. Why does it always rain in April? I love Spring but not all the rain. I am taking Ana to the movies today. We are gonna see SHaggy Dog with TIm Allen. Ihope it is a funny one. IT seems like one. Tim Allen is always changing his self. If it is not Santa it is a dog. So wish us fun and joy at the movies. I will enjoy that big popcorn! LOL

It's Friday..........

Yay! It is Friday. Spring break is next week. So I wont be writing much. I got to spend time with Ana. It is our last spring break alone. Next one we will have to share our time with the baby. I had to go today and get my blood work done. Lord do they need all that blood from me? They took 4 tubes full. OMG it hurt. That lady was rough! She said she had to for she could find my veins. Ok after they saw her they took off a running. It is a raining day here. I got wet from getting in and out of the van today. I hope I don't get sick. I hope everyone has a good Friday and a happy Spring Break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thurs......

I had to go to Lexington today to see my one daughter Emily. I have not seen her in a year I think. It has been a long time. I was glad to see her. Even though I get to see her she still takes all my money. LOL I did not get to spend long with her. Not even 2 hours. I wish I had more time with her. I really did not get to talk either. I am too busy driving and have no clue where I am to talk. It is a busy place there. VERY! I went by the U of Kentucky school. OMG it is big. Really big! Nice! But too big for me. No wonder they have a good team. It is a good school! Well, I am gonna go lay down I got a really bad headache. Calgon take me away...........

Wed.

What day is it? I think Wed. Lord. I am so sleepy. I need a nap. It is too late to take one. DARN! It is almost time to go get Ana at school. Another day in pregnancy. I am sick like always. I hate myself and I know others here do too. I just can't believe It wont leave me this sickness. Am I gonna have it for 5 1/2 more months? God help me, not to be sick no more. This baby wants to EAT! He wants to enjoy some good food and drinks. Like a big diet PEPSI. Yum. I am going to go watch my soaps. Have a good day!

Tuesday..........

I got a new drink! YAY! It is red fruit punch in a gallon. I had Michael stop on the way home to get a bag off ice and I drunk some and it was so nice and did not make me sick... Until I drunk 3 glasses full. I was so full. I am so tried of drinking water and choc. Milk. I want to drink other stuff. I am thinking that I am gonna have a girl. I was sick like this with Ana. Who knows. Well, I just got sick so I think I need to go lay down. That is a good excuse ain't it?

Monday, monday........

Oh what a day. Monday the start of a new week. Back to the drawing boards. Back to school from the weekend, back to work for hubby. I am back to doing what i do too. Cooking and cleaning. Lately I have not been doing much of that. I been sick. Well I had my choc. milk for the morning. I hape that made my baby happy. He was not feeling good the whole weekend! Nope! I was getting sick at 5 something this morning. I think it is too early for that. Thats what I call too early morning sickness! Well, I best get up and do some work around here. I got a lot since I been sick this week end. I did not do much.(nothing) Have a good Monday!

Thursday

I had to go to doctor yesterday. Lord what a day. I was gone until 3 p.m. I left before 8:30a.m. Why did I have to go to a Dr kind of far? Lord I almost had 2 bad accidents! That is my worst fear. Well, Why it took so long was the Dr could not find the baby heartbeat. So he schule a Ultra sound at a different place, farther away! In a area where it is so busy and a lot of traffic. I had to walk miles from the building. It felt like it.:) the ultra sound was ok. They seen the baby and lord he or she is very active! He was doing flips and steching his legs and arms. In one picture it looks like he is waving to me. That made me feel better. Just to see him move! IT was amazing. I am happy now. Just wish to get over my sickness. After I ate yesterday, I have been so sick and still sick today. HELP ME, Lord! I miss feeling good and able to eat.

Monday.......

It is the start of a new week. Oh boy how much fun! I go to the baby doctor Wed. I am trying not to think about it. I just know I need to shave tomorrow places that I have not shave in a long time........LOL Can't go to Dr and be hairy. I am not feeling good this morning. I feel throwing up in my near future. I ate a few saltine crackers this morning. Who was the one thought of that? It don't work! Well, on me it don't. I still feel Nausea. And feel more close to it now after eating those crackers. Well, I hope all has a good Monday. Enjoy yourself. I be here being sick................

friday evening.............

