Wed. morning

It is the middle of the week. What have I did? Not a freakin thing. Today I plan on cleaning. It is already 10:40 and I am still on the computer since 9 this morning. SHoooooooooooo why is computering so addictive? I got tons of things to do. I had to go to court yesterday about my oldest daughter. I seen her dad.OH MY GOD!!!!!! I hate him for not being in her life. I know that is why she is the way she is today. He hasn't seen her since she was 7-8 years old. Now she is 16. Well, Pay backs are hell. He has gain so much weight! I thought I had. SHooooooooooooo nope! He has gain so much that he looks sickly looking. Like one of those people you see on a talk show in the hospital or home and can't leave. He has to weight 500-600lbs. I was in shock. When we was married he weight around 250. He was a big guy, big bones. But that big now. He is going to die for sure. That big. That makes me want to go on a diet for sure. I can't get that big. I am already big now. I got to get back in the gym, that does help. I will start eatting fruit and veggies. But I have to wait until tomorrow. I made rice puddin' last nite. Yum! That reminds me, got to run and get me some out!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday

Not much going on here, just alot of rain and rain. Is it going to stop? My yard is flooded. I had to wake up extra early this morning so I am going to bed now. Well, after BB6. Rain, Rain go away come back again another day..............

Monday

It is the begining of the week. What do I do? I almost eat a half a gallon of ice cream. I now I feel sick. I want to throw up. I end up throwing the rest of it in garbage. :)
It is a ugly day, and coming more ugly days. We are surpose to get so much rain in the next couple days. They are a little too late for the rain all my flowers have already died with no rain this summer. I'm to lazy to get the hose out and water them. Fall is coming. I like the temps in fall, but I sure don't like those leaves from all the big trees in my yard. I guess me and Michael made up. I cooked him breakfast this morning before he left. I am going to fix Nachos for dinner. Ana will be home late today. She is in Wildcat singers at school. Today the first day. She also signed up to be on the safety patrol for school too. SHe is growing up fast. She be in high school and having her first job next. I feel so old. I am only 34. Gosh in November I'll be a year older. I am surpose to have a baby before 35. After that age it is hard on you to get pregnant and the baby.
Well, my soaps are on. Got to watch them. General Hospital is getting good.

Sunday :(

We went sofa looking. I have such different taste in stuff then Michael has. He wants a leather for no dog hair will stick on it. Ok. I hate leather!!!!!!!!!!!! When you are hot and you have shorts on and you get up fast you leave your skin on the leather. Why do I have to have a freakin' dog that is losing his hair so much? I hate him. I have to vacume everyday and sweep the kitchen 2 times a day. Hair is every where! We are not safe eating in this house. I am so sick on it. He (pinto)is Michael dog, but my god then he should do something about him. I wanted to shave him, I know that I can't. Pinto don't listen to me like he does Michael so why didn't he shaved him yet? No telling and now it is toooooo late. He needs his fur for the cold winter months that are coming.
Ok back to the sofa thing.... I need a sofa and soon! We was going to charge some of it. I do not understand why sofas cost so much? You would think they have gold in 'em, for the price that they sale them for. I think I never will get a sofa. I got a freakin' hair up my butt and got rid of the one we had a few months ago. I guess more then a few. Well, we went to Value city to look at them. They sure don't have many selections. The one we almost got was Brown (yuck) they could come in Blue and Cream color ( not with kids and dogs, a cat or 2 flying mother fu**in' birds that I don't like either). Man can you tell that I am in a bad mood? I never cuss only when I am freakin' mad.
Why did god have to make up men? I think I would have been happy with girls only. I would of I think? Who knows!
A big storm is coming! It is surpose to rain alot this week. Oh great that means Michael will be at home. Well, I think I have fussed enough. Freakin' Satellite keeps going out. Can't watch t.v. when the wind blows. I should have kept my regular cable that keeps going up and up.
Have a great Sunday! I hope mine gets better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday

