Monday morning....

The start of the week! YAY! Not much going on here. I am getting ready for the bug man today. I am hoping he is the cute one. LOL I go to the baby dr. Wed. I am 6 months pregnant now. Only 3 more to go. YAY! It seems to be moving fast! Well, ask me again when the heat of the summer comes. LOL I got a few things for the baby over the week end. Thank god for Yard sales! YAY! Well, I got to go freshin' up for the bug man. LOL HAve a great Summer day!

open house sunday...

We had it Sunday and no one showed up. How rude! LOL Oh well. It has only been a month. I got a call last night. SOmeone is coming tonight to look at the house. SO I have to claen again. Lord does it end? That is all I have been doing is cleaning and cleaning. My house has never been so clean. LOL Well, I best get off to clean before we have to leave. Have a good Day!

The end of MAY.........

Thats all I know it is the end of May. I think it is Wed. Not sure. The holiday thing monday screwed me up. So not much going on here. Getting ready for OPEN HOUSE sunday. I have to do some major cleaning! At least we worked on the kitchen this past weekend and it is done. YAY! Laid the new floor down and it is painted and cleaned up!YAY! I love it! It is so nice. Well got to get busy again clean up, clean up, Everyone do their share!

Friday

Well, it is the first day of Summer break for my daughter Ana. So far so good. We stayed at home. I was going out this morning, but she never got in the shower. She hates taking them. I have to make her. If she could the whole summer she will no take a shower at all. That would be a stinking little girl. Not much going on over here. I have been having these long naps. Why do I take them? I guess when the baby comes I will not be able to take any at all. I am sitting here waiting on my Hubby to come home and hope he will bring some Ice. His brother is leaving tomorrow to go back home. I bet my Hubby will miss him. I wish Michael would find another job. He took his shoes off yesterday and a part of if was swollen bad. It was almost like a vein swollen. It looked bad. He broke his ankles about 8 years ago. He is a good guy sometimes. I really have not been able to talk to him lately. I been too busy with my American Idol and other shows that are ending. I got Lost TiVo, I have to watch that. I did see the last few minutes of it. But need to watch all of it. To see what is going on. It has been a boring day today. I did try to clean a little. It sure is hot here. I got the 2 air conditions in the bedrooms cleaned out and ready to use tonight. I was sweating hard last nite. And doing nothing but laying there sleeping. I hate to wake up full of sweat! YUCK! There was no action there to be sweaty. LOL Well, I hope all is well! I am hoping to get the new floor down in the kitchen this weekend. Have a good one.

Tuesday....

What a busy weekend. I had a yard sale. I put it in the paper and it was high. Almost $30. Are they crazy? And I did not do nothing until after 1. Lucky I had some dealers come and got a lot. I sold cheap so they will make lots of money. They told me let them know if I have another sell. I sure will. I have been to busy to write or even get online. We painted the kitchen Sunday. I helped a little. I am not a painter! Either is my hubby. We went to get a new floor yesterday. I can't wait to get it laid down! I've been wanting a new floor for a long time! I might not want to move after it all gets done. LOL Well, I best get busy doing some work on cleaning. Have a good day.

I am so ready......

To know what I am going to have. I can't wait no more. I go tomorrow at 10:30. I want to know for I can start buying stuff. But then where would I put it? I really can't get too much until we move. The realtor called and we are going to have an OPEN HOUSE on June 4th. OMG! I have to really clean and clean. I am hoping to have a yard sale Sat. And have Michael paint and lay floor down in kitchen/laundry room.Keep your fingers cross that he does it. And I can have a good yard sale and sell out of everything! I hope I feel good that day to have one. I need to put an ad in the paper. I am just waiting to see if it is going to rain first. I should be going through the house to see what I have in here to sell. I am sure a lot! Well, I need to go and do some stuff around here. It is almost time to go get Ana at school. I got Tivo today and I can record my General Hospital while I go get Ana. She got fired the other day from her safety job. All the kids that did it after school did. They said they was making their foot out when holding the door to make the other kids trip. I am sure my Ana did not do that. I just HATE that school anymore. Emily went thru there and really did not have no problems. Well I did with one teacher. She was cussing at the kids and my mom turned her in. This is an elementary school with little kids. Do Not talk like that to kids. I don't talk like that at home! I'll be glad for Ana to go to a different school.I hope soon!

Monday, a better day.....

I sure feel better! I just don't know what happen to me the past few days. I guess this pregnant hormones are driving me crazy. I just cried and cried. I did go out after all. We went to Red Lobster. We had to wait so long and had bad service, but it was ok. Then went to super walmart and to a park. We was at red lobster for over 2 1/2 hours. What a mess! I have been trying to catch up on laundry today. I need to clean too. I have a funny feeling that the Realtor will call this week and will have someone to look at the house. It need a good cleaning again. I am hoping Michael will paint and lay new kitchen floor down this weekend. I am going to try to have my yard sale too. If it don't rain. It has been raining a lot. It is kind of cool too. I don't care I like it! Hope all has a good day!

