Another day

Well, I am still sad over my hair. Oh well, I will get use to it. Not much going on. I plan to go to the gym today at 12. I am going!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't go for 2 weeks and before that maybe go 1 day. I got to get back into the gym thing. I can lose all this extra weight. I am being positive today. No negitive in my life today. I hope so. I got to go take a shower and do some cleaning before i go work out. I am kind of afraid to leave with ORANGE hair. My hair in the back is brown. So I wonder can I bring that hair around to top. HUMM.......................

My Hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi! Man I highlite my hair and it turn out the color of this that I am writing in. YUCK!!! Why do I do some silly things? One good thing today is I started a 3 day diet and I went to gym. Yeah for me. This diet that I am on I am surpose to lose 10lbs. in 3 days. It works I been on it before. But it's like you are eating nothing, nada,zero. I have gain so much weight! I am dying a slow death, If I don't get it off of me. Spring is here and look people are in shorts and capri's shoot I do not want no one see my big fat leggs! Another YUCK! How does life go by us so fast? How can I let myself get this big? I got to get busy and feel better about myself. I got a beautiful 9 year old daughter who loves me and needs me. So I am going to do it!!!!!!!!!!!

The weekend, sucks!!!!!!!!

Hi! So how am I today you wonder? Well, I am soooooooooooooo depress again. I am married and un happy. I think he don't like me or the way I look. Sure I have gain some weight. But I am under alot of stress. He is part of my stress! How can I lose if I have him making coments of my life. He was surpose to take me out to eat this weekend for our 10th anniverary. Did he? No! He even promise he would. He says thats all I think about is eatting and computer. I think of more, I do! I want a new life. I hate me. I hate that I gain all this weight and now I can;t get it off. It is so easy gaining and so hard to lose it. I am going to look up diet stuff on the computer. And I will not tell him that I am diet for him to laugh in my face. I write more later..........

Home alone

Hi! Why am I so depress can I count the ways? Do I have time for this? Nope, not at all. I want to have a normal life. Is that possible? I feel like I have no one in my life. My dad died in August,89. My mom died July 99. I don't have a big family. I was close to my mom. She did every thing for me. Helped me out a whole bunch. I really wish she was here now. I sure could use her now. She would know what to do of my sucky life. I know I got to change my life or I will die. I had my palm read a few years ago and it said that I was going to get real sick in my 40's and almost die. I am almost there. The closer I get the more nervous I get. I know too that stress plays a part of life and how you live. My mom worried to much and I think thats why she had cancer. I worry too much. What does that tell you about me?

Hi! I am Angel. I wish I was more like an angel. I am honest and trustworthly. So I am sure I could be an Angel. My life kind of sucks. I get so depress and lonely all the time. I am scared that I am dying a slow death. I lost both my mom and dad. I feel like I have no one in my life any more. No one who under stands what I am going through. I want my old life back. I want to be able to work and to be happy of whats going on in my life. At this moment I am sooooooooooo Lonely. Well, I will write more later. It is getting late.Bye for now.