Friday

It is almost over the week. The weeks/months go by so fast! Lord comes November next. My birthday. I will be 35. Lord I am getting old. The more I get old the more nervous I get of getting closer to die. Both parents died in the 60's. So do I have only have 25 more years left of my life? Maybe less if I don't take care of myself. I am going to starting Nov. 1st I am going on a diet and not ever try not to eat fry food. My liver can not take it no more. I looked up on the computer to see about a FATTY liver. It is just a begining of something BAD. SO I need to take care of me for I can live past my 60's. I don't do drugs and don't drink. I just eat. I guess that is a drug too. It is like my best friend. It does not judge you on who you are. WHat you do. He is always there for you. Makes you feel real good at the time he is in your life(when you are eatting) I need to find a new best freind, don't ya say? Or a hobby. Well, sitting here is not getting nothing done. I been trying to get rid of stuff. I need to put more stuff on the computer to get rid of and to sell. Have a great Weekend. I will. It is my last weekend to eat fry food. LOL :0)

A week later....

It is Tuesday and it has been a week since I wrote in here. MY BAD! lol Well, you see I live a boring ol' life. I went to one of my friend house to take some picture of some stuff she is selling. I love her house. It makes me want a new house of my own. I am so ready to leave this dump. Me and Michael made a deal tonite. Save money for we can move. If we can save $50 a week and not eat out like we have been. It will work! Starting Nov. 1st we are gonna do that and I am going to start my diet. And I am going to clean this house out of junk! I can't take all this stuff with us when we move. SO I am going to get it out of here. Freecycle it! Yep. I am so determine now. Lets DO IT!!!!!

Tuesday

Man I got a big headach for days now. It does not want to go away. It loves me and wants to stay with me. LOL I go get my Ultra sound tomorrow. I am scared. I hope my hubby takes me. SOme times he is a BUTT and sometimes he can be sweet. This is a time I hope he is SWEET! I hate driving downtown. Plus I can't take Ana to school until after 8am. Thats what time my appointment is. SO she have to go to school late tomorrow. Yesterday there was no SChool. We ran the roads together. Had a good old time. I let her pick a place to eat out. And she picked Ci-Ci's pizza buffet. We was the first ones there as they open. It was nasty. I hardly ate. I love pizza! But not this place. Every time I went up there, there was no pizza there. So if there was good pizza I did not get any. It is time to go get Ana from school. What fun!

Sunday morning...

I am awake and ready for what hits me today. I just wonder what that is? Not much going on in my life. I rented movies last nite. We watched Ring Two. It was good. We got another scarey movie for tonite. I go Wed. for my Ultra sound. I am nervous for that. Shoot my appointment is at 8am. I am surpose to be there 60 minutes early they said(for why not 30?) Well, it is downtown(a place I no like to drive or go) and it is about 30 minutes away. So shoot What time will I have to get up? Should I no sleep. It is gonna feel like that. LOL I can't eat/drink 10 hours before it. Oh my :( So no breakfast/diet pepsi for me. I best get ready to start my Sunday.

Friday

I am so sad! We had to call the school after 7 yesterday to see if Ana made cheerleading. It was a recording, If they said her name then she made it. Well, they never said her name. It hurt her feelings so bad. I just knew this would happen. I just want to go to that school and cuss them out for hurting my baby. She is such a pretty little girl. She looked so cute those days practice and to try outs. I fixed her hair so nice and cute. Life is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday morning

I been so busy these few days. from Thurs. of last week until now. I been running the roads. I went to the dr. friday and my liver enzymes are still high. I have to go to another place to have an Ultra sound. Shoot I got my Hospital bill and it was almost $2000. Lord just for 2 1/2 hours at the Er. I am in the wrong business. Well, sitting at home is not a very good business anyway. LOL Ana has been staying after school all week for practice for Cheer-leading. They have try-out today. So I hope she makes it. And I hope she don't. I just don't want to have to take her to all the games. They are at another school and at nite. I hate driving at nite! We shall find out today if she makes it or not. She is so pretty and would make a good one, but also so shy. You have to be a go getter and be smiling and loud. Thats not Ana. Well, I best get myself busy and start cleaning my house.

It been a long time...........

ok so you been wondering why I have not write. Well last week I was sick. I went to Hospital with some serious stomach pains last Wed. nite.(11:30p.m.) and lord I was in pain! FInd out with some test that my Liver enzymes was high. So I had to go to dr. Friday to recheck my blood. I will not know any thing until Monday, when I go back to the dr to hear about my results. Scary! Next week is bad for me. I go to dr. and have to go to Court for my speeding ticket in a school zone. I am worried on how much I have to pay. It is coming X-mas and I need to be shopping. I did get a few things the other day for Ana. I want to get it over with! I hate spending all that money! Charging up me credit cards. I am still trying to pay from last year on Walmart. Well, I am off to eat some Funyuns, YUM-YUM!

Tuesday

What happen to me? I cleaned another closet out today. YIPPIE!!! If you see my closets, you would understand what a big job that is. AND IT IS BIG! Not the closets, but a super big job. It is break time now. I am watching Passion. That soap is so crazy. They got a witch on there. I wish I had some magic powers. I would clean this whole house in a jiffy. :0)
Well, break time is over! My job is to clean the bird cage next. Oh How much fun. To clean up bird poop.

Monday

It is almost over. Yay! I mean for today. I am wore out. I cleaned out my closet today and shooo do I have a lot of clothes I don't/ can't wear. Why keep them. I still have so much. My back is hurting me so much. I have to take me a strong pain pill tonite. Make me pass out one. I have so much trouble with my back and hip, plus my shouder. I am sure if I lose it would help. I need to clean Ana closet next. I need some more tubs. It makes it so much easier. Put everything in them! Well, I am off to order some Avon. I looked at the book and I since some stuff I like. I hope everyone has a wonderful sleeping nite. I know I will with the help from a little pill. LOL

SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I am wore out. Been out running around all day. Went to a few yard sales, shopping,eat out and to a fall festival. Shoooooooo wore out. I tell you! Plain wore out. Other then that nothing going on. I think tomorrow we are going to fix the bathroom. Michael has to take the toilet and sink out to replace the floor. It is the second time he has done that. The whole floor is rotten out. Not sure where the water is coming from. I just need a all new house! Well, I am getting off of here to go find a snack. Diet time is going to be Monday. I order this diet book The 3 hour diet. My cousin is on it and lost 56 lbs. So I shall try too. Pray that it works for me.

Friday, friday,friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is here the weekend. No more getting up early. Even though I still do. Sucks! I want to sleep in but can't seem to do so. I stayed busy yesterday. I cleaned my kitchen. I put a Halloween table cloth on my table. I am trying to get in the Fall mood. It sure don't feel like it when it is 90 degrees outside. I thinking it is going to be a lazy day today. It feels like it. It is so better for me to not get on this computer until I get my house work done. Cause once I am on line it is so long house work! See ya, don't want to be ya! I burn the roof of my mouth this morning eatting brown sugar oatmeal. It was toooooo hot. I hate having that feeling in my mouth. Well, I am off to watch the rest of Little House On the Prairie. Love that show!!!!!!!!!

A Better day..

Yes, It is a better day then yesterday. I was a little afraid to drive any where, but I did it any way. I ran to the Dollar store to get me 2 diet pepsi's ANd I was happy! Happy go Angel, thats's me. :) I went to go see my grandma today in the Nursing home, she is not doing to good. It was good to see her. I also seen my Cousin, it is sad that Ana and her never met. I just not close to my family like others. I wish I was. Oh well. Better luck next time, when I am around. I finally got a hold of Emily. I talk to her for 55 minutes on my cell phone. It was so nice to hear from her. I mailed her a good box today too. My first. I usally wait till I see her to give her stuff. But it looks like I wont see her for a long time :'( I guess I am giving my parent rights up for her. I don't think she ever get to come home. She'll be 18 and she will be able to do what she wants too. Maybe then she will get to come home. Oh well.Don't want to think about it. Time for bed.

My Horoscope.

The focus is you, and it should be. If you can't make yourself HAPPY, then how do you expect someone else to do it?

(that is so me, I don't like me and how do I expect others to like me? I can't even make myself happy.)

The Worst day!

Oh What a day. I am writing in black 'cause thats how I feel. Where do I start? I took Ana to school this morning and could not decide to go to Rite Aid to get my 6 pack of Diet Pepsi's. Well I said to myself go ahead and just go. If I no go I just go home and sit there and eat. Well I was on my way. I was driving down the street, when I heard a siren and I was looking to see where it was coming from. I finally seen it. So I stopped to let it pass. After it was gone I turned on to another street when I heard again another siren. I look behind me I seen a cop. SO I thought it want to pass me so i get over. Darn if the freakin' cop was gonna give me a ticket. He said I was speeding in a school Zone. Well school had already started and it was past time. So Whats the problem? Why he gave me a ticket? That sucks big time. It is not payable. I have to go to court. I get so freakin' nervous when I go down town anyway. I have to go in Oct. and I am already nervous thinking about it. Well, I never made it to get my 6 pack of Diet Pepsi's. I was so upset and turned around and went back home crying. Will I ever get out again? I hate myself for going now. I almost did not go! Why did I? I could have prevent it(the ticket). Why me? Why me? :'''''((((

Tuesday

I got my exercise today. I went to Krogers and walked down every isle plus a couple twice. They moved everything around in there. I could not find nothing! It has been the same way for years. Why change it? Oh well At least I got me exercise. Not much going on here. I made 2 pumpkin pies today. Real easy! Just buy the can and milk and eggs and you can't go wrong. LOL And I didn't! Yay! I just not a pie maker. I ate a piece and it was good with whip cream. Yum-Yum. I got a lot of t.v. to watch tonite. Biggest Loser 8-9, Dancing with the Stars 8:30-10, Big Brother 9-10 and I wanted to watch that new show too My name is Earl at 9. I need Tivo. Maybe I can tape one of the shows in Ana room. Thats too much trouble. Why does all the shows have to come on in one nite? And some at the same time. I be going back to channels during commercials. I better go and start dinner. I want to get that done before all these shows come on. :) Have a good busy television Nite!

