Tuesday afternoon...........

I have turn into a LAZY bum. I am taking naps and staying on the computer for hours. I don't get much done around the house. I took a nap already today and now I am thinking of another one. Am I CRAZY? I go for my Ultra sound tomorrow. I hope all is ok. I know this baby is making me soooooooooooo sick. It must be a girl. I was sick like this with Ana. Somedays I can not drink my diet pepsi's that I love so much. The dark Liquid. Yuck. I am thinking about it now and making me sick already. I am no a sprite girl. But I have been drinking more of them in my life that I have ever drunk. Some times I can't even drink at all. I be so thirsty! The thought of something in my throat makes me nausea. Well, enough of that talk. I am going to get up and go lay down I feel it coming again...................

Monday morning......

Well a good start to the week. I feel so sick. I am nausea! I hate feeling that away. I was so sick when I was pregnant with Ana. I hope I am not that away this time. I still have not got to go to the baby doctor yet. I am waiting on insurance. What is taking so long? I am sooooooo hungry! But I have to wait until I feeling good again. We went to the Boat this weekend to play those slots. I loved it. But of course did not win any big money. What we did win we just put back into it. Then we ate at a buffet there too. The food was ok. To me. But OMG the line was so long. By the time you got to your table ur food was cold. Or by the time you got to what you was in line for the first time, the food was gone. I did not get to eat much! It was not worth getting in line for. LOL Shoot it also was a little high too $15 a head. Lucky I had a comp of $13 so I only had to pay 2 dollars for me. But still. Ana went over a sleepover. They went to Indiana to a Holiday INN to go swimming and stayed there. I am not sure if she had a good time. She was acting funny when she came home. I guess she did not get much sleep. Plus her stomach was killer her. Well, I am starting to feel a little better. DO I hear Pancakes or cereal calling my name.......................Angel come eat meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Friday afternoon......

Well, I was so sick last nite. I ate too much yesterday. Then after I ate dinner I went to lay down to watch all my nite shows. American Idol, Dancing with the stars, Skating with the stars. Boy is the Drew great on the Dancing with the stars. At first I did not care much for him. But last nite he did so good! Man, he was HOTT! I got a lot of work to do today. My new sofa is coming tomorrow and my hubby and brother-law is coming home to move the entertainment center, and the fish tank. Lord, this house is so small. I need room. I don't think it is gonna fit where I am gonna put the entertainment center. I can't wait to get a new house. I want a basement. We want to get a pool table for it and a big screen t.v. I guess my new sofa will go there. Then maybe not. IT is soooooooooooo nice. It is gonna be the nicest sofa I ever had in my life. I had a lot of sofa given to me. I even bought one, years and years ago. But it was a cheap one. Only $500 for a sofa and a loveseat. Shoot I am paying about $1000. For just a sofa. AM I LOSING IT? I hope not. Well, I best get a moving and clean. Oh how much fun for me.

Thursday evening.....

What a day. I have ate all day. I feel so bad. Now I have to go cook dinner and don't want too, cause I am not hungry.Why do I do the things I do? I need to exercise. I need to eat less. I am thinking of joining WW. Can you go if you are pregnant? Heck I don't need to tell them. They never know that I was. Maybe no one will. I never thought in my little mind that I weight this much. LORD HAVE MERCY! I need a fork lift to get me up when I am down. LOL Well, nothing else to report. At least no nausea today as of now. I am just overloaded with fullness.

OMG!!!!