I took a 3 hour nap and now i am feeling bad. I think I am depress! I can only drink Water and choc. milk. Thats all. THat make anyone depress! Plus that 3 hour nap. I missed my soaps. Oh well, I have not did nothing today. Not lift a finger to do anything. Just to make my choc. milk. LOL I drunk a Yoo-hoo too. I love those drinks. I don't even think I can drink white milk again. Maybe this baby will be black, from all the choc. I been drinking. LOL I know he or she will be brown sugar. He will have that Mexican blood in him or her. Ana is not dark. She is darker then me. She don't burn in the sun just gets tan. She will love that when she gets older. Oh the summer will be here soon and I have no plans. Last year I joined the Y. that was fun. Not sure if I do that this year. Who wants to see this big ol' belly in the water? Man, my boobs are itching me to death. They need to get bigger. lol Lord thank god this day is almost over. I hope tomorrow is better. I will not take a nap tomorrow! Maybe i need to go out and stay out! Where could I go?

Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy St. Patty's day to all. Don't forget to wear you green today. You don't want to get pinch!

Thursday morning.......

Oh I feel bad again. I don't know why. I guess from this baby. lol I got my kitchen sink stopped up and a lot of dirty dishes. I had to go get a little tub for I can go wash some in the bathroom. Oh how fun! That's what I plan on doing today. Plus I need to give Buddy a bath too. More fun. I will be soakin' wet in a little bit. Well, I guess I best start my jobs. I hope everyone has a good Thursday!

Wed. Morning............

OMG! I am burping up something and it taste like White Castles. I have not had those in months. Oh why me? Makes me wanta get sick. I can't even chew some gum. I can put it in my month for a few seconds and have to hurry and throw it out fast or I am gonna throw-up. I came close a few times while out. That won't be a pretty site. While driving. It is tax time here. Finally Michael got his 10-99's yesterday. Lord, I hate this time of the year. We have to pay in. It looks bad this year too. His 10-99's say he got paid a lot of money! But really he did not. He gets the check and then divides it into his crew. Not getting paid anymore then his partners. I wish he did get paid that much a year. IT would be nice. I could have a good ol' time! LOL He got 3 10-99's this year. Lord more money to pay! One of them has he made way over 100, thousand dollars. That's a lot of taxes to have to pay. He don't claim it all. But lord if he did. Shooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Lot of money to have to pay back. Well, it is time to get off and go work! I feel like doing something...............................................................................A NAP!

Tuesday morning.........

It is almost St. Patty's day, so I'll write in green. There is so many different colors of green. I am not much of a green person. I don't think I look good in green. Oh well. I don't have to wear it. Not much going on here. I finally got a baby doctor appointment. It is for next wed. I am scared. IT is my first time there. I hope I like them. I hope they don't say much about my weight! If they do I be happy! Hey I know I need to lose! Why remind me? Well, I guess I have cravings now. I been craving Choc. Milk a lot. I been drinking so much. Sat. I drunk 3 or 4 tall glasses full. Yummy. I had to run to the store this morning to get me some more milk for I can make it. Michael has been real sweet with me. I wonder what happen? LOL He offers to get me things, when I am in bed or sitting down. He offered yesterday to wash some dishes for me 'cause of they may smell. I still get sick over smells! Lord I be so glad when this spell finish. I am hoping for 2 more weeks, maybe. Well, it is almost my daily nap time. I hope all has a green day..............

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Friday afternoon.....

I just took a 2 hour nap and I am still ready for another one. Lord. I got so much stuff to do. I got to make Fresh chix soup today. I got to cut the freakin' bird up. I hate doing that. We was going to have it yesterday. But I was hungry when we was out shopping. I told Michael that I will buy our food out. We had my fav. Mexican. Almost did not have it. He wanted Chinese buffet. I was likeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, (to myself) I do not want to buy that. LOL I do not like Chinese food. Lucky they have fried stuff there that I eat. Chix fingers, corn nuggets. Stuff like that. I do love there sugar rolls. They almost taste like biscuits that u fry and put sugar on them. They are to die for! I always have to have my big share of them. Oh well, sitting here and typing in this blog is not going to get my work done. I need to put some speed in my butt. I may write more later. Have a good sunshine day.

Wed. Noon

Oh boy my nausea is back. I was doing ok for a few days. But it is back! The worst part is throwing up and nothing coming out but a little water. Now my throat and insides are sore. I feel awful. I gonna go lay down for a short nap. It is my time everyday for a nap. I use to not take them. This baby is making me so tired. It is hard work being pregnant! LOL Wonder when I crave food? Shoot I can't even eat food to crave it? Lord. It is a lazy, gonna rain day. You know every day is that a way to me. LAZY! Well, I hear my bed a calling my name. I hope all have a good American Idol and Biggest loser day. I can't believe they are both on at the same time. I have to watch Biggest loser. I need a TiVo to tape American Idol. I will miss my Baby, Ace. Good lucky honey bunny. You got my vote.