Monday morning...

All back to normal. Michael at work, Ana at school and I am home cleaning. I am on a break now. I think I did a good job so far. I got me some plastic containers to store clothes in, so I am thinking that is my next job. I need to clean out closets out. Shoooooo And that is a tough job there. I just got so much stuff. No where to put it. I got me a good place that I will put stuff that I will give to Salvation army. GIVE--GIVE! If I don't wear it why keep it? If I lose weight I just have to go shopping for new clothes. Thats all to it. Why keep clothes that I have not wore in years? Well, Back to cleaning. I got to catch up on my laundry! I let it get so out of hand. Now I can't catch up on it. So I am off to see the wizzard. The wonderful Wizzard of Laundry!

Saturday

I am too tired! I don't know why? I am so ready for a nap. Me and Michael talked last nite about moving. I am so ready to get out of this little, old, ugly, deathly house. It goes back to my grandma, she died here in this house, my dad got the house and he died in this house, my mom left with the house and she died in this house, I am left with this house and I am dying a slow death here in this house. I got to stop the cycle. I got to live somewhere else. I am too young to die. I got a life some where out there. And it will be a hppy one from now to the end of my life. I am going to have a nice house, nice car ( I got that now me safria van:) I want all the extras in life too. All nice stuff! I am worth it! I think! I have had a hard life and going to get rid of all that negitive and be possitive! I think I said that before. LOL!!! So let's get real! I am off to go take a snooze, maybe.

ffriday-friday morning

I had to go to the doctor this morning. Why going to a freakin clinic is so bad? I told them I been feelin sick lately. Did she do any test on me? NOPE! I go back in 3 weeks and increase my stress pills. I did my ovulation test last nite and i am not ovulated, I guess. It is that time so don't know why I am not ovulated. Hummmm? MAybe today. Those test are a little hard to understand. Maybe by my next trip to the doctor I will be pregnant. Shoot, they probably wont even run a test on me and I wont know. Sucks the clinic! I wish to have insurance to go to a for real doctor. Well, i need to clean and put my turkey breast in the crock pot.Yum-yum.

Thursday afternoon....

Oh how I been sick! I hate this! I want to be well again. This past week and last weekend... Shoooooooooo I was fever and throwing up and dizzy. What is wrong with me? Yesterday I went to Krogers and I walked down the coffee isle and I love the smell of coffee (don't like the taste but smells wonderful) I thought I was gonna threw up from the smell of coffee. I don't think I am pregnant. Auntie flow was here a few weeks ago. It was a short one but it was here. Today I feel ok. I have to go see my lawyer and talk to her over my case with Emily. It looks like it is better to volunteer my rights up before they take them away. It i volunteer them up, there is no court/trail thing. I hate to have to bring up all that mess again. Me and Michael is really getting along latly. He did make me mad last weekend, but I am over that. So today *I went to get a ovulation kit. If it is not to late. LOL I don't know why I want to have another kid. I am so scared of going thru that pain again. That is if I can get that away. Well we shall see after this month.

Thursday

Oh am I sick. Again! It sucks. I was fever last nite and in the nite my fever broke and I made the bed and my nite clothes all wet from sweat. I been laying around today. I feel like I need to throw up. Ana driving me crazy. She wants a friend to come over and I feel like crap. I hope this little girl don't get what i got. Michael came home early today and now is in the bed. I wonder if he has it now. I am scared to go in the room to see about him. I don't want him to get sick 'cause he brings home the BACON. We need that BACON!!! Yummy! Well, i need to get off to check on Ana. :((((

Tuesday afternoon..

Court day was today. I got Michael to take me. Thanks honey! I am glad he did. I just can't drive downtown if I got to park in a parking garage. I got a mini van and it seems tall. I get so nervous going in that I have to close my eyes. It went fast today. I got to go for a trail in Jan. They sure take there sweet lil' time. This stuff has been going on and on that it is driving me in sane. No wonder I am depress and stress out. Not much going on here like always, I live a boring life with stress in it. I need to clean and go to the store. I have to wait until I pick up Ana, before I go to the store. I NEED MILK!!! :) love me skim milk~

Monday Nite

HAPPY LABOR DAY ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not much going on just taking it SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO easy! And I do mean SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO easy. It is just like another day to me. LOL A easy day. Relaxing, taking naps,eating,on the computer,relaxing again. No soaps on! So that is gonna drive me crazy. I got to go to court tomorrow. So I am nervous. I post tomorrow about me day.

SSSsaturday..........

I am sitting here watching kids shows. Ana going to spend the nite at a friends house. Michael is working, so I will be here alone. Poor Me. :'( I got tons of stuff to do and like always I am sitting in me comfortable computer chair. At least I had a shower and ate of course. But here lately thats a all day event for me. I hope I get some energy when I come back from my running. I hope all has a good long weekend. Me it is just another day alone...............

friday nite.....

Not much going on. Dianna came over and tried to fix me computer. Thanks Honey child! I wuv you. She is so sweet. We need to do more together stuff.
I got White Castles out. Lord I know why they call them Sliders. They are killin' me tonite. I just went to pee,
It smelled like onions. My gas smells like the burgers. LOL
Great! Well, gonna go to bed.

September all ready?

I could not believe that it is already another month gone. Where did August go? It came and went. I watched BB6 tonite. YAY! James is gone and one of the good guys has HOH. I hope that Ivette goes. I hate that witch with a capital B. I been so down today. All this about Katrina. Its been on all day about those poor people dying and no food and water for days. I seen all these babies about ready for death with nothing to drink, in their moms arms just bearly hanging on. IT IS SO SAD!!!!!! I cried. Michael is watching some more of it now in spanish. It makes me so sick to see all this. Now gas is do high. I don't see me going no where. I just can't believe it all. Its like 911 all over again. Well I am get tried of watching this I am off to bed. Nite Nite all!

Wed. morning

It is the middle of the week. What have I did? Not a freakin thing. Today I plan on cleaning. It is already 10:40 and I am still on the computer since 9 this morning. SHoooooooooooo why is computering so addictive? I got tons of things to do. I had to go to court yesterday about my oldest daughter. I seen her dad.OH MY GOD!!!!!! I hate him for not being in her life. I know that is why she is the way she is today. He hasn't seen her since she was 7-8 years old. Now she is 16. Well, Pay backs are hell. He has gain so much weight! I thought I had. SHooooooooooooo nope! He has gain so much that he looks sickly looking. Like one of those people you see on a talk show in the hospital or home and can't leave. He has to weight 500-600lbs. I was in shock. When we was married he weight around 250. He was a big guy, big bones. But that big now. He is going to die for sure. That big. That makes me want to go on a diet for sure. I can't get that big. I am already big now. I got to get back in the gym, that does help. I will start eatting fruit and veggies. But I have to wait until tomorrow. I made rice puddin' last nite. Yum! That reminds me, got to run and get me some out!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday

Not much going on here, just alot of rain and rain. Is it going to stop? My yard is flooded. I had to wake up extra early this morning so I am going to bed now. Well, after BB6. Rain, Rain go away come back again another day..............

Monday

It is the begining of the week. What do I do? I almost eat a half a gallon of ice cream. I now I feel sick. I want to throw up. I end up throwing the rest of it in garbage. :)
It is a ugly day, and coming more ugly days. We are surpose to get so much rain in the next couple days. They are a little too late for the rain all my flowers have already died with no rain this summer. I'm to lazy to get the hose out and water them. Fall is coming. I like the temps in fall, but I sure don't like those leaves from all the big trees in my yard. I guess me and Michael made up. I cooked him breakfast this morning before he left. I am going to fix Nachos for dinner. Ana will be home late today. She is in Wildcat singers at school. Today the first day. She also signed up to be on the safety patrol for school too. SHe is growing up fast. She be in high school and having her first job next. I feel so old. I am only 34. Gosh in November I'll be a year older. I am surpose to have a baby before 35. After that age it is hard on you to get pregnant and the baby.
Well, my soaps are on. Got to watch them. General Hospital is getting good.