I am so bored. Not much to do today, or at least not much I want to do. I just want to be lazy. Been on the computer all day and nothing to do on here. Ana had a friend spend the nite last nite over. I was waiting her to go home when they asked me if she can spend another nite over. Lord, thats gonna screw up my Sunday. We all ways go out on Sunday like a family thing. I bet Michael is gonna be mad. I was thinking going to the nursing home to see my grandma tomorrow. I can't go now. Oh well. I should be cleaning my house instead of typing on the computer. It looks like it is going to be a longggggggggggg day. A long Boring day. Maybe Mr. Energy may stop by and help clean this house.
Am I dreaming or what?

Friday is here........

The week end is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No school! No getting up early!!!!! Taking it easy!!!!!!!!!!!! Well that one is everyday. LOL I feel so much better. I got an e-mail from my aunt telling me that my grandma is moved to a nursing home. Michael did not work today, so we went to go see her. I got to see her. YAY! Only for a little while. BUt atleast I seen her and told her that I love her. So if any thing happens, lord I hope not. I think she knows that I care. I am not close to her and I don't know why. When I seen her she reminds me of my MOM so much. Maybe that is why I am not close to any of my family. I am just a loner. I wish I was not that away. I am thinking going on a diet Monday. It is only because I am so full now. I ate MOBY DICK's a whale of a sandwich. I am so thirsty that I can't even drink cause I am soooooooooooo full. I had to walk down our street earler, it about killed me. It was hot and humid and the walk........ Shoooooo I am not in shape. I need to get back to exercising. Well, I think I will go see what my 9 year old is doing. She has a guest over for the nite. Oh how much fun.

Thursday

I been sitting on my big butt all day! Well,except when I laid on it. Took a nap. I can't seem to find any energy. If any one knows where to find him let me know. He just don't come a knocking at my door these days. I took Ana to the doctor today to get a referal to see a specialist. What as I figure they don't want me to go to one yet. Told me to get a humidifier for Ana room. SHoot those are high. The ones I seen in the store. I sure need to get up from my butt. But, I sat here to long that it is sleeping in this chair. So, I don't have much to post. Same ol' thing, just a different day. I need to go cook some dinner. I think I make Michael chix soup and don't know what to fix me and ANa. I am not hungry, 'cause I ate all day like always.
Have a wonderful rest of the day! Don't forget to let me know where I can find that Energy!

Milk shake...........

Why did they make Malts? I just made one for me and I feel sick now. I drunk too much of it. BUT Darn It was sooooooooooooooooooo good and cold. I am getting fatter and fatter. I have to take Ana to the dr at 9. So she be going to school late. I have to stop and feed her before school, so I am in my mind making plans. Going to Big Boy breakfast buffet. I love pan cakes and French toast. I haven't ate dinner yet. I don't think I could from that malted milk shake. It was Choc. too. Did I tell ya it was soooooooooooooo good? Oh my stomach is killing me. I took a long nap today. So I wont want to go to sleep tonite. Michael is still not home yet. I have not heard from him today. I hope he is OK. His knee is bothering him. I worry about if he can not work. Where will the Bacon come from? I got to have that BAcon! It is delicious!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Big Brother is boring now..

No Kaysar, No fun. It was boring tonite. Howie is not yelling at April no more. No fun. The whole day has been boring too. Maybe I am a boring person. I got to bored today with everything. Even The computer. Lord WHat happen?
Not much going on here. Just boring stuff. LOL I got an Lg&e guy coming to the house tomorrow to look around to see if he can save us any money on our electric bill. I sure hope so. Everything is so high these days. They say that bill is going up too this winter. It just went up last winter. Every one wants more Money. SO do I. Where can I get more? Well I think I will go to bed 'cause it is a boring nite. Nite Nite ALL........

I need more sleep!