It has been a long time since I last wrote in here. Shoooooooooo! Last time was in November. It is The end of Feb. A lot has happen since then. I am still in this house. We plan on moving this year! YAY! I can't wait. Well, Where shall I begin? Let's see. I have closed a chapter in my book. I signed my rights away over for my older daughter. I am so sorry. I was having so much trouble with her and she was not at home for almost 3 years. They had to move her far away, cause even the state was having trouble with her too. Now she is 3 hours away from me. I don't get to see her much and it is probably the best thing for her. Even though I love her, I just could not handle all the running away and lying. She was gonna get killed here. She hung around the wrong people. She is almost 17 and will be able to come home when she turns 18. That's not too long. She is happy where she is too. SO that is good. I want to move fast for I don't have the same problem with my youngest. She is a total different kid. She is so lovable and honest. She loves me so much. She is a mommy's girl. She has to have her mommy! Ok so end of that part of my chapter in my book. I open another one. I am Pregnant. I am 8 weeks. I was very shocked when I found out. We been trying for years, and nothing. I went to the Dr and they said it is probably all this weight I have gain in a short time and the stress why I could not get that away. So I let it go. And I never started feb.1 and I was like something was wrong. I was cramping and my boobs was sooooooooooooooo freakin sore. I could not be touched there. So I took a test and it looked positive and I still could not believe it. So I went to one of those women first things. And did a test and they said too it is positive. I still in shock! So the next day I went to this other place to have a ultra sound and it too said positive. I could not believe it. I never got to lose my weight! I was planning to have a lab-band operation in June when I got my insurance. OMG. That means I will gain more weight! I am so big now. I am miserable, now. If I gain any weight I will die. At least that's what I think. So I am trying not to gain any.
Thats my new chapter. I will get back to writing in here. My journal to Pregnant and my life.

Friday

It is almost over the week. The weeks/months go by so fast! Lord comes November next. My birthday. I will be 35. Lord I am getting old. The more I get old the more nervous I get of getting closer to die. Both parents died in the 60's. So do I have only have 25 more years left of my life? Maybe less if I don't take care of myself. I am going to starting Nov. 1st I am going on a diet and not ever try not to eat fry food. My liver can not take it no more. I looked up on the computer to see about a FATTY liver. It is just a begining of something BAD. SO I need to take care of me for I can live past my 60's. I don't do drugs and don't drink. I just eat. I guess that is a drug too. It is like my best friend. It does not judge you on who you are. WHat you do. He is always there for you. Makes you feel real good at the time he is in your life(when you are eatting) I need to find a new best freind, don't ya say? Or a hobby. Well, sitting here is not getting nothing done. I been trying to get rid of stuff. I need to put more stuff on the computer to get rid of and to sell. Have a great Weekend. I will. It is my last weekend to eat fry food. LOL :0)

A week later....

It is Tuesday and it has been a week since I wrote in here. MY BAD! lol Well, you see I live a boring ol' life. I went to one of my friend house to take some picture of some stuff she is selling. I love her house. It makes me want a new house of my own. I am so ready to leave this dump. Me and Michael made a deal tonite. Save money for we can move. If we can save $50 a week and not eat out like we have been. It will work! Starting Nov. 1st we are gonna do that and I am going to start my diet. And I am going to clean this house out of junk! I can't take all this stuff with us when we move. SO I am going to get it out of here. Freecycle it! Yep. I am so determine now. Lets DO IT!!!!!

Tuesday

Man I got a big headach for days now. It does not want to go away. It loves me and wants to stay with me. LOL I go get my Ultra sound tomorrow. I am scared. I hope my hubby takes me. SOme times he is a BUTT and sometimes he can be sweet. This is a time I hope he is SWEET! I hate driving downtown. Plus I can't take Ana to school until after 8am. Thats what time my appointment is. SO she have to go to school late tomorrow. Yesterday there was no SChool. We ran the roads together. Had a good old time. I let her pick a place to eat out. And she picked Ci-Ci's pizza buffet. We was the first ones there as they open. It was nasty. I hardly ate. I love pizza! But not this place. Every time I went up there, there was no pizza there. So if there was good pizza I did not get any. It is time to go get Ana from school. What fun!

Sunday morning...