Sunday :(

We went sofa looking. I have such different taste in stuff then Michael has. He wants a leather for no dog hair will stick on it. Ok. I hate leather!!!!!!!!!!!! When you are hot and you have shorts on and you get up fast you leave your skin on the leather. Why do I have to have a freakin' dog that is losing his hair so much? I hate him. I have to vacume everyday and sweep the kitchen 2 times a day. Hair is every where! We are not safe eating in this house. I am so sick on it. He (pinto)is Michael dog, but my god then he should do something about him. I wanted to shave him, I know that I can't. Pinto don't listen to me like he does Michael so why didn't he shaved him yet? No telling and now it is toooooo late. He needs his fur for the cold winter months that are coming.
Ok back to the sofa thing.... I need a sofa and soon! We was going to charge some of it. I do not understand why sofas cost so much? You would think they have gold in 'em, for the price that they sale them for. I think I never will get a sofa. I got a freakin' hair up my butt and got rid of the one we had a few months ago. I guess more then a few. Well, we went to Value city to look at them. They sure don't have many selections. The one we almost got was Brown (yuck) they could come in Blue and Cream color ( not with kids and dogs, a cat or 2 flying mother fu**in' birds that I don't like either). Man can you tell that I am in a bad mood? I never cuss only when I am freakin' mad.
Why did god have to make up men? I think I would have been happy with girls only. I would of I think? Who knows!
A big storm is coming! It is surpose to rain alot this week. Oh great that means Michael will be at home. Well, I think I have fussed enough. Freakin' Satellite keeps going out. Can't watch t.v. when the wind blows. I should have kept my regular cable that keeps going up and up.
Have a great Sunday! I hope mine gets better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday

I am so bored. Not much to do today, or at least not much I want to do. I just want to be lazy. Been on the computer all day and nothing to do on here. Ana had a friend spend the nite last nite over. I was waiting her to go home when they asked me if she can spend another nite over. Lord, thats gonna screw up my Sunday. We all ways go out on Sunday like a family thing. I bet Michael is gonna be mad. I was thinking going to the nursing home to see my grandma tomorrow. I can't go now. Oh well. I should be cleaning my house instead of typing on the computer. It looks like it is going to be a longggggggggggg day. A long Boring day. Maybe Mr. Energy may stop by and help clean this house.
Am I dreaming or what?

Friday is here........

The week end is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No school! No getting up early!!!!! Taking it easy!!!!!!!!!!!! Well that one is everyday. LOL I feel so much better. I got an e-mail from my aunt telling me that my grandma is moved to a nursing home. Michael did not work today, so we went to go see her. I got to see her. YAY! Only for a little while. BUt atleast I seen her and told her that I love her. So if any thing happens, lord I hope not. I think she knows that I care. I am not close to her and I don't know why. When I seen her she reminds me of my MOM so much. Maybe that is why I am not close to any of my family. I am just a loner. I wish I was not that away. I am thinking going on a diet Monday. It is only because I am so full now. I ate MOBY DICK's a whale of a sandwich. I am so thirsty that I can't even drink cause I am soooooooooooo full. I had to walk down our street earler, it about killed me. It was hot and humid and the walk........ Shoooooo I am not in shape. I need to get back to exercising. Well, I think I will go see what my 9 year old is doing. She has a guest over for the nite. Oh how much fun.

Thursday

I been sitting on my big butt all day! Well,except when I laid on it. Took a nap. I can't seem to find any energy. If any one knows where to find him let me know. He just don't come a knocking at my door these days. I took Ana to the doctor today to get a referal to see a specialist. What as I figure they don't want me to go to one yet. Told me to get a humidifier for Ana room. SHoot those are high. The ones I seen in the store. I sure need to get up from my butt. But, I sat here to long that it is sleeping in this chair. So, I don't have much to post. Same ol' thing, just a different day. I need to go cook some dinner. I think I make Michael chix soup and don't know what to fix me and ANa. I am not hungry, 'cause I ate all day like always.
Have a wonderful rest of the day! Don't forget to let me know where I can find that Energy!

Milk shake...........

Why did they make Malts? I just made one for me and I feel sick now. I drunk too much of it. BUT Darn It was sooooooooooooooooooo good and cold. I am getting fatter and fatter. I have to take Ana to the dr at 9. So she be going to school late. I have to stop and feed her before school, so I am in my mind making plans. Going to Big Boy breakfast buffet. I love pan cakes and French toast. I haven't ate dinner yet. I don't think I could from that malted milk shake. It was Choc. too. Did I tell ya it was soooooooooooooo good? Oh my stomach is killing me. I took a long nap today. So I wont want to go to sleep tonite. Michael is still not home yet. I have not heard from him today. I hope he is OK. His knee is bothering him. I worry about if he can not work. Where will the Bacon come from? I got to have that BAcon! It is delicious!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Big Brother is boring now..

No Kaysar, No fun. It was boring tonite. Howie is not yelling at April no more. No fun. The whole day has been boring too. Maybe I am a boring person. I got to bored today with everything. Even The computer. Lord WHat happen?
Not much going on here. Just boring stuff. LOL I got an Lg&e guy coming to the house tomorrow to look around to see if he can save us any money on our electric bill. I sure hope so. Everything is so high these days. They say that bill is going up too this winter. It just went up last winter. Every one wants more Money. SO do I. Where can I get more? Well I think I will go to bed 'cause it is a boring nite. Nite Nite ALL........

I need more sleep!

I feel like I didn't get to sleep enough last nite with all that walking I did. Poor Ana woke me up after 12 with a bloody nose. I got up with her until it stopped and put her back to bed. Then this morning when we was about to walk out the door to school. It started up again. Lord this time I thought it would never stop. She was late for school. Great! The second week and already a tardy. I called the doctor so she has an appointment Thursday. She need to go to a specialist, but first has to go the regular doctor to get a referal. Thats so crazy! Now it will take a few weeks to get that appointment. They are just out for money$$$$$$$$$. Well My house is a mess I need to get my butt up and clean.

I am so sleepy...

We went to the fair and we walked, and walked, and walked. We walked so much my feet are numb. It was hot and expensive! I ate a funnel cake. Yum! YAY! Ana rode a few rides with Michael. It was a $1 a ticket and most rides took 4 tickets. With Michael riding with Ana it was like $8.00 a ride. They even had 5 ticket ones. I can't understand why rides cost so much. That is so crazy. Well I am off to bed. We got home around 9 at nite and we left at 10 this morning. Shoooooooo, did I say we walked alot?

a hot day

When is fall? I hope soon. I am so tired of hot weather. I could never live in Florida. I be complaining when it is winter too. So get ready. Ana and I went to the Ymca today and went swiming. I got me some sun. Yay. I am losing me tan. I need to get back in the tanning booth. I just watch BB6 and I am worried now that my team, (the good one) is not looking good for them. Beau got HOH and it is time for him to put 2 people on the block. I am sure he is going to pick Janelle and Howie. I still so sad that Kaysar left. But I am happy that Jennifer the liar is gone. YAY,YAY,YAY,YAY. I could keep going, but Ana just came in here wants me to wash some clothes for tomorrow(it is 10:00p.m.) to late to wash. We are going to the Kentucky State Fair tomorrow. It is alot of Walking. SHooooo My legs will be sore and chapped come Monday. Well, I got to run and wash her clothes.

No more sick. YAY!!

I am so happy that I am no more sick. I am just bored. I need to be cleaning, but too lazy to do so. I trying to get my laundry caught up. Lord I got mucho!!!! Michael cleaned his truck up the other day and brought all his nasty work clothes and sheets that he covers his seats in. So I got lots to do. But my BUTT loves my computer chair. lol Plus I am not having trouble with AOL today. YAY! I been online all day. Thats bad. I been trying to figure out who is leaving today on BB6. I hope that mean liar Jen. She is a 2 face witch. It sure is a hot day today. Well, I am going back to see about BB6 I don't want to miss nothing. So Have a hot and Happy day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am a true Kaysar fan!!!!

Black Thursday....So sad.

Here's looking at you, Kaysar.He tried to play a clean game but that just isn't an option when playing against the likes of Jennifer, Maggie, Ivette, James, etc.. he made some mistakes and admits to them, and he trashtalked some but didn't like doing it (although he was hysterical with it, and right on target)I think he'll be surprised by the amount of respect he's generated for himself and also by the number of fans who thinks he's just dreeeeamy.. overnight feedsters in particular will miss his humor and his odd but ever so watchable courtship of Janelle.. he'll be missed more than he knows

Oh me sickkkkkkkkkkkk

I am sick and don't know what is wrong with me. I woke up 5 something this morning freezing and shaking. I got up to take a hot shower, as hot as i could. I was in there for about 30 minutes it seems like. I just stood there with that steaming hot water hitting my body to warm me up. I was wanting to throw up too, but no can. I had a real bad asthma attack. I did my inhailer 3 times. Michael wanted to take me to the hospital. I hate hospitals! My whole body hurt later. And still does. I am sore in my ribs. Now i got a headach. I just ate a grilled cheese with 7up. SO I am happy I got something down. I was scared this morning. I had to drive Ana to the school and I thought I was not going to make it. I laid in bed all day, I am fixing to go back in there. It is BB6 nite. I can't wait to see who goes. I am sure Kaysar will be gone. He is such a hunk of a man. :) I like to meet him. Jump his bones. LOL No just joking. I am a married girl. Well feeling like I am getting sick again.

This is a funny one..................

Sunday

I am so sad. I want to cry. BB6 is getting on my last nerves. Why can someone promise you to keep you there and go ahead and put you on the block. Kayser just came back in the house. Now they want him to leave. He let this girl have HOH for she can see pictures of her boyfriend. And she promise not to put Kayser up that week and what is she going to do........Put up my honey bun. I want to hurt her. She is so little so it will be easy. LOL
I told Michael I want to have another child and soon. I am going to buy a test to see when I can get that away. Am I loca or what? I think watching BB6 has made me go nuts. I am turning 35 this Nov.(old) It is best to have a baby before you turn this age. Well if i do get pregnant i wont have it until May or April so I will be 35 1/2 and plus I am going to have that Lap band done in August 2006. So I better have one before I have that done. There is no for sure thing that i will get that away. I don't know if I can get pregnant. But I will try hard this month. It will be fun trying. LOL

Saturday

I wake up to my freakin allergies a mess. My eyes are ichy and running, my nose a sneezing a million times. I am hungry. I need to go to the store but don't want to get out in this heat. It is gonna be a hot one again. Michael left to go to work this morning. How he works in this I do not know. I am just glad he does, for pay these bills. One thing I can say about him is that he is not lazy and a go gether type of guy. I am not that away.
I think I am sick! I am sitting here thinking of what to eat and where to go and eat. Lord all I am thinking is FOOD! What a sicko. I wish I had some milk for some cereal. I got me some Honeycombs! I can eat those with no milk. Let me go see what I can go find in my empty kitchen..........