I feel like I didn't get to sleep enough last nite with all that walking I did. Poor Ana woke me up after 12 with a bloody nose. I got up with her until it stopped and put her back to bed. Then this morning when we was about to walk out the door to school. It started up again. Lord this time I thought it would never stop. She was late for school. Great! The second week and already a tardy. I called the doctor so she has an appointment Thursday. She need to go to a specialist, but first has to go the regular doctor to get a referal. Thats so crazy! Now it will take a few weeks to get that appointment. They are just out for money$$$$$$$$$. Well My house is a mess I need to get my butt up and clean.

I am so sleepy...

We went to the fair and we walked, and walked, and walked. We walked so much my feet are numb. It was hot and expensive! I ate a funnel cake. Yum! YAY! Ana rode a few rides with Michael. It was a $1 a ticket and most rides took 4 tickets. With Michael riding with Ana it was like $8.00 a ride. They even had 5 ticket ones. I can't understand why rides cost so much. That is so crazy. Well I am off to bed. We got home around 9 at nite and we left at 10 this morning. Shoooooooo, did I say we walked alot?

a hot day

When is fall? I hope soon. I am so tired of hot weather. I could never live in Florida. I be complaining when it is winter too. So get ready. Ana and I went to the Ymca today and went swiming. I got me some sun. Yay. I am losing me tan. I need to get back in the tanning booth. I just watch BB6 and I am worried now that my team, (the good one) is not looking good for them. Beau got HOH and it is time for him to put 2 people on the block. I am sure he is going to pick Janelle and Howie. I still so sad that Kaysar left. But I am happy that Jennifer the liar is gone. YAY,YAY,YAY,YAY. I could keep going, but Ana just came in here wants me to wash some clothes for tomorrow(it is 10:00p.m.) to late to wash. We are going to the Kentucky State Fair tomorrow. It is alot of Walking. SHooooo My legs will be sore and chapped come Monday. Well, I got to run and wash her clothes.

No more sick. YAY!!

I am so happy that I am no more sick. I am just bored. I need to be cleaning, but too lazy to do so. I trying to get my laundry caught up. Lord I got mucho!!!! Michael cleaned his truck up the other day and brought all his nasty work clothes and sheets that he covers his seats in. So I got lots to do. But my BUTT loves my computer chair. lol Plus I am not having trouble with AOL today. YAY! I been online all day. Thats bad. I been trying to figure out who is leaving today on BB6. I hope that mean liar Jen. She is a 2 face witch. It sure is a hot day today. Well, I am going back to see about BB6 I don't want to miss nothing. So Have a hot and Happy day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am a true Kaysar fan!!!!

Black Thursday....So sad.

Here's looking at you, Kaysar.He tried to play a clean game but that just isn't an option when playing against the likes of Jennifer, Maggie, Ivette, James, etc.. he made some mistakes and admits to them, and he trashtalked some but didn't like doing it (although he was hysterical with it, and right on target)I think he'll be surprised by the amount of respect he's generated for himself and also by the number of fans who thinks he's just dreeeeamy.. overnight feedsters in particular will miss his humor and his odd but ever so watchable courtship of Janelle.. he'll be missed more than he knows

Oh me sickkkkkkkkkkkk

I am sick and don't know what is wrong with me. I woke up 5 something this morning freezing and shaking. I got up to take a hot shower, as hot as i could. I was in there for about 30 minutes it seems like. I just stood there with that steaming hot water hitting my body to warm me up. I was wanting to throw up too, but no can. I had a real bad asthma attack. I did my inhailer 3 times. Michael wanted to take me to the hospital. I hate hospitals! My whole body hurt later. And still does. I am sore in my ribs. Now i got a headach. I just ate a grilled cheese with 7up. SO I am happy I got something down. I was scared this morning. I had to drive Ana to the school and I thought I was not going to make it. I laid in bed all day, I am fixing to go back in there. It is BB6 nite. I can't wait to see who goes. I am sure Kaysar will be gone. He is such a hunk of a man. :) I like to meet him. Jump his bones. LOL No just joking. I am a married girl. Well feeling like I am getting sick again.

This is a funny one..................

