Sunday nite...

This is the last day of the month. Where in the heck did it go? Am I missing something here? I must have missed the whole month cause it went by so fast. We went to the Hot ZOO today. I am wore out from all that walking. SHOOOOOOOOOOOOO My feet hurt. I am so ready to take a shower and get in the bed. I have done bad this weekend. I went off of my diet. A SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO again.

Friday nite Michael wanted PIZZA! So I blame that one on him ( at least that nite) Pizza is my all time favorite food! I have to eat it. So I did! I have no willpower! So come Saturday morning I had to eat the rest of it. It was even good cold. LOL Me and ANa went to a church picnic it was hot too. I didn't want to come home to cook so I stoped at MOBY DICK ( a whale of a sandwich) And it was a whale allright! LOL Me! I love fried Fish!( I blame that one on me now) :)))))
Then,this morning Michael loves breakfast out! So we went to Jerry Boy's and I had Fench toast with bacon ( Yum) biscuits and gravey (YUM). Why Diet? I am not losing. I go to doctor Wed. I will ask him to do some test on me to see why in the heck I can't lose. I am off to go cool off in a shower. Everyone have a good nite-nite!

Friday morning...

I am so depress. I got on my scale and it said 3 + pounds more then yesterday. How in the world can I gain 3+ lbs in one day? I am doing everything right! I do need to exercise, but thats it. I am watching my carbs! I am so scared something is wrong with me. I wish I had insurance, I would have my stomach stapled. I think thats the only way for me to go. This weight is killing me and making me so depress. I am going to eat me a low carb ice cream sandwich. I may feel better after that.........

Thursday nite....

This week is almost over. It is getting closer to school starting. I don't know if I will be happy or unhappy. I hate the homework fights. The rushing in the morning getting Ana ready to go to school. I hate it all. But the good thing about is I have PEACE! I wont have some one following me around all day and being bored. I still have my two dogs following me. I just am stress out. I don't know why. I'm on this freakin' diet and I think it is not working. I been on it for 23 days and I should have lost at least 15 lbs. NOPE! I don't think so. I am going to the dr next week and if I do not drop some weight it is over between me and no carbs. I just got done watching Big Brother. I can't believe Maggie won Head of Household. It is pay back time Kayser. I like him too. I am so glad Eric is out of there. But I know she is going to pick Kayser to get out of the house. Poor guy................

Wed. nite

I been having computer problems! I wrote in here yesterday but didn't take. Not much going on here. It is a little cooler then it has been,but I am still sweating. Michael is home and says no air for the Angel tonite. I will toast my buns off. I have to sleep with Ana and turn her air on. I love to sleep in the cool. We went to a water park yesterday. I went down a water slide! YAY Angel! Go Angel it's your birthday. Get down Angel! Lol I can't believe it. I don't like to go under water either. When you drop from the slide you land in 3.9 feet. It look so much fun. I was screaming all the way down. I went down so fast. SHOOOOOOOOOOOO and then I was gone. I went under and almost drown. :'( I was scared. Water all in my nose and mouth and eyes. I forgot to not breath or hold my nose. Now I can say I have done that in my life. I got to run and take a cold shower. Micheal is making me sweat with no air on here.

MONDAY HOT DAY...

I am writing in red cause I am on fire. It is so hot today! It was the hottest of the year. Lord! I can't breath in this kind of weather. Michael did not have work today. Thank god for him! I don't know how in the world he can get on a roof in this heat. I took Ana to the dentist and the freakin' air was down. How and why didn't they call me and tell me before I sweat 20 lbs off while I was waiting for Ana to get finish. LOL My shorts was wet when I got up from my chair. Then I had to wait for ever for the Dentist come to talk to me about what they did. They had fans a going. But they seem to forget about the waiting room. I guess it is good to sweat! I just hate to take so many showers in the day. Well, I am going to get ready for beddy bye. This is the first time I had a chance to get on the computer. I been busy.............

Sunday.....

I don't know where Saturday went? It is already Sunday, then Monday,Tuesday, you all get the point. LOL I am sitting at home like always. Not much to do. Afraid to go outside. It is supper Dupper Hot!!!! They said it was going to get up to 110 heat index today. SHoooooooo That tells me to keep ur big butt in the house. So I am. Ana not feeling to good today. I am so hungry today. I ate around 2:30 some turkey salad and pork rinds. I am so sick of Pork rinds. YUCK! I need another snack food. I ate all the cashews up yesterday. I plain on not buying any more for a while. Or any nuts!!! They made my stomach kill me the other day. I got to start going back to the gym. I need me exercise! I was starting to tone my legs and now..........Lord I need help! I just don't feel like getting out in this heat. I did go swimming Sat. at the Y. It got busy full of wild kids so I didn't stay long. But that water was so nice! It was like heaven just floating around in there. RELAXING!!!! I am waiting here for Michael to come back home. Lucky him, He gets to leave but no Angel. I am stuck here. BORING!! Nothing to do. I got to take Ana to the dentist tomorrow. Runs my day. It is going to be a nice day to swim. I am off to watch Days of our lives for the past week.

Friday

It is a hot one out there. Don't want to go any where this weekend. It is going to be up to 105 heat index. When it is that hot I am staying in. I had to go to walmart (super) I am in love with that store. Michael cashed in all his change that he has been saving. We count only the silver coins. $272.00 YAY! So he wants to buy Ana a trampoline. So I had to go pick it up today there. It was $252. Now I just have to wait until he comes home to put it up. It probably wont be until tomorrow. It is so heavy! I been having trouble with my stomach all day. I am bloated with gas. It is killing me. I think I ate too many cashews this morning. Well. I need to get off and try to pass some gas. It is so hard for me to do. Hope everyone has a great and wonderful weekend!

Thursday nite.....