Friday...

I felt like I ate and ate today. I was soooooooooo hungry and could not get full. I made me sick. I ate 2 hot dogs with bread before I got on here and lord my stomach is killing me. My allergies are driving me nuts. My nose is sore from all the sneezing. I wish I could see Kayser I think I will feel better. :)))))

My grandma is in hospital and I want to go see her but I hate hospitals!!!!!! I am not that close to her but still she is my grandmother. She got fluid around her lungs and heart. Her heart is failing her. I need to go but I get so freakin nervous. I hate feeling this away. Why can't I be a normal person? If something happens to her before I get my nerves to go see her I will be so depress. I hope to go see her Sunday, I will make Michael go with me. I just don't want to go alone. I am a follower......

Kayser is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks America for voting him back in. Now I hope he shakes up the whole house ( and his butt too). It was a very good show tonite. I can't wait to find out who the HOH is next. Some heads are going to roll.
Went swiming today at the Y with me friend Dianna. I had a good time We need to get together more often. It sure was a great day to be in water. It was a hot one. When is summer over? Oh No then comes FALL. I like Fall but not all those freakin ugly leaves that comes off the trees. I got some big freakin trees in my yard too. Well, I am going to see if I can find out more about BB6 and who is going to be the next HOH.

Wed.

I been busy today. I moved my bedroom around and cleaned it. YAY! I finally got it done. SHoooooooooo it took me long enough to do it. I also clean my whole bath room. Yay I have no clue where i got this energy. But I better not stop now, got to keep it up...............

tuesday...

It is big brother nite. YAY! I can't wait. Not much going on I live a boreing life. LOL I am feelin' better. I am on some new stress med's. I have been eating less, not feeling hungry. That is a big PLUS++++++++++++ I am thing of having gastric bypass/ lap-band. I am so big and can't lose any weight. I think that is the only way out , so today I been calling ins. companies. Oh MY gOD!!!! They sure are high in price. I wonder if Michael let me take a loan on the house for this operation? Thats a bad ideal. I want to move so bad. This house is killing me. I feel it! So I need to get out of here. I even move to an appartment for a little while if I didn't have all these animals. I live in a jungle here. Cat/Toby, dog/ Pinto, dog/Buddy(my baby), 2 birds/coco & Loco. Whats next?


Well almost time for BB6....................

Monday

I been not feeling good in a few days so thats why am late on posting. It is like 1 week as of tomorrow that school starts. YAY! I hope I got a little energy this evening, I am going thru my clothes! I got so many and wear the same ol' thing. I probably got enough clothes here to wear something different every day. Too many! Why keep them if you do not wear them? Well I still got the energy so I best not stop. LOL

friday

Lets see........ I am having trouble with aol. Why me? Lets see how long can I be on this time. I wrote in the blog 2 times today and I get kicked off and can't recover my blog. I been haveing troubles alot so thats why I haven't writen in here. I get so freakin mad over this computer some times. It drives me crazy! I don't know what to do. I been on it for 2 days all day almost trying to see what the problem is. It is Aol. They don't like the Angel. Not much going on. I am going to send this in before I get a kick..............

doctor update

Went to the doctor Wed. they drew blood and PEEEEEEEEEEE. I could pee a little bit , I hope that was enough. I got a big bruise on my arm where they took the blood. I haven't heard from them so I hope my test are ok. But that is clinics for you, You could be dying and they wont tell ya, until it is too late. I remember my mom going there and telling her she had a sinus infection and really she had a tumor in her lungs. Then another time she went she had a broken leg and they sent her home did not even checked it, until she went to the ER and they did a X-ray on it. I hate Clinics. I am trying to get me some Insurance. I just don't want to get screwed with it. I don't know much about insurance. Whats a PPO and HMO? Whats the difference? WHo knows. I am thinking of getting insurance to have a Bypass surgrey. I thinking it is the only way out of my fat body.......................

Tuesday nite...

I feel like I can't breath. I been down today and I don't know why? Maybe I am scared to go to the doctor tomorrow. I don't know why, it is a clinic and I am sure I will come out of there the same way I went in there, Not knowing a freakin' thing about my health. I am sad today too. I watch Big brother. I don't want Kayser to leave. I like him. I am so sure he will. I just hope that Janell gets them back good. Don't be mean to Kayser. He looked kind of rough tonite. I think he knows he is leaving too. Poor Guy!

My plan was to go to bed early. I was in there, but I just could not sleep or breath. So I came in here (living room) and still I no can breath. I guess my asthma is acting up. I guess I need to tell the doctor to run some test on me. I need to know what is wrong with me. I know I am depress and I have no life. But hey! That is my choice that I have no life. I am so scared that I will get Cancer. Both parents had that and died. I thinking that stress will make you get it. My mom was so stress and depress after my dad died. She ended up with it too. I know now how life is so hard and confuse. What ways to go. How to get there. I want the best for my children. Am I able to give them the best? Why am I around negitive in my life? How do I get away from it and if I do. where do I go. I feel like I am stuck here in my life, I am afraid to step out that door sometimes. Afraid to go some where a lone. I watch t.v. and see how somepeople are so happy and get along so good with each other. Why can't my life be like that? I want a fraiy tale dream life. Every day I will be happy, energy,smiling, sunshine, a all time beautiful life....................Then I wake up..... :'(

Tuesday..

I am sitting here watching my friends little girl Gabby. She is so cute. It makes me want another kid. Ana is 9 years old, so I can't remember what it is like to have a little baby. Some times I think I want and some times I think I don't. I really can't make up my mind. Oh n0 I change the channel to LAZY TOWN. She wants to watch that. Oh Boy what a show! They didn't make these shows when I am growing up. No wonder why kids are the way they are. Too much violence in cartoons. They are so stupid, now these shows. I have to see what Gabby wants. I post more,later.......

15 more days until school. WOW!!! It is so hard to believe that summer is almost over. I almost got Ana stuff ready for school. I am glad. I got to eork on getting her some shoes and pants. I have a hard time finding pants for her. The size she can go around her is too long in lengh. I wish I knew how to sew and was good at it. Even if I was , I am too lazy to do it. I been planing all summer to move my room around and Have I done it yet? NOPE! I am just tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Lazy! Thats alot of o's. Oreo, Yum! That sounds good. Talking about O's. I like to have some right now. It has been awhile since I had a cookie. I better go to bed for I forget O's and food. So long.....

Sunday nite...

This is the last day of the month. Where in the heck did it go? Am I missing something here? I must have missed the whole month cause it went by so fast. We went to the Hot ZOO today. I am wore out from all that walking. SHOOOOOOOOOOOOO My feet hurt. I am so ready to take a shower and get in the bed. I have done bad this weekend. I went off of my diet. A SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO again.

Friday nite Michael wanted PIZZA! So I blame that one on him ( at least that nite) Pizza is my all time favorite food! I have to eat it. So I did! I have no willpower! So come Saturday morning I had to eat the rest of it. It was even good cold. LOL Me and ANa went to a church picnic it was hot too. I didn't want to come home to cook so I stoped at MOBY DICK ( a whale of a sandwich) And it was a whale allright! LOL Me! I love fried Fish!( I blame that one on me now) :)))))
Then,this morning Michael loves breakfast out! So we went to Jerry Boy's and I had Fench toast with bacon ( Yum) biscuits and gravey (YUM). Why Diet? I am not losing. I go to doctor Wed. I will ask him to do some test on me to see why in the heck I can't lose. I am off to go cool off in a shower. Everyone have a good nite-nite!

Friday morning...

I am so depress. I got on my scale and it said 3 + pounds more then yesterday. How in the world can I gain 3+ lbs in one day? I am doing everything right! I do need to exercise, but thats it. I am watching my carbs! I am so scared something is wrong with me. I wish I had insurance, I would have my stomach stapled. I think thats the only way for me to go. This weight is killing me and making me so depress. I am going to eat me a low carb ice cream sandwich. I may feel better after that.........

Thursday nite....

This week is almost over. It is getting closer to school starting. I don't know if I will be happy or unhappy. I hate the homework fights. The rushing in the morning getting Ana ready to go to school. I hate it all. But the good thing about is I have PEACE! I wont have some one following me around all day and being bored. I still have my two dogs following me. I just am stress out. I don't know why. I'm on this freakin' diet and I think it is not working. I been on it for 23 days and I should have lost at least 15 lbs. NOPE! I don't think so. I am going to the dr next week and if I do not drop some weight it is over between me and no carbs. I just got done watching Big Brother. I can't believe Maggie won Head of Household. It is pay back time Kayser. I like him too. I am so glad Eric is out of there. But I know she is going to pick Kayser to get out of the house. Poor guy................

Wed. nite

I been having computer problems! I wrote in here yesterday but didn't take. Not much going on here. It is a little cooler then it has been,but I am still sweating. Michael is home and says no air for the Angel tonite. I will toast my buns off. I have to sleep with Ana and turn her air on. I love to sleep in the cool. We went to a water park yesterday. I went down a water slide! YAY Angel! Go Angel it's your birthday. Get down Angel! Lol I can't believe it. I don't like to go under water either. When you drop from the slide you land in 3.9 feet. It look so much fun. I was screaming all the way down. I went down so fast. SHOOOOOOOOOOOO and then I was gone. I went under and almost drown. :'( I was scared. Water all in my nose and mouth and eyes. I forgot to not breath or hold my nose. Now I can say I have done that in my life. I got to run and take a cold shower. Micheal is making me sweat with no air on here.