Tuesday..........

Have you ever wait on the mail man? When you wait on him he runs late. Any other day he is here early. I am waiting to see if i get my insurance cards. I got to go to doctor tomorrow. So if I do not get them I will not go to dr. I am almost 11 weeks and still I no go yet to dr. Lord. I best get myself to a clinic then. I hate going there too. You sit and wait and wait and wait, oh and sit somemore. I need to get my butt up from this computer and do some work. I should go exercise. All I do is exercise my fingers, LOL. I should have some skinney fingers then. Well, I am gonna sit here and wait some more on that late mail man. Maybe he already came and I did not see him pass. Oh Lord! Let me check! Nope! Not here yet. I hope your mail man comes on time today!

Monday noon..............

I got so much to do and so little time to do it. Yeah right. As long as I am sitting here on the computer I will not get nothing done. Mondays are rough! Cause I am gone on the weekend and do nothing. It is like my day off almost. Sunday, we went for a drive a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGG one. It was nice to see different stuff. Country stuff, like animals, farms, deer dead on the side of the rode with guts hanging out. That one was not nice but, it was nice to be out of Louisville.
I always thought I like to live on a farm. But the smell might brother me now. I can't even feed the dogs now. Well, I am going to get busy. I need a maid! I think I rather take a nap. Have a great Monday!

Sat. Afternoon............

Ok. The sickness is back! OMG! I hate it. I want to get rid of it. HOW? I was sick last night. I felt like food was stuck in my throat and would not go down. I would have felt better if I did throw up. But I didn't. I ate the last time of 3 in the afternoon yesterday, and it is going on after 1 in the afternoon today. No food or drink. I am soooooooooooo thirsty! I am nausea today. Just don't feel good at all. Give me HELP! Top it all off. I been laying in my bed all day so far. Well, my little 11.5 pound dog took a run and jump on my stomach. OMG! I was in pain. I cried too. Just a few minutes before that happen, I was like feeling better. Then wham! It happen and my bad feelings plus more is back. I love to EAT! I just can't. I pray I am not gonna be sick the whole 9 months. I am getting close to 3 months now. Just let the time fly by me. Only one good thing is I wont gain no weight or little with this baby, if I stay this sick. Who knows maybe I'll lose too. Well, I am gonna go back to my bed. Here I come bed...........................

Friday morning..............

Well, it is coming the weekend. It is back to cold. It has been so nice these past few days. Felt like Spring. I did not get to enjoy it to much. I was sick. Yesterday, I did feel good. Until the nite time. I threw up big time. Yuck!!!!!!!!!!! Ever time I eat I get sick. What is this the Baby does not like FOOD? What am I gonna eat? Grass? Weed? Oh makes me sick just thinking of it. I plan on going out today. I just hope I feel up to it. There is no school today here. I ate boiled eggs this morning. Please god do not let me throw those up. I will never eat a egg again in my life, if I do. I wonder what we are going to do this weekend? Probably nothing, just too cold. I know spring is around the corner someday. I will have to spring clean then. I usually get energy around then. So I hope it is soon. Well, I best get my day a rolling with a shower. Have a great weekend to all!!!!!!!!!!

i think he is cute......

I wish to be his little hat in his back pocket too. LOL

Thursday afternoon........

Well, I am feeling so good today. Yay! I am so happy! At least I got to get some work done today. Lord I been sick for dayssssssssssss. I went yesterday for my 2nd. Ultra sound. Michael went with me. We got to hear the heartbeat, on the ultra sound. It was beating fast. Maybe that is a sign it is a boy. It is amazing how big he got since my 1st ultra sound. It almost looks like a baby now. LOL I was glad Michael went with me. I like to see how he reacts, about stuff like that. He thought it was neat to hear the baby and see him/she too. I wish I had a scanner to post a picture of him. The progress of the baby. Well, I best get a moving some more while I can. LOL Who knows when the baby will get sick again. I am just soooooooooooooooooooo Happy that I am fine today.

Tuesday afternoon...........

I have turn into a LAZY bum. I am taking naps and staying on the computer for hours. I don't get much done around the house. I took a nap already today and now I am thinking of another one. Am I CRAZY? I go for my Ultra sound tomorrow. I hope all is ok. I know this baby is making me soooooooooooo sick. It must be a girl. I was sick like this with Ana. Somedays I can not drink my diet pepsi's that I love so much. The dark Liquid. Yuck. I am thinking about it now and making me sick already. I am no a sprite girl. But I have been drinking more of them in my life that I have ever drunk. Some times I can't even drink at all. I be so thirsty! The thought of something in my throat makes me nausea. Well, enough of that talk. I am going to get up and go lay down I feel it coming again...................