Sunday

I am so sad. I want to cry. BB6 is getting on my last nerves. Why can someone promise you to keep you there and go ahead and put you on the block. Kayser just came back in the house. Now they want him to leave. He let this girl have HOH for she can see pictures of her boyfriend. And she promise not to put Kayser up that week and what is she going to do........Put up my honey bun. I want to hurt her. She is so little so it will be easy. LOL
I told Michael I want to have another child and soon. I am going to buy a test to see when I can get that away. Am I loca or what? I think watching BB6 has made me go nuts. I am turning 35 this Nov.(old) It is best to have a baby before you turn this age. Well if i do get pregnant i wont have it until May or April so I will be 35 1/2 and plus I am going to have that Lap band done in August 2006. So I better have one before I have that done. There is no for sure thing that i will get that away. I don't know if I can get pregnant. But I will try hard this month. It will be fun trying. LOL

Saturday

I wake up to my freakin allergies a mess. My eyes are ichy and running, my nose a sneezing a million times. I am hungry. I need to go to the store but don't want to get out in this heat. It is gonna be a hot one again. Michael left to go to work this morning. How he works in this I do not know. I am just glad he does, for pay these bills. One thing I can say about him is that he is not lazy and a go gether type of guy. I am not that away.
I think I am sick! I am sitting here thinking of what to eat and where to go and eat. Lord all I am thinking is FOOD! What a sicko. I wish I had some milk for some cereal. I got me some Honeycombs! I can eat those with no milk. Let me go see what I can go find in my empty kitchen..........

Friday...

I felt like I ate and ate today. I was soooooooooo hungry and could not get full. I made me sick. I ate 2 hot dogs with bread before I got on here and lord my stomach is killing me. My allergies are driving me nuts. My nose is sore from all the sneezing. I wish I could see Kayser I think I will feel better. :)))))

My grandma is in hospital and I want to go see her but I hate hospitals!!!!!! I am not that close to her but still she is my grandmother. She got fluid around her lungs and heart. Her heart is failing her. I need to go but I get so freakin nervous. I hate feeling this away. Why can't I be a normal person? If something happens to her before I get my nerves to go see her I will be so depress. I hope to go see her Sunday, I will make Michael go with me. I just don't want to go alone. I am a follower......

Kayser is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks America for voting him back in. Now I hope he shakes up the whole house ( and his butt too). It was a very good show tonite. I can't wait to find out who the HOH is next. Some heads are going to roll.
Went swiming today at the Y with me friend Dianna. I had a good time We need to get together more often. It sure was a great day to be in water. It was a hot one. When is summer over? Oh No then comes FALL. I like Fall but not all those freakin ugly leaves that comes off the trees. I got some big freakin trees in my yard too. Well, I am going to see if I can find out more about BB6 and who is going to be the next HOH.

Wed.

I been busy today. I moved my bedroom around and cleaned it. YAY! I finally got it done. SHoooooooooo it took me long enough to do it. I also clean my whole bath room. Yay I have no clue where i got this energy. But I better not stop now, got to keep it up...............

tuesday...

It is big brother nite. YAY! I can't wait. Not much going on I live a boreing life. LOL I am feelin' better. I am on some new stress med's. I have been eating less, not feeling hungry. That is a big PLUS++++++++++++ I am thing of having gastric bypass/ lap-band. I am so big and can't lose any weight. I think that is the only way out , so today I been calling ins. companies. Oh MY gOD!!!! They sure are high in price. I wonder if Michael let me take a loan on the house for this operation? Thats a bad ideal. I want to move so bad. This house is killing me. I feel it! So I need to get out of here. I even move to an appartment for a little while if I didn't have all these animals. I live in a jungle here. Cat/Toby, dog/ Pinto, dog/Buddy(my baby), 2 birds/coco & Loco. Whats next?


Well almost time for BB6....................