MONDAY HOT DAY...

I am writing in red cause I am on fire. It is so hot today! It was the hottest of the year. Lord! I can't breath in this kind of weather. Michael did not have work today. Thank god for him! I don't know how in the world he can get on a roof in this heat. I took Ana to the dentist and the freakin' air was down. How and why didn't they call me and tell me before I sweat 20 lbs off while I was waiting for Ana to get finish. LOL My shorts was wet when I got up from my chair. Then I had to wait for ever for the Dentist come to talk to me about what they did. They had fans a going. But they seem to forget about the waiting room. I guess it is good to sweat! I just hate to take so many showers in the day. Well, I am going to get ready for beddy bye. This is the first time I had a chance to get on the computer. I been busy.............

Sunday.....

I don't know where Saturday went? It is already Sunday, then Monday,Tuesday, you all get the point. LOL I am sitting at home like always. Not much to do. Afraid to go outside. It is supper Dupper Hot!!!! They said it was going to get up to 110 heat index today. SHoooooooo That tells me to keep ur big butt in the house. So I am. Ana not feeling to good today. I am so hungry today. I ate around 2:30 some turkey salad and pork rinds. I am so sick of Pork rinds. YUCK! I need another snack food. I ate all the cashews up yesterday. I plain on not buying any more for a while. Or any nuts!!! They made my stomach kill me the other day. I got to start going back to the gym. I need me exercise! I was starting to tone my legs and now..........Lord I need help! I just don't feel like getting out in this heat. I did go swimming Sat. at the Y. It got busy full of wild kids so I didn't stay long. But that water was so nice! It was like heaven just floating around in there. RELAXING!!!! I am waiting here for Michael to come back home. Lucky him, He gets to leave but no Angel. I am stuck here. BORING!! Nothing to do. I got to take Ana to the dentist tomorrow. Runs my day. It is going to be a nice day to swim. I am off to watch Days of our lives for the past week.

Friday

It is a hot one out there. Don't want to go any where this weekend. It is going to be up to 105 heat index. When it is that hot I am staying in. I had to go to walmart (super) I am in love with that store. Michael cashed in all his change that he has been saving. We count only the silver coins. $272.00 YAY! So he wants to buy Ana a trampoline. So I had to go pick it up today there. It was $252. Now I just have to wait until he comes home to put it up. It probably wont be until tomorrow. It is so heavy! I been having trouble with my stomach all day. I am bloated with gas. It is killing me. I think I ate too many cashews this morning. Well. I need to get off and try to pass some gas. It is so hard for me to do. Hope everyone has a great and wonderful weekend!

Thursday nite.....

Today my mom has been dead for 6 years. It is always a sad day for me. I always get depress on this day. I just don't understand why God had to take her. I still need my mom! She did everything for me. She was my Best friend! There was times that I would get so mad at her. I know now she had a bad life growing up and bad things happen to her. I never heard my mom tell me that she loved me. When I had Emily she was so close to her then me. She got her everything and she left me out. I heard her tell Emily that she loved her but never me. I don't know why on that one. I never told her either. I found out later that her mom was the same way. DON'T share their feelings. I am trying to break that cycle, I tell Ana all the time that I love her. I hope she knows too. Well enough talk about the past. I have to think off the future now. I had to run early, because Michael came home and I still in P.J.'s and hadn't done nothing. Not even eat. Dang! Ana driving me crazy to take her back to super Wal-mart to get her that Trampline. I want to go but want to have money to spend there. I need to find some stuff to sell. Well, I am off to go and talk to my friend Dianna. She is IM me.

Thursday

I am staying in today. I need to be cleaning. I just can't get myself up out of this chair. I am so hungry too and to lazy to get up. I made me a turkey Breast yesterday in the crock pot. Yum it was so good. So today I gonna make me turkey salad. I can't wait to sink my teeth into that. First I have to go make it. I feel no energy today. Maybe, because I have no fuel in my tank. LOL It is going on 1 time for Days. We went to the YMCA yesterday and went swimming again. YAY! I try to do exercise in the water so I hope that helps. I can't get my butt into the GYM either. It is tooo hot to exercise. I will die of a heat stoke in the gym. LOL We don't want that. I got a new Wal-MArt that open yesterday close to me. It is a super one. I went there too. It is so nice. They was talking about how busy they was yesterday and how much stock they put up. Got to run.

I am mad! I wrote in here early, and it did not go thru. I tried to recover it. But nothing. Sucks! Now I can't remember what I wrote about early. HUMMMMMMMM........ I went to the YMCA (me and Ana) went swimming. Then went to tanning booth after. I thought I didn't get enought sun from the pool. WRONG! My face is on fire! I feel so much heat on my checks. Not my butt checks either. LOL Those are some big checks. :))))) I need a big sun for those! Big brother was kind of good tonite. They almost got into it on there. I am proud of me today ! I didn't eat much! I ate the rest of my low carb meat loaf for Breakfast/lunch. Yum! I have to make another one of those soon. Tonite I had to cheese burger patties with green beans and some smoke sausage. I cooked bacon too, But forgot about it in the oven. WHOOPS! My house was smokin! LOL. My birds got a clean cage, I got the weeds out of my flower bed in front. I been busy when I came home from my outing. Lord what got into me last nite I cleaning cabnets out. I had so many plastic containers and pans. I just got some new plastics the other day they had them mark down in Krogers. So why keep the old? I am just waiting on someone to pick them up. I put them on freecycle. I also cleaned out my can goods. I gave some one 4 bags of food that I wont cook. Why keep that? I had some fruit coctail in there that expire in 97. Lord! I need to get this house back in shape! I got too much stuff. I need to get my stuff together and have a Yard sale. It is too hot now so I have to wait until it cools down.Well, i am off to go fix my burning up face.

I am so excited! Why you ask? I got me some Carbquik! What is that you ask? It is like bisquick, but with low carbs!!!!!!YAY!!!!! I am gonna eat some biscuits, rolls, pizza, pancakes,turkey pot pie,more biscuits. lol How can any one get so excited about food. I love it! I am making a low-carb meat loaf. I got me some pork rinds and grated them up. Only bad thing is aol kicking me off for the 20 some times today. Why Aol? I was so excited until you did it to me again. Lucky I can recover my post. Shooooooooooo! Well, I hear my meat loaf timer going off. Lets see how he taste............

Sunday

It is starting a new week. These weeks just by so fast. It will be time for school to start soon. Oh lord! I be stressing out then. The day is so short when Ana is at school. I can't seem to get nothing done. Then when she gets home she has hard time doing her homework. We fight then. I wish she knew how to read and like school! I just don't know why she can't catch on to reading. She is going to be so behind if she can't read. I feel so sorry for her. I don't understand why they don't have programs to help her. They say they ran out of funds and had to quit some of the groups that help kids. But then again there is "NO CHILD LEFT BEHIND" thats what the goverment says. They are so wrong there! They don't care about our kids in the school. They got so many kids in a room and only one teacher for all those kids. I could never do that as a job. Kids now are so mean! They talk about you if you do not wear the right fashion of clothes or shoes. Well, enough of that I got to go find some low carb food. Oh I did bad today. We ate at Jerry boys this morning. I order breakfast. I didn't know I was going to get biscuit and gravey. Dang that was so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I ate carbs today. But when I came home I am carb free again! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh no starting a new week.

I know today is Friday! Yay! I am sitting here eating boiled hot dogs and smoke sausage with broccoli. I cook this last nite too. I went to Sams and got a big bag of broccoli. So I have to cook it before it goes bad. It's is a rainy day today still. When is Dennis going to stop? I wanted to go to the church picnic at St. Dennis. I love them! I got to get my dimes a ready. Bet them on #18. It use to be my lucky number! Now it is not so lucky. They got cake wheels and fruit wheels,candy wheels, so many wheels. I love it! I may go tomorrow if it don't rain. I like going when it opens and not so many people there. I am not a crowd person.Well, I am home alone again. YAY!!!!!! Last day of bible school. So no more home alone for me. Darn! I am off to go get more hot dogs and smoke sausage. I am still on my diet. No exercise, but still on Atkins!

What day is it?

Well, that is awful! What is today? I am thinking it is Thursday. I am not sure. I am to lazy to go look on the calender. Not much going on here. I did go to the tanning today. I was starting to lose my tan. I went yesterday and today. Yay for me! I just now got to get me butt to the gym. I will starting next week. Michael has been home too much! He don't work if it rains. Not too much work any way for him. I guess everyone already has new roofs. We need a Hail storm here for he can get busy again. Big Brother comes on tonite! So it is Thursday!!!!!!!!!!YAY I remember. Ana is off to go to Bible school with the neighbors. She goes every year there. On Sunday we go to watch the kids sing and do plays. After church they have free food! Everyone brings in something if they want to. We haven't ate there in a couple of years. The preacher told Michael he only comes for the food every year.It made him mad. So we don't stay no more for the food. Plus it is to busy in there for my butt to be in peoples way. I can't stand it when there is a lot of people in a tiny room. It is not me. I get nervous! I am home alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What shall a girl do? Michael is working,finally! Ana just left. I at least have a hour or so alone. Yay! I will just sit here watch my birds make a mess and a nest. :)

Tuesday

I got out today! YAY! Just for a couple of hours. I had to go get my birds a nest. I seen them do the wild thing. So I thought a nest would be the next thing they need. It is Big Brother nite. It is almost time! I can't wait! This will be short. It has rain all day! Rain rain go away come back another day. I know we need it but I don't like to drive in the rain. Too many accidents in this weather. Hey! My plants got water too! YAY! For them! They may make it now a little long in this summer. I don't know why I don't water them? I forget. I still haven't been to the gym or tanning. I almost went to tanning this evening. While I was out. After going to the animal store and Meijers. I was pooped out, and hungry! Not much a girl can eat out fast if I am watching my Carbs. Well, It is time for my show. I got to go watch it. I love Big brother!!!!! Wonder what all the twist is this year?