Mother's day...

What a one already. Yesterday was a bad day for me. I was so depress and today is starting that again. My hubby acts like a little kid and I can not stand that at all! He and Ana were fighting. I feel so sorry for Ana. WHat a dad! He just makes me so mad sometimes. HE was playing with her but to me it sound more like fighting. Ana don't like that I am sure. We was going out to take me somewhere to eat. I just decide I am not going no where. I will just stay in and be even more DEPRESS! WHy have a mother's day when we all can not get along. FORGET IT! I have enough to worry about and don't need all this too. I am so ready to call it quits! I feel that no one worries here like me. I should not even sell this house and just stay here and be depress and hopless. The questions of "What if?" comes to me and I hate them. Why I have to be so negitive? Life SUCKS! Or is it just mine? I have no one. I miss my mom! It is so freaking crazy! How life is... Your born, you suffer, you die. That is the end. Why do some lifes suffer then others? DOes God think we can handle it? I know I can't! I feel so bad I have no parents. I don't really have a family that I am close too. Heck, friends where are they when you need someone? I am so freaking shy, I can't meet people. I do not talk unless you get to know me then I will talk. Why did god make me like this?I got secerts that is killing my soul. I just keep everything inside of me. It is killing me. I do not need any stress being that I am pregnant. Does Michael care? Does anyone care? I am sure not. Ana is so close to me. I feel I can not get close to her. There is getting a distance there. I am always busy for her or do not feel good to be around her or so freaking depress! SHe goes to the arthritis dr soon. I am so scared that she has that. What if?

Friday afternoon....

OH MY GOD! I hate IRS. Why are they so crazy? My taxes got screwed up 5 years ago and they said they have never got a copy of it as I send it to them 5 times already. I even went to the IRS here and they send it in 2 times. I just want to scream at them! YELL!!!!!!! As I was getting off the phone they asked me what bank do I bank at? OMG! Are they going to take my money that I got saved in there? I am so nervous now. Should I go get it all out? Why are they messing with us? They are the one that screwed up the taxes. I did not owe anything that year. I was going to get a refund. Now they say we owe over 41 thousand dollars. Do we even make that much a year? Every year they take our refund and put it toward the money we owe(but we don't owe) So what now? I am so sick of it. WHY ME? Why? I am trying to buy a house and sell this one. Will they end up taking what I get for this house and pay back those freakin taxes? That we don't owe?

Tuesday..Tuesday..Tuesday..

My house is clean and the realtor came to take pictures. She told me she plans is to sell this house in May or June. That is the biggest time to buy houses! That means This month! OMG! The work that needs to be done. I got to get in that Garage and get rid of some stuff. So much work and little time! But hey my house is clean! But for how long? We shall see about that. I am so shocked on how this house looks so good. The outside of it. I wish I took before and after pictures. The new grass growing! It is beautiful! I got all the flower beds with plants and mulch. Michael said we will fix up this house and I will not want to move. Yeah Right! LOL But I do have to say it is looking good then what it was. Thank you Mr. Michael. My hubby, He is a HARD worker!

Thursday...

why do I have to take a nap almost everyday? After my naps I feel worse then I do before I lay down. What is a girl to do? I know I need my rest, cause when this baby comes there is no rest for the mommie. Will I be able to do it? I hope so. It is all new to me again. It is like starting over. How do you do it? WHat to do? I hope it comes back to me. Maybe it is like riding a bike. LOL It is coming up the Derby in a few days. I have never been to the track on Derby. I am sure it is crazy there. All those people. All those drunk people! I miss working at Holiday Inn at this time. I made good money during those days. The people you meet that comes every year. Heck I even seen and met Wayne Lucas the famous horse trainer. Man did he smell so good! I remember taking a basket of flowers to his room when he was not there and just going in there and getting a big smell of his room. I did not take nothing! I am not like that. Just going in there and his great smell. Everyone knew I loved him! He sure looked good too. I took room service to him all the time. He did make me mad one time and that was the end of our romance. LOL Well mine. We was so busy that day and it took a little longer then said. When I finally got it there he fussed at me about the whole hotel and rest. I was like so sorry then. It made tears in my eyes then. After that He was not so hot no more to me. But hey he is still famous! I was still glad to meet him and touch him. Oh yeah and smell him too. LOL

Boring day...