I am awake and ready for what hits me today. I just wonder what that is? Not much going on in my life. I rented movies last nite. We watched Ring Two. It was good. We got another scarey movie for tonite. I go Wed. for my Ultra sound. I am nervous for that. Shoot my appointment is at 8am. I am surpose to be there 60 minutes early they said(for why not 30?) Well, it is downtown(a place I no like to drive or go) and it is about 30 minutes away. So shoot What time will I have to get up? Should I no sleep. It is gonna feel like that. LOL I can't eat/drink 10 hours before it. Oh my :( So no breakfast/diet pepsi for me. I best get ready to start my Sunday.

Friday

I am so sad! We had to call the school after 7 yesterday to see if Ana made cheerleading. It was a recording, If they said her name then she made it. Well, they never said her name. It hurt her feelings so bad. I just knew this would happen. I just want to go to that school and cuss them out for hurting my baby. She is such a pretty little girl. She looked so cute those days practice and to try outs. I fixed her hair so nice and cute. Life is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday morning

I been so busy these few days. from Thurs. of last week until now. I been running the roads. I went to the dr. friday and my liver enzymes are still high. I have to go to another place to have an Ultra sound. Shoot I got my Hospital bill and it was almost $2000. Lord just for 2 1/2 hours at the Er. I am in the wrong business. Well, sitting at home is not a very good business anyway. LOL Ana has been staying after school all week for practice for Cheer-leading. They have try-out today. So I hope she makes it. And I hope she don't. I just don't want to have to take her to all the games. They are at another school and at nite. I hate driving at nite! We shall find out today if she makes it or not. She is so pretty and would make a good one, but also so shy. You have to be a go getter and be smiling and loud. Thats not Ana. Well, I best get myself busy and start cleaning my house.

It been a long time...........

ok so you been wondering why I have not write. Well last week I was sick. I went to Hospital with some serious stomach pains last Wed. nite.(11:30p.m.) and lord I was in pain! FInd out with some test that my Liver enzymes was high. So I had to go to dr. Friday to recheck my blood. I will not know any thing until Monday, when I go back to the dr to hear about my results. Scary! Next week is bad for me. I go to dr. and have to go to Court for my speeding ticket in a school zone. I am worried on how much I have to pay. It is coming X-mas and I need to be shopping. I did get a few things the other day for Ana. I want to get it over with! I hate spending all that money! Charging up me credit cards. I am still trying to pay from last year on Walmart. Well, I am off to eat some Funyuns, YUM-YUM!

Tuesday

What happen to me? I cleaned another closet out today. YIPPIE!!! If you see my closets, you would understand what a big job that is. AND IT IS BIG! Not the closets, but a super big job. It is break time now. I am watching Passion. That soap is so crazy. They got a witch on there. I wish I had some magic powers. I would clean this whole house in a jiffy. :0)
Well, break time is over! My job is to clean the bird cage next. Oh How much fun. To clean up bird poop.

Monday

It is almost over. Yay! I mean for today. I am wore out. I cleaned out my closet today and shooo do I have a lot of clothes I don't/ can't wear. Why keep them. I still have so much. My back is hurting me so much. I have to take me a strong pain pill tonite. Make me pass out one. I have so much trouble with my back and hip, plus my shouder. I am sure if I lose it would help. I need to clean Ana closet next. I need some more tubs. It makes it so much easier. Put everything in them! Well, I am off to order some Avon. I looked at the book and I since some stuff I like. I hope everyone has a wonderful sleeping nite. I know I will with the help from a little pill. LOL

SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I am wore out. Been out running around all day. Went to a few yard sales, shopping,eat out and to a fall festival. Shoooooooo wore out. I tell you! Plain wore out. Other then that nothing going on. I think tomorrow we are going to fix the bathroom. Michael has to take the toilet and sink out to replace the floor. It is the second time he has done that. The whole floor is rotten out. Not sure where the water is coming from. I just need a all new house! Well, I am getting off of here to go find a snack. Diet time is going to be Monday. I order this diet book The 3 hour diet. My cousin is on it and lost 56 lbs. So I shall try too. Pray that it works for me.