Monday Monday...

It is starting a new week. I just hope I get out and do stuff this week. I only went to tanning 1 time and the Y 1 time. Lord, I need to work out. I need energy! :) I was surpose to go to the Y this morning for a trainer to show me the works. I called and cancel it. So my week is starting to be like last week. Lazy!!!!!! I want to go back to bed! I need to clean! I may go later to the Y. I can exercise while Ana is swiming. She gets bored to easy. Not me, I like to take it slow and easy. Lay around, watch t.v., snack. I guess thats why i am big. I am so lazy! I need to change that. Get me life in order. But first I think I need a nap. After I wake up I will start getting my life together. LOL :)))))))

Saturday

I been in the house for 2 days. No out side for me. I haven't felt good and I don't know why? I got my ring finger big. It is killing me. I don't know if something bit me or a ingrown hair. I can't get my wedding ring off. It is big and red the whole finger. I hope tomorrow I feel better. I need to go to store to get some food for my diet. I want some peanut butter! I been eating it in spoon fulls. Lol It has to be Jiff too. It's the best! It is kind of hard typing without my ring finger. I think I been depress too. I am not sure why. Maybe 'cause of Emily birthday is coming up next friday and she will be 16 years old. I am sure I wont get to see her until after her birthday. We got to go to court Aug. 30. They are trying to take my parent rights away. So I guess that means I wont get to ever see her. I have to get me a lawyer to fight this. I want her closer to home. She is doing so good now where she is. She is 3 hours away from me. I don't know why they had to move her so far. I know she has changed for the good. I hope she knows that I do love her and I want what is best for her. I can't believe she is going to be that old. That means that I am getting old. I be a granny for too long. I am to young for that. So I hope she waits until when I look old.(not feel old) I get carded when I buy lottery sometimes. It makes me so mad. I am 34years old. Do I look under 21? I feel over 100 years old. LOL

This is a picture of Ana and Michael. We went to buffalo Crossing a few weeks ago. Ana driving a golf cart. WATCH OUT!!! She is dangerous behind the wheel.

Thursday....

Where does the week go? I can't believe it is almost over. I only went to the Y one day. I need to go to the gym and exercise! I know yesterday I cleaned alot so I guess thats exercise. I did sweat! I don't know what I am going to do today. I do need to go to the store. I need some MEAT! For my diet. So far so good on my diet. Only if I can get more exercise I be happy! It is that time of the month so I don't feel like going to exercise. So hopefully next week will start doing it fresh. Get this weight off! I need to clean again I got other rooms in this house that are a mess! The whole house! Lol Well, I better get my Butt in gear! I got to go to store and tan and come home to clean!

Wed.

It has been a good day! I had so much energy today! I cleaned and cleaned. What happen to me? I think it those carbs. I am not eating them. I love this! I cleaned my kitchen and even moved my furniture in there too. Only if I can feel like this everyday! Michael had to feel my head make sure I was ok, when he came home. LOL Don't know whats wrong with me. But I love it!

Diet day

Tuesday! I started my Atkins diet and planning go exercise after Ana dentist appointment. I hope I make it! I ate some chesse and a slice of ham. Where the BREAD? Lol I almost didn't go on this diet this morning, I got so much fruit in the kitchen. I will miss that even though I don't eat to much fruit. I got a whole watermelon in there sitting on the floor.Ready for me to cut into it. Well, I am going to try this diet. I just want to lose weight fast and I think this one you lose faster then Weight watchers. I got to go to store today and get me some meat and stuff to make salad. It's time to go take Ana to the dentist.

4th of July!!!!

Happy 4th of July! It is fireworks time. I guess i will hear them all nite. All the loud noises! Tomorrow is diet time! YAY! I am so ready for this. I just hope when I wake up I feel the same way. LOL We went fishing this after noon and didn't catch nothing! I hook my finger! That hurt. :( I will live! I am going to hopeful start the YMCA tomorrow too. It is going to be my way of life now. Exercise and eat no carbs! I am going to get skinny by the time winter comes. I will be cold this winter with no meat on my bones to keep me warm. LOL I am home alone. Michael took Ana to go get fireworks at 10:00 at nite. Crazy!!! My stomach is killing me. We ate my last meal out and it was Golden Corral! I should have picked a better place to eat. It was nasty tonite! My poor big dog (PINTO) hates all the fire works, he is hiding under my desk. If I leave he has to be right under my feet. Buddy don't care. I got so much to do this week! I hope I will get it all done that I got to do. Man, someone got some loud fireworks over here. Well, I gonna go see if Michael is back and go feed the bugs outside.

Saturday.

I feel a purple mood! Not much going on today like always. Went yard saling. Not much since its a holiday. Happy Fourth of July to everyone! I can't believe it is almost my daughter Birthday. She will be 16 years old. God I feel old! I don't look it but sure feel it. I know its my weight thats making me feel old. Come Tuesday is big diet time!!! No more Carbs. I had to buy the last bag of BBQ Fritos. I wanted Chili-cheese! They were out. :( I have to make sure I have that bag gone in a few days! I got my grill ready and I am ready! I am going to do the YMCA. I went there today to look around again before I make up my mind.And I have and I am going to do it!!! I am going to the Y and going to lose this weight!!!!!! I am motivated now! Watch come Monday I wont be. LOL It depends on Monday I may start diet on Tuesday. Monday is a Holiday and not sure what we are going to do? I got to get me another bathing suit. I looked at Walmart and Lord! Plus size suits are high! Why so high? I guess the extra matrial! LOL Oh well! I have to find one this week. I am getting off to go clean. I been cleaning since I got home. YAY! What got into me? Don't know? I already dusted the living room and vacumme and swept the kitchen. 2 things of laundry. Now its time for dishes. I hate that I always get my belly wet. LOL

It is Thursday. It is hot and very hot outside. I just got back from tanning booth and store. I had to go buy some steak for my new George Forman Grill. Now I have to get it out of the box and wash it before I cook them. How much trouble is that? I have such a little house. The trouble is going to be where the heck am I going to do with it when I am not useing it! I still not sure what I am going to do about the YMCA. I am thinking still a "YES". I was going to go there today. But some how I changed my mind of going any where. Tomorrow is pay day for Michael and me. YAY! I had to ask him today for some money. I am getting tried of using mine for food! Lol I know he pays all the bills so I should not feel bad. But my daddy always told me to spend someone elses money. SAVE MINE!!!!!So I am trying!LOL I am so ready for FALL. Only thing I hate about that is all the leaves falling from the trees. Well, I best go and open my grill and get a dinner a cooking! YUM!!!!

Wed. nite

I went to the dentist and I am back alive! Shocking! I didn't think I was going to be ok. I was nervous! I was in pain! I hate going to the dentist! Well enough of that. I am sitting here watching Days of our lIves at nite. Thank god for Soap network! I took a nap early. I had to get up early this morning. I hope I am able to sleep tonite. I got my letter from the YMCA! YAY! But now I am not sure if I am going or not. I pay Gold's gym already $29 a month. For 3 years. I do stupid things. I hope in those 3 years I get skinny! If I join the Y I have to pay $24 a month. I also pay $19 a month for tanning. I like to go they got a pool. I thought of doing it for at least the summer time. Maybe with going to both I can lose this weight! I am fixing to do the Atkins diet, Monday. At least I hope so! LOL I better eat all my carbs now. I got 4 days! I plan on going to a Mexican Rest. soon! I love Mexican food! I guess thats why I married a Mexican. LOL
I let you all know if I join the YMCA. Who knows maybe after tomorrow when I wake up I may hit the road straight to the Y.

I been to the gym and tanning. Thats my usual thing to do any more. I am going crazy tonite! Aol is kicking me off hundreds of times. Why Aol? Do you not like me? Why are you being mean to me?
You think AOL will answer me? I don't think so. If they do it be some forerign person who I can't understand. LOL

I am glad I got to go to the gym. I hope to go again maybe tomorrow. I got to go to the dentist in the morning. I am scared! I hate going there. I have to be there at 8 in the morning. SO I have to get up extra early. Got take a shower and brush those teeth real good. I can't go to the dentist with smelling breath.

Today, I was feeling kind of lonely. I don't know why? I was just down and out. It is funny to have those feelings. Michael ask me if I felt good? I was like yes. But deep in side I know there is something wrong, but I just don't know what it was. Crazy! I guess thats it. I don't want to be crazy. I want a normal life. Do you every dream of how your life would have been if you made other choices? I some time think that. Where would I be? Would my mom still be alive? Would I have had Ana? Would Emily be a good and honest girl? I love her and Ana too. I wish Emily was here at home with us. I am scared when she does come home. Emily is my 15 year old daughter thats in foster care. She been there for over a year. Almost 2 years. Her Dad don't want her. He never paid child surport. When we got married the first thing he said to me wasn't I love you. It was this means that I don't have to pay on Emily (child surport). We went down a place on the High way. Where a flash back of me standing there in the cold where her dad made me get out of the car. I was so scared! What to do? Where do I go? It was in the middle of No Where. I was there for a while. Lucky me he came back for me. I don't know if it was lucky or not. He use to hit me too. I remember one time he put his fist on my chest and he was a big guy and all his weight on his fist. I felt my heart tearing out of me. Thats, really the only time that I keep in my mind of what he did to me. I know he didn't stay home with me and Emily. We was in a real bad neighbor hood too. I was scared to go out. I lived on Section 8 at that time. I can't remember the rest. Or I blocked it out. That is so funny that you block bad things out of your mind. I been trying to block things out of my mind all my life. And still am. Will I ever stop that? Who knows? It is getting late and I need to hit the bed. I got a big day at the dentist tomorrow.