today is pay day and I have no where to go to. What a boring life! I did go get my lottery cash. I had $23 in wining tickets. I bought $8 more and won nothing. I wish to have a friend! LOL I just want to do something, I don't know what? I lead a boring life. I should be home cleaning. My house will be on the market real soon. No telling when someone will show up to look at. Lord I got to much stuff too. I need to get a storage unit to put some stuff in. I could pack a little. I got 2 boxes yesterday at Save-a-lot. I hate to spend extra money when I got a big garage out there to put things in. I guess that's why it is full now. LOL I am sitting here watching Regis and Kelly. Tom Cruise is on there. I do not care that much for him. Why is everyone so HOT for him? I just wish I had his money$$$$$$. He owes 4 planes. Must be nice. You could go anywhere you want to at that moment. Humm He just said he worked here in Kentucky at an ice cream place. I did not know. I wonder if he was born here. You learn something new everyday. LOL I just learn the not so interesting stuff. I had the septic guy come yesterday and lord you talk about smelling!OMG! What a smell. I hope it helps. The guy behind us has almost a little pond in his backyard from our septic overflowing. I was lucky he did not call on us. It has been doing that a long time too! We need to get hook up on sewers. But my gosh it cost $1000 to have someone to put it in, Plus almost $7000 to the MSD for all the work they did to put it in the street. How can anyone afford that? Well, I think I need to find something to do.Where should I start? Have a good sunny day here in Kentucky!

Tuesday morning....

OMG! I had worked my butt off this past 3 days. Michael did not work yesterday for the boycott of immigrant's. He did work at home. We did so much in the 3 days! We clean the garage a little. Took a load to Salvation Army. Threw away some stuff, move some stuff. I seen there is money to be made out there. I just got to make it! LOl I am going to plan on having a yard sale after Derby. THe lady next door is driving me crazy. I live by both crazy people! One on each side of me. I can not throw nothing away the lady next door wants it. And if you give to her you have to see it in her yard for months to a year. She has 2 kitchen sinks in her back yard. Why? What causes a person to have 2 sinks in their back yard? Oh well. Who knows why? She just makes me so mad too. We was working in the garage and she had to put her nose in it too. She can't hardly stand up, she walks with a cane. She told me that me and her can work out there while Michael is working. HOW? I can't lift those heavy boxes, she can't stand? What a crazy lady too. She also told me she wanted some table out there and I told her that it was old and then she tried to tell me no it is not! I ask my Aunt and she rem. It of my mom's and YES it is old! What is she trying to do to me? She told me to let her see what I am selling before I sell it. OMG! Am I able to have a yard sell now? If it was not too much trouble I would have it at a friends house. We shall see in a few more weeks... Yard sale or no?

Friday......

It is the end of the week. Yay! Rest time! Not for us. Realtor is coming tomorrow at 12. So we have to work our butts of like a crazy person. I'll have to explain to her about my yard from the other day. I hope she wont take any pictures. I just tell her to wait until I get that clean up. We are going to lay that outdoor carpet on the porch, spray paint the iron things out there. Work on the flower bed on the side. I almost got the weeds up. It is a big one. I have to go get more greenery to plant over there. I sure hope this house sells fast! I hate to sell it. I should rent it out. But these neighbors are going to kill someone and I cant put someone else life in harm that I rent too. Specially if they have kids. They still have not fixed my yard up or the person who did it or her hubby has not even said sorry to us yet. What jerk-offs they are. I wish to hurt her bad! But could not. I am an Angel remember this. LOL I guess in some ways I am. I not feeling to good today. Don't know why? I took 2 naps today. I must have been wore out. I do not know how when I have not did nothing. I just started to do a little now before I got on the computer. But why do anything when you have someone come behind you and mess it up. I don't understand that at all! I got Ana trying to clean her room. We got so much stuff it is not funny! I need to get rid of it all! Forget about it and give it to DAV or someone else. I got them coming May 12. I hope to get rid of a lot of stuff then. I best get a moving and find some stuff we do not need! Hope all has a good weekend! I will be here working my butt off.

My poor tree and yard from the crazy lady next door. How am I gonna sell this house? Lord Help us sell and find a house before this baby comes. He/she needs a room of their own. I never had a baby's room. I can't wait!

WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!

Went to see the loan guy and we are appoved for buying house! YAY! He told me that we can start looking today. I was like WHAT? Don't we have to sell our house first? He said NO. I just can't believe it. So, Michael when can we look? LOL He is not here for me to ask. Darn. I guess we are going to stay home and get this house worked on. I called the home owners and they are gonna call me back to let me know. We don't have the extra money to add more work to this house. We already have enough to do here. The realtor is coming Sat. To get this job a rolling! YAY! Go Angel!

What a day!!!!