Friday, friday,friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is here the weekend. No more getting up early. Even though I still do. Sucks! I want to sleep in but can't seem to do so. I stayed busy yesterday. I cleaned my kitchen. I put a Halloween table cloth on my table. I am trying to get in the Fall mood. It sure don't feel like it when it is 90 degrees outside. I thinking it is going to be a lazy day today. It feels like it. It is so better for me to not get on this computer until I get my house work done. Cause once I am on line it is so long house work! See ya, don't want to be ya! I burn the roof of my mouth this morning eatting brown sugar oatmeal. It was toooooo hot. I hate having that feeling in my mouth. Well, I am off to watch the rest of Little House On the Prairie. Love that show!!!!!!!!!

A Better day..

Yes, It is a better day then yesterday. I was a little afraid to drive any where, but I did it any way. I ran to the Dollar store to get me 2 diet pepsi's ANd I was happy! Happy go Angel, thats's me. :) I went to go see my grandma today in the Nursing home, she is not doing to good. It was good to see her. I also seen my Cousin, it is sad that Ana and her never met. I just not close to my family like others. I wish I was. Oh well. Better luck next time, when I am around. I finally got a hold of Emily. I talk to her for 55 minutes on my cell phone. It was so nice to hear from her. I mailed her a good box today too. My first. I usally wait till I see her to give her stuff. But it looks like I wont see her for a long time :'( I guess I am giving my parent rights up for her. I don't think she ever get to come home. She'll be 18 and she will be able to do what she wants too. Maybe then she will get to come home. Oh well.Don't want to think about it. Time for bed.

My Horoscope.

The focus is you, and it should be. If you can't make yourself HAPPY, then how do you expect someone else to do it?

(that is so me, I don't like me and how do I expect others to like me? I can't even make myself happy.)

The Worst day!

Oh What a day. I am writing in black 'cause thats how I feel. Where do I start? I took Ana to school this morning and could not decide to go to Rite Aid to get my 6 pack of Diet Pepsi's. Well I said to myself go ahead and just go. If I no go I just go home and sit there and eat. Well I was on my way. I was driving down the street, when I heard a siren and I was looking to see where it was coming from. I finally seen it. So I stopped to let it pass. After it was gone I turned on to another street when I heard again another siren. I look behind me I seen a cop. SO I thought it want to pass me so i get over. Darn if the freakin' cop was gonna give me a ticket. He said I was speeding in a school Zone. Well school had already started and it was past time. So Whats the problem? Why he gave me a ticket? That sucks big time. It is not payable. I have to go to court. I get so freakin' nervous when I go down town anyway. I have to go in Oct. and I am already nervous thinking about it. Well, I never made it to get my 6 pack of Diet Pepsi's. I was so upset and turned around and went back home crying. Will I ever get out again? I hate myself for going now. I almost did not go! Why did I? I could have prevent it(the ticket). Why me? Why me? :'''''((((

Tuesday

I got my exercise today. I went to Krogers and walked down every isle plus a couple twice. They moved everything around in there. I could not find nothing! It has been the same way for years. Why change it? Oh well At least I got me exercise. Not much going on here. I made 2 pumpkin pies today. Real easy! Just buy the can and milk and eggs and you can't go wrong. LOL And I didn't! Yay! I just not a pie maker. I ate a piece and it was good with whip cream. Yum-Yum. I got a lot of t.v. to watch tonite. Biggest Loser 8-9, Dancing with the Stars 8:30-10, Big Brother 9-10 and I wanted to watch that new show too My name is Earl at 9. I need Tivo. Maybe I can tape one of the shows in Ana room. Thats too much trouble. Why does all the shows have to come on in one nite? And some at the same time. I be going back to channels during commercials. I better go and start dinner. I want to get that done before all these shows come on. :) Have a good busy television Nite!