Monday afternoon

I Am so happy Ana got up early! SO we went to the gym early. I got to exercise for an hour ,Yay! I laid in a tanning bed! A real nice super one! It played music and had fans in there. I liked it too much. I relaxed in there. It was up to fast. The times have change. Other then that not much going on. I need to get up and work! Always on Monday is busy for me to clean and get things back together. I am lazy over the weekends. Shoot I am lazy every day. LOL I still haven't got in that pool to clean it out. I did go out there and look at it does that count? I still seen tadpols. Yuck! I feel my lips hot maybe I got some sun today in that bed. My legs to me look a little darker. I hope so! Thats where I want some sun. I read in a mag. that the darker you are the skinnyier you look. Yeah boy! I am going to get super dark. For I can look super skinny! LOL. I best get my butt in gear.

Picture of my love.....

Testing

Sunday nite...

I am glad this day is over. (all most) It's been a long boring day! Nothing on t.v. I even have Satilite. More channels and nothing on. Went to Walmart this evening. Didn't find nothing for me. Darn! I did see this exercise machine that I want. I didn't get it! But I have plans in my near future for it. LOL I just hope Michael gives me the money for it. LOL He don't know yet. I wait until later to tell him. When he gets paid again. LOL and in a good mood. He took me and Ana to Ci-Ci's pizza buffet to nite. That's not very good pizza. I am a pizza lover! I am going on a serious diet tomorrow! It is summer time and time to wear shorts and have nice legs and a skinny body. I got to stop eating out! I order me a Gorge Forman grill and its on its way to my house. So I will start cooking on that. That is healthy! Eat more fruits and veggies and going to the gym or exercise at home. I am going to do it. Yesterday was a fun day. We went to Buffalo Crossing. We seen a white Buffalo and a lot of other animals. Ana was driving a golf cart with me and MIchael in it. She scared me! But if she drives like her dad, he scared me too! He made sharp turns and I thought I was a goner! I could see me flip out. Or maybe flip on top of Ana and Michael and hurt them. It was a very hot day yesterday too. I was sweating so bad! I had on these shorty shorts. I think My legs look smaller. I am getting a tan too. I am going to get this weight off of me if it kills me! I will go to the gym a lot this week. I don't care if Ana don't like it or not. I am doing this for me and for I can live a long life to see her get married to a rich hubby and have beautiful and perfect kids like she is. She is the love of my life and hope she knows it. Well, I am off to get Ana to bed. We have to get up early for we can go to the gym and work our butts off. LOL At least my butt off.

Thursday evening..

Why does it feel like a Friday? All day today I thought it was. I was thinking to day is pay day for my hubby, so I was ready to get some money from him. I need some cash! Some green stuff! Not much going on here, never is. I went to the gym today! YAY! I can tell in my legs that I am toning up. But that freakin' scale says no! I know if I really try it will say YES momma! lol I also went to the tanning booth. They had to sell me some lotion.I bought some when I started but I don't think it works. I use on my leggs and I don't use on my upper part of my body. Well, my upper is darker then my leggs. So what does that tell you.So I had to buy me Dark Sexy Leggs tanning lotion. Why can't I say NO. I have no money. But I sure did use that plastic. My daughter says now debit or credit? She is use to me using that in the store. lol It is a super hot day today and going to get hotter tomorrow and this week. I going to fix beef liver with onions tonite for Michael. I am so full now from rice cakes with peanut butter on them. I ate 4 of them. Plus now that I think about it I ate 2 more plain. Shooo! I am a full! Did I tell you that already? lol I feel it! I got to get busy in this house. Ana had a sleep over. A little girl down the street. She seem to be haveing a good time.She just left to go to her house to jump on her trampling. I need to get our pool together. It has tadpoles in there swiming. How nasty! I am waiting on to hear about if I can get a membership thru the YMCA. I sure hope so. That be something me and Ana can do for the summer. Swim! Exercise! They have other stuff too for she can do. Well, I need to get up and move to the groove. I feel energy coming. Maybe from all those rice cakes I ate. Lol

Wed. evening

Ok! I am back! I took Ana to the movies and seen Herbie. It was a good movie. Ana want to buy it when it comes out. Man was that popcorn good too. After that we went to tanning booth and to Mr. Gatti's for pizza. I am so full and sick. I should have not ate there. I been to the bathroom so many times now. It don't like me. It is a hot one out there. How in the world any one wants to be outside. Michael is up on a roof. How he does it I don't know. He told me yesterday, that he brings home the bacon. I told him keep doing that 'cause I love that bacon. lol I feel better today! Yesterday was a down day. I am not sure why I get like that but I sure do. I need to get busy on this house. I haven't been home today! I got tons to do. I always do. I just wish I had help! I can't do it all by myself. I get Ana to help , but she is only 9 and can't do much. But she does help a little if I ask her. I need to clean my room. Lord if you see it. You would not want to sleep in there. Lol I got to many clothes and no where to put them. So I got baskets of clothes in there. I got Michael work clothes in a plastic bin. I need to dust. I never seen a dusty house like mine. I want a bigger house. But SHoot how the heck I will clean it. I can't even clean this one and it is little. 2 bedroom, 1 bath. Just plain ol' little. I am off to do some cleaning. I just turn the air on, so it is getting cooler in here for me to work. I just hope I get off of my big ol' butt and do it!!!!!!!!!!

It is going to be a good day today! I just got to get Ana in the shower and it will be. I do not know why she don't like to take a shower? I take 2 and some times 3 a day. I love to be clean! It feels so good to be clean and have clean hair. If she had to she will go for days maybe years with no shower.
Oh I change the channel! Bo is on the VIEW! From American Idol.Lord he looks good. He is a good singer too. I miss watching that show. Big Brother comes on soon. YAY! I love that show too. I been watching Hell Kitchen a little. I just can't get into t.v. at nite. I watch all my soaps in the day and then some. COme nite time I can't find nothing on t.v. Well, Ana been sitting here over an hour and still no shower. I got to get her in the shower. I got to get busy and do something! I want to go to the tanning booth and to the gym. But it looks like no gym today cause the day care is over at 1. and its already after 11. By the time I get her ready its over. I think thats what she is doing wasting time for she don't have to go. She hates to go there. Well, I best make her get in there.

What day is it? I am lost! Tuesday nite

Thats bad I don't even know the day. I been in all day never went outside. What is the temp out there? I am sure HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! SO thats why I am in. Plus I don't feel my lucky ol' happy self. I am down today. I didn't feel like going no where I guess. I haven't done nothing either. My house needs a maid. lol And I am not that. I got a big fly in here. Yuck it looks like one of those horse flies. Yuck! How in the heck do I get him out of here? He is walking on my screen. Yikes! I hate bugs!
Well other then that not much going on here. Life sucks!

It is Thursday where in the heck does the week go? Is my life going as fast as the week goes? Am I getting older faster? The older you get the harder it is to lose weight. So why in the heck am I not losing any weight? I promise my Aunt last nite that we both was going on a diet today. Did I start it? Well the answer to that ugly question is............ A big Fat NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where is my will power? I can't seen to find it. Where did it go? I use to have it. I been on so many diets in my life that I lost tons of weight. So why the heck am I so big now? Don't know that question . Aol does not like me. I keep gettting kicked off. So I better send this before I lose it again.

Wed. Day

Hi! I went to the YMCA with my friend Dianna. I had such a wonderful time. We exercise and went swiming. Well, I don't know how to swim so I bounced. LOL And on a noodle. Lol I am thinking of joining the Y. I already joined the Gold gym. But the Y seems more like fun. I am filling out my applacation now. Ana had a great time too. She didn't want to leave. We would have still be there but she got hungry. So I stopped to get chix livers and potato wedges. Yum! Now I have to cook dinner and I am not hungry. I need to clean! I haven't been home all day. I guess I better go get busy. I talk to you all later.

Tuesday nite

Hi! Well whats new with me? Not a freakin thing. I went to the tanning booth today. I need to get dark for what reason I don't know why. I guess I think I will look skinney if I was dark. Who knows? Well, I am planning to start a diet tomorrow a 3 day diet where u lose 10lbs. in 3 days. I hope I go thru with that. Well, I better get off of here. My daughter Ana wants to talk to me. I always get scared of that when she wants to talk to me by myself. Wonder what it could be? I know she is bored. It is summer vacation to her and nothing for her to do. No one to play with. Poor little girl. I didn't have no one too when I was growing up. I loved playing with my Barbies. Ana don't even play with those. SHe plays with Brats and Polly pockets. The toys they have now. Well I am off to go see what she wants. Bye all!


Well She wanted to go somewhere special. She is on a summer vacation, so lets do something fun. Oh Boy What shall we do?