Monday

I been not feeling good in a few days so thats why am late on posting. It is like 1 week as of tomorrow that school starts. YAY! I hope I got a little energy this evening, I am going thru my clothes! I got so many and wear the same ol' thing. I probably got enough clothes here to wear something different every day. Too many! Why keep them if you do not wear them? Well I still got the energy so I best not stop. LOL

friday

Lets see........ I am having trouble with aol. Why me? Lets see how long can I be on this time. I wrote in the blog 2 times today and I get kicked off and can't recover my blog. I been haveing troubles alot so thats why I haven't writen in here. I get so freakin mad over this computer some times. It drives me crazy! I don't know what to do. I been on it for 2 days all day almost trying to see what the problem is. It is Aol. They don't like the Angel. Not much going on. I am going to send this in before I get a kick..............

doctor update

Went to the doctor Wed. they drew blood and PEEEEEEEEEEE. I could pee a little bit , I hope that was enough. I got a big bruise on my arm where they took the blood. I haven't heard from them so I hope my test are ok. But that is clinics for you, You could be dying and they wont tell ya, until it is too late. I remember my mom going there and telling her she had a sinus infection and really she had a tumor in her lungs. Then another time she went she had a broken leg and they sent her home did not even checked it, until she went to the ER and they did a X-ray on it. I hate Clinics. I am trying to get me some Insurance. I just don't want to get screwed with it. I don't know much about insurance. Whats a PPO and HMO? Whats the difference? WHo knows. I am thinking of getting insurance to have a Bypass surgrey. I thinking it is the only way out of my fat body.......................

Tuesday nite...

I feel like I can't breath. I been down today and I don't know why? Maybe I am scared to go to the doctor tomorrow. I don't know why, it is a clinic and I am sure I will come out of there the same way I went in there, Not knowing a freakin' thing about my health. I am sad today too. I watch Big brother. I don't want Kayser to leave. I like him. I am so sure he will. I just hope that Janell gets them back good. Don't be mean to Kayser. He looked kind of rough tonite. I think he knows he is leaving too. Poor Guy!

My plan was to go to bed early. I was in there, but I just could not sleep or breath. So I came in here (living room) and still I no can breath. I guess my asthma is acting up. I guess I need to tell the doctor to run some test on me. I need to know what is wrong with me. I know I am depress and I have no life. But hey! That is my choice that I have no life. I am so scared that I will get Cancer. Both parents had that and died. I thinking that stress will make you get it. My mom was so stress and depress after my dad died. She ended up with it too. I know now how life is so hard and confuse. What ways to go. How to get there. I want the best for my children. Am I able to give them the best? Why am I around negitive in my life? How do I get away from it and if I do. where do I go. I feel like I am stuck here in my life, I am afraid to step out that door sometimes. Afraid to go some where a lone. I watch t.v. and see how somepeople are so happy and get along so good with each other. Why can't my life be like that? I want a fraiy tale dream life. Every day I will be happy, energy,smiling, sunshine, a all time beautiful life....................Then I wake up..... :'(

Tuesday..

I am sitting here watching my friends little girl Gabby. She is so cute. It makes me want another kid. Ana is 9 years old, so I can't remember what it is like to have a little baby. Some times I think I want and some times I think I don't. I really can't make up my mind. Oh n0 I change the channel to LAZY TOWN. She wants to watch that. Oh Boy what a show! They didn't make these shows when I am growing up. No wonder why kids are the way they are. Too much violence in cartoons. They are so stupid, now these shows. I have to see what Gabby wants. I post more,later.......

15 more days until school. WOW!!! It is so hard to believe that summer is almost over. I almost got Ana stuff ready for school. I am glad. I got to eork on getting her some shoes and pants. I have a hard time finding pants for her. The size she can go around her is too long in lengh. I wish I knew how to sew and was good at it. Even if I was , I am too lazy to do it. I been planing all summer to move my room around and Have I done it yet? NOPE! I am just tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Lazy! Thats alot of o's. Oreo, Yum! That sounds good. Talking about O's. I like to have some right now. It has been awhile since I had a cookie. I better go to bed for I forget O's and food. So long.....