Monday morning......

Well a good start to the week. I feel so sick. I am nausea! I hate feeling that away. I was so sick when I was pregnant with Ana. I hope I am not that away this time. I still have not got to go to the baby doctor yet. I am waiting on insurance. What is taking so long? I am sooooooo hungry! But I have to wait until I feeling good again. We went to the Boat this weekend to play those slots. I loved it. But of course did not win any big money. What we did win we just put back into it. Then we ate at a buffet there too. The food was ok. To me. But OMG the line was so long. By the time you got to your table ur food was cold. Or by the time you got to what you was in line for the first time, the food was gone. I did not get to eat much! It was not worth getting in line for. LOL Shoot it also was a little high too $15 a head. Lucky I had a comp of $13 so I only had to pay 2 dollars for me. But still. Ana went over a sleepover. They went to Indiana to a Holiday INN to go swimming and stayed there. I am not sure if she had a good time. She was acting funny when she came home. I guess she did not get much sleep. Plus her stomach was killer her. Well, I am starting to feel a little better. DO I hear Pancakes or cereal calling my name.......................Angel come eat meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Friday afternoon......

Well, I was so sick last nite. I ate too much yesterday. Then after I ate dinner I went to lay down to watch all my nite shows. American Idol, Dancing with the stars, Skating with the stars. Boy is the Drew great on the Dancing with the stars. At first I did not care much for him. But last nite he did so good! Man, he was HOTT! I got a lot of work to do today. My new sofa is coming tomorrow and my hubby and brother-law is coming home to move the entertainment center, and the fish tank. Lord, this house is so small. I need room. I don't think it is gonna fit where I am gonna put the entertainment center. I can't wait to get a new house. I want a basement. We want to get a pool table for it and a big screen t.v. I guess my new sofa will go there. Then maybe not. IT is soooooooooooo nice. It is gonna be the nicest sofa I ever had in my life. I had a lot of sofa given to me. I even bought one, years and years ago. But it was a cheap one. Only $500 for a sofa and a loveseat. Shoot I am paying about $1000. For just a sofa. AM I LOSING IT? I hope not. Well, I best get a moving and clean. Oh how much fun for me.

Thursday evening.....

What a day. I have ate all day. I feel so bad. Now I have to go cook dinner and don't want too, cause I am not hungry.Why do I do the things I do? I need to exercise. I need to eat less. I am thinking of joining WW. Can you go if you are pregnant? Heck I don't need to tell them. They never know that I was. Maybe no one will. I never thought in my little mind that I weight this much. LORD HAVE MERCY! I need a fork lift to get me up when I am down. LOL Well, nothing else to report. At least no nausea today as of now. I am just overloaded with fullness.

OMG!!!!

It has been a long time since I last wrote in here. Shoooooooooo! Last time was in November. It is The end of Feb. A lot has happen since then. I am still in this house. We plan on moving this year! YAY! I can't wait. Well, Where shall I begin? Let's see. I have closed a chapter in my book. I signed my rights away over for my older daughter. I am so sorry. I was having so much trouble with her and she was not at home for almost 3 years. They had to move her far away, cause even the state was having trouble with her too. Now she is 3 hours away from me. I don't get to see her much and it is probably the best thing for her. Even though I love her, I just could not handle all the running away and lying. She was gonna get killed here. She hung around the wrong people. She is almost 17 and will be able to come home when she turns 18. That's not too long. She is happy where she is too. SO that is good. I want to move fast for I don't have the same problem with my youngest. She is a total different kid. She is so lovable and honest. She loves me so much. She is a mommy's girl. She has to have her mommy! Ok so end of that part of my chapter in my book. I open another one. I am Pregnant. I am 8 weeks. I was very shocked when I found out. We been trying for years, and nothing. I went to the Dr and they said it is probably all this weight I have gain in a short time and the stress why I could not get that away. So I let it go. And I never started feb.1 and I was like something was wrong. I was cramping and my boobs was sooooooooooooooo freakin sore. I could not be touched there. So I took a test and it looked positive and I still could not believe it. So I went to one of those women first things. And did a test and they said too it is positive. I still in shock! So the next day I went to this other place to have a ultra sound and it too said positive. I could not believe it. I never got to lose my weight! I was planning to have a lab-band operation in June when I got my insurance. OMG. That means I will gain more weight! I am so big now. I am miserable, now. If I gain any weight I will die. At least that's what I think. So I am trying not to gain any.
Thats my new chapter. I will get back to writing in here. My journal to Pregnant and my life.