Sunday nite

Hi! It has been a while since I wrote. I have been busy with Summer. I been going to the gym and I even joined a tanning bed. I am getting brown! YAY! I look better brown then white. When i look better I feel better. I just got to get my butt on a freakin diet. Monday is always a good day to start a diet. But what kind? I wish I would start one for I can really feel better. I am doing everything that I am should by going to the gym and really working out. I want to be skinney!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, if i can't get that then I want to be healthy. I will. No more eatting out! More fruits and veggies. No more junk food. I may do the atkins diet. I may do Weight watchers. Any suggestions? HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday

Its almost here! The last day of school for my daughter. I hope she don't drive me nuts this summer wanting to go out side. I feel good this morning. DOn't know what got into me. I feel to be in a good mood.YAY! If only I get some energry to get busy! I am plainng to go to the gym today, I am kind of excited about that too. Lord help me I lost my mind. I want to see results and I think I will if I keep going and doing what I am doing there. I want to get this FAT off of me and look good and feel good. I am ready! No set backs! I going foward with my life! So I need to get off of here and get busy. I got a whole day planned of cleaning and going to gym. I am motivated at this moment in time. Lets see how long it last.:)

Monday

It's done and over with I went to the gym today! YAY! I am getting good at this. But loseing I am not gettting good at. I haven't hardly ate since I got my tooth pulled and I am not losing any weight. There has to be a problem. I wish to know.
I am so ready to move. I hate neighbors. I got trash on both sides! If we did find a house, We probally could not sell this one. Who would want to live here between this? I have kids allday crossing my yard. Back and forward. When my mom lived here they had a path with no grass from them. I want to put up a fence. My mom had one up and one side fell cause they like to drink on one side and hit things. The other side is only half up and it is rotton out and old. I just can't wait until summer gets here and they drive me more crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday afternoon

I am so Happy I went to the gym and got that over with. I been 3 times this week. I wanted to go 5 times but since I got my tooth pulled I had to take it easy. It is so nasty outside. We got a lot of rain yesterday. My poor flowers are hung over from all that drinking. lol I went today and open a x-mas account at the bank. I am going to start saving for x-mas. i always stress over it every holiday! Well, this year is going to be different. I hope to save!!!! If we could save $50.00 a month or more. That will be good. I love money to much! I am watching Days of our lives , and trying to write at the same time. It is getting good. I love this soap and Passions and General Hospital.Thats what I have to watch Monday-Friday. Oh the mail man is here. I need to go get me bills. So much fun! lol :)

Thursday morning..........

I went to the dentist yesterday.YAY! Finally! Well, not so good. They pulled my tooth. It was in the back. But still. I was taking me pain pills yesterday. I felt silly! :) I think i may take some more today. lol I never did drugs. But shoot when you don't feel pain and you feel silly after been depress for a long time. Nah! I am not a druggie. I have a hard time taking me prozac. I don't smoke and don't drink. I am a loner. A home body. Don't do much. Shoot I been so lazy can't clean my house. I don't have any energy. I was planing to go to the gym for 5 days this week. But since I got my tooth pulled forget that. I need to take it easy. Well thats my excuss! lol I am still trying to watch what I eat. And not eating to much. I ate cheese and crackers today, so far. I think I am going to go take me a nap. I am getting sleepy......

Tuesday

Hello all! I had a good day yesterday on my diet. I feel so motivated! I don't know how but I do. I haven't hardly ate in the past few days. Maybe its the prozac that I am taking now. I hope it stays. I feel like I lost too. Thats the good thing about it. I went to gym yesterday and planning to go again in a little bit. I am determine to lose this. I am going to try this week to go to gym 5 days. School is almost out and not sure what I am going to do with Ana when I go to gym. She is not crazy about the day care there. So that my stop me from going. I got to do this for me and no one else. It is America Idol nite. YAY! i love that show. Its almost over then I have nothing to watch on t.v. at nite. :( I need to clean before I go to the gym. Later!

Monday morning

Hello all! It is Monday and I got alot to do. So why am I writing when I got alot to do? Humm..........A good question. I am starting a diet today and I am going to get skinney like it or not. lol I am going to the gym more then I ever had. So I guess that be 2 times a week. lol I was reading a mag. of the biggest loser show and they exercise at least up to 5 hours a day. Lord, that means no computer, no eating, no naps, no fun at all!! No wonder they lost so much in those weeks. I would lose too( I would lose my life 'cause that will kill me)lol. I just got to stay busy. I am going to join a group tonite called TOPS. I hope it helps. I am not sure what diet I am going on. I think WW. They say thats the best diet to do. I tried and tried. If I can just get motivation I can do it. Summer is coming and I want to be able to wear shorts and tank tops. And a whole lot less. lol In my dreams! Well, I am off to go do all my work that I got to do.

Thursday evening

Hi all! Oh What a boring day. I took a nap and now I feel so bad. I started to take prozac to help with my stress in life. I hope it works! I got so much to do and no energy to do it. I been sitting on my big butt all week and now its almost over the week. I am letting the time fly right by me and not doing anything about it. I want a life! One day I will have one. I promise. I am bored. It is almost time to go get Ana and that means I have to get out in the sun. I havent been out since this morning. I am trying not to go anywhere 'cause I don't want to spend money that I don't have. I need to save! I want so much to do at this house. I want to make a pattio in the back for we can cook out. I want to get My hubby a new grill for fathers day. A nice one. One of those big gas ones. We don't cook out much so why am I getting one? I guess I like to waiste money.lol Well, its time to brush my hair and get my shoes on and hit the door. Where is my sun glasses?

Kelly song

What if I told you No lyrics It was all meant to beWould you believe me Would you agree It’s almost that feelin That we’ve met before So tell me that you don’t think I’m crazy When I tell you love has come here and now[chorus]A moment like this Some people wait a lifetime For a moment like this Some people search forever For that one special kiss Oh, I can’t believe it’s happening to me Some people wait a lifetime For a moment like this[verse 2]Everything changes But beauty remains Something so tender I can’t explain Well I may be dreamin But still lie awake Can we make this dream last forever And I’ll cherish all the love we share[repeat chorus][bridge]Could this be the reign of love above I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall So let me tell you this Some people wait a lifetime For a moment like this[ending chorus]Some people spend two lifetimes For a moment like this Some people search forever For that one special kiss Oh I can’t believe it’s happening to me Some people wait a lifetime For a moment Like this Oh, like this Some people search forever oh yeah Some people wait a lifetime For a moment Like this.

Thursday

The weeks go by so fast now. I see my life going too with it. Dying fast too.If I don't get my life in order I will. I been depress the last few days. How can I get rid of this depression? I hate taking med's. I think I tried all kinds. Nothing works for me. I just need a whole new life.I wonder if I win the lottery will i be happy then? i want a whole new house , this house is soooooo small and old. This was my grandmothers house and she died and my Dad got it. He died and my mom still had it. She died and now I got it. I do not want to die here. I want to break the cycle. But I am not that strong to do so. I am so weak at heart. I been through a lot in my life and still going thru stuff now. I wonder how people have it so easy? Why can't I still have my parents? I feel like i am alone. No one to take care of ME. I need someone who wants to take care of me. You would think a hubby would. Maybe if He really Loved me. I wonder how I feel about him. If I go deep in my heart what would it say? I dont have much in there but hurt. Maybe one day. Well, I better get off of here my tooth is still brothering me. It time to take more pain pills.lol

Wednesday....

Well, what a day... I think I been depress today. I don't know why. Maybe of my tooth. I don't have insurance. That could be it. Who knows. I get depress over silly things. I got no life. I don't work and toooo depress to start. I wish I was able to get out of the house to do some fun stuff. I just want to stay in and be depress even more. I get nervous going places on my own. Its sounds silly but true. Then I get mad at myself for being that away. My hubby don't understand why i am this away. He says he lives his life vida loco. i don't want a crazy life. I just want a plain ol' normal one. A HAPPY ONE! I think of dyeing or being in a bad accident. I worry about my 9 year old what will happen to her? Where will she go? She is very close too me and I am of her too. We have a special bond for each other. She can't spen the nite at to many places, 'cause she can't be away from me. She had troubles going to school, because she didn't want to be a way from me. I love her too much. It is about time for me to go get her at school.I better go........

Tooth ach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh! I have a bad tooth ach. What is good for that? Insurance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Which I don't have. It sucks. I guess I 'll try to goto the freakin' clinic. Which I hate. They don't know what they r doing. Plus I get so nervous when I get in that chair. When they lay u back my heart feels like its gonna jump out of me and run away.
It is Derby this week. OH how exciting! Yeah right. I am going to bed. I took 2 stronge pain pills. I be passed out soon..........

Sunday almost over...

Hello! It is Sunday. Not much going on here. I been dieting all last week. Lord I been starvin'. I been on those fad diets. I want to lose this weight fast. I know it took me longer to gain it, it wasn't over night. I went to the gym 3 times last week plus exercise 3 time at home. YAY!!! I hop i can do the same thing again this week. I was so proud of ME! It will be summer soon and I want to be able to wear shorts. I need to be working on a tan too. We worked out in the yard today. I cut the front grass and worked a little in my flowers. This week is Derby here. Nothing exciting. I never even been to the race track on Derby or the Oaks. I just know a whole bunch of people like to come here to see all that stuff even movie stars. I use to love working on those days to make lots of money at the Hotel where I worked at. People from everywhere came down. i just stay at home and watch it on t.v. I been haveing a real bad tooth ach. I have no insurance so so much for that. I have to go to the Clinic. Yuck! I hate going there. Why couldn't I have a good job and have insurance on me. Why do I get depress too? Well, I am going to go and take me another shower for the day. I think I sweated while cuting the grass.