Went to the funeral. It was ok until they said my mom's name and when we die, we will be together again. How so freakin sad. I broke in to tears! Why did he have to say that? I do not want to die. I do want to see my love ones again, but not by death. The day just got worse as of this evening. I been cleaning and Ana came a running to tell me she got to get the dogs in before some thing happens. I was like what? So I dropped what I was doing and went on the front porch to see what is going on. Those crazy people got in to it again. The lady was in her truck and was blocked in by her son. So she could not get out. SO what does she do but get speed and takes off close to my house and hit one of my good trees ( it was a good size too) and speeds and tear up my yard with tire marks. Why did we put grass seed down and straw? For some crazy idiot tear it down and make it worse? Lord help me move away from these people! She was so close to the house, she would have killed or hurt Ana in her room. Ana was in her room at the time. I got my heart beating so fast. I do not need the stress with this baby! I am already stress out over the age thing and my grandma dying. Now all this. I got my tree down and it was planted by my mom. How are they going to replace that? It looked so good too. It had pink flowers on it and was so full! What to do? I called the police, but she was not there so they could not do anything. They told me to go downtown and complain with pictures and she will force to have to pay and maybe go to jail. Her sons told me they would fix it. But Gees how much longer do I have to wait to put this house up for sell? It is going to take a long time to sell anyway. I want to move in August. Before this BABY! But will I make it?

Visitation day.........

My grandma sure look so different. She did not look herself at all. She had make up on. I don't think I even seen her with make up on. She looked so young laying there. I got to meet one of my half brothers. I don't think I every seen him before. How sad! He was with another brother that I did know a little. My mom had four boys from another man before my dad. They stayed with their dad. I never got to know them. Well, the brother I meet tonight, Jimmy Pat, he said that we need to stay in touch. He said he is gonna mail me cards and letters. Let's just wait and see. After they left, Michael (my hubby) said That he can see in me that I wish that I was closer to them. They remind me of my Mom so much. Made me cry. Thinking of her. I sure miss her! I feel like I have no one. No family! I am not close to any of them. There was so many people there and I did not know them, or have not seen them in many many many years. I feel like a orphan sometimes. NO MOM! NO DAD! I was the only child between my mom and dad. I am Happy that I have Ana and Michael. I guess I depend on him too much! I break down and cry too much too with him. I can't tell him nothing, that important! It has been a long day today. I went there at 1 til 8. My feet are swollen and I am wore out. I got to go back in the morning at 10. I am going to keep Ana home to go with me. I picked her up today from school early for she can go too. She was bored there. But she loves to be with her mommy. That's me!

I just got that phone call that no one wants. Telling me that my grandma died last night. I went to see her Saturday and how different she looked from 2 weeks ago when I seen her last. I hate when someone dies that you know. She was 87. She had 5 daughters, 2 already died (one was my mom). I feel so sad now. Now I have to go to the funeral and I do not like those! Who does? I get kind of panicky at them. I do not want to die! I hate death! It is no fun at all. Is there a place after death? Is there really a Heaven? Or is it just say? I do not want to find out either. I had so many bad dreams last night. Being pregnant, I been having some wired dreams! But last night, I had many different dreams. They all was so bad! I even dreamed of my mom too. I wonder if it had anything doing with my grandma passing?

Saturday evening...

What a nice day and I am inside not enjoying it. Michael is sick with the Flu, I guess. We was going to go over Thunder over Louisville. But he is too sick. I really don't care. I just don't think I can walk that much. My foot is swollen now and not even hot. I went to see my grandma today. Boy is she not doing good at all. I seen her maybe 2 weeks ago and from then til today she looks very bad. She is on morphine as off yesterday afternoon. She looks like my mom did before she died. My Aunt says that my mom is going to be the one that come for her. I don't understand the whole dying stage. How does that work? Who comes for you? When my mom was dying she saw Jesus in the front yard hiding behide the trees. It was hard today to see my grandma. It brings so much memories of my mom. I talked to one of my cousins that was there. She made sense to me. I am living here in my mom's house (and dad's and grandmothers) and they have too many old memories. I need a new house to make my own and have memories of my new family. There is a dog wood tree in the front of my house that when my dad was here in the hospital bed dying. My 2 sisters had planted it out there for him. He was in the house moving his hand to tell them where exactly to plant it at. I was in here too with him watching. That has been over 27 years ago. Those are old memories. I wanted to take the tree with us when we move. For I can have those memories with me always too. But now that I been thinking. I will plant our own Dogwood tree and let it have memories of our own and a new life. And tell/show this baby all the new things that we are going to do and let him/her have memories of us. I have to think good about all this. I know my mom and dad would want the best for me. I have to get over my stress and nervousness for I can go to the loan guy and get this ball a moving. I got a life inside of me that needs good memories! :)