Today my mom has been dead for 6 years. It is always a sad day for me. I always get depress on this day. I just don't understand why God had to take her. I still need my mom! She did everything for me. She was my Best friend! There was times that I would get so mad at her. I know now she had a bad life growing up and bad things happen to her. I never heard my mom tell me that she loved me. When I had Emily she was so close to her then me. She got her everything and she left me out. I heard her tell Emily that she loved her but never me. I don't know why on that one. I never told her either. I found out later that her mom was the same way. DON'T share their feelings. I am trying to break that cycle, I tell Ana all the time that I love her. I hope she knows too. Well enough talk about the past. I have to think off the future now. I had to run early, because Michael came home and I still in P.J.'s and hadn't done nothing. Not even eat. Dang! Ana driving me crazy to take her back to super Wal-mart to get her that Trampline. I want to go but want to have money to spend there. I need to find some stuff to sell. Well, I am off to go and talk to my friend Dianna. She is IM me.

Thursday

I am staying in today. I need to be cleaning. I just can't get myself up out of this chair. I am so hungry too and to lazy to get up. I made me a turkey Breast yesterday in the crock pot. Yum it was so good. So today I gonna make me turkey salad. I can't wait to sink my teeth into that. First I have to go make it. I feel no energy today. Maybe, because I have no fuel in my tank. LOL It is going on 1 time for Days. We went to the YMCA yesterday and went swimming again. YAY! I try to do exercise in the water so I hope that helps. I can't get my butt into the GYM either. It is tooo hot to exercise. I will die of a heat stoke in the gym. LOL We don't want that. I got a new Wal-MArt that open yesterday close to me. It is a super one. I went there too. It is so nice. They was talking about how busy they was yesterday and how much stock they put up. Got to run.

I am mad! I wrote in here early, and it did not go thru. I tried to recover it. But nothing. Sucks! Now I can't remember what I wrote about early. HUMMMMMMMM........ I went to the YMCA (me and Ana) went swimming. Then went to tanning booth after. I thought I didn't get enought sun from the pool. WRONG! My face is on fire! I feel so much heat on my checks. Not my butt checks either. LOL Those are some big checks. :))))) I need a big sun for those! Big brother was kind of good tonite. They almost got into it on there. I am proud of me today ! I didn't eat much! I ate the rest of my low carb meat loaf for Breakfast/lunch. Yum! I have to make another one of those soon. Tonite I had to cheese burger patties with green beans and some smoke sausage. I cooked bacon too, But forgot about it in the oven. WHOOPS! My house was smokin! LOL. My birds got a clean cage, I got the weeds out of my flower bed in front. I been busy when I came home from my outing. Lord what got into me last nite I cleaning cabnets out. I had so many plastic containers and pans. I just got some new plastics the other day they had them mark down in Krogers. So why keep the old? I am just waiting on someone to pick them up. I put them on freecycle. I also cleaned out my can goods. I gave some one 4 bags of food that I wont cook. Why keep that? I had some fruit coctail in there that expire in 97. Lord! I need to get this house back in shape! I got too much stuff. I need to get my stuff together and have a Yard sale. It is too hot now so I have to wait until it cools down.Well, i am off to go fix my burning up face.

I am so excited! Why you ask? I got me some Carbquik! What is that you ask? It is like bisquick, but with low carbs!!!!!!YAY!!!!! I am gonna eat some biscuits, rolls, pizza, pancakes,turkey pot pie,more biscuits. lol How can any one get so excited about food. I love it! I am making a low-carb meat loaf. I got me some pork rinds and grated them up. Only bad thing is aol kicking me off for the 20 some times today. Why Aol? I was so excited until you did it to me again. Lucky I can recover my post. Shooooooooooo! Well, I hear my meat loaf timer going off. Lets see how he taste............

Sunday

It is starting a new week. These weeks just by so fast. It will be time for school to start soon. Oh lord! I be stressing out then. The day is so short when Ana is at school. I can't seem to get nothing done. Then when she gets home she has hard time doing her homework. We fight then. I wish she knew how to read and like school! I just don't know why she can't catch on to reading. She is going to be so behind if she can't read. I feel so sorry for her. I don't understand why they don't have programs to help her. They say they ran out of funds and had to quit some of the groups that help kids. But then again there is "NO CHILD LEFT BEHIND" thats what the goverment says. They are so wrong there! They don't care about our kids in the school. They got so many kids in a room and only one teacher for all those kids. I could never do that as a job. Kids now are so mean! They talk about you if you do not wear the right fashion of clothes or shoes. Well, enough of that I got to go find some low carb food. Oh I did bad today. We ate at Jerry boys this morning. I order breakfast. I didn't know I was going to get biscuit and gravey. Dang that was so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I ate carbs today. But when I came home I am carb free again! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh no starting a new week.

I know today is Friday! Yay! I am sitting here eating boiled hot dogs and smoke sausage with broccoli. I cook this last nite too. I went to Sams and got a big bag of broccoli. So I have to cook it before it goes bad. It's is a rainy day today still. When is Dennis going to stop? I wanted to go to the church picnic at St. Dennis. I love them! I got to get my dimes a ready. Bet them on #18. It use to be my lucky number! Now it is not so lucky. They got cake wheels and fruit wheels,candy wheels, so many wheels. I love it! I may go tomorrow if it don't rain. I like going when it opens and not so many people there. I am not a crowd person.Well, I am home alone again. YAY!!!!!! Last day of bible school. So no more home alone for me. Darn! I am off to go get more hot dogs and smoke sausage. I am still on my diet. No exercise, but still on Atkins!

What day is it?

Well, that is awful! What is today? I am thinking it is Thursday. I am not sure. I am to lazy to go look on the calender. Not much going on here. I did go to the tanning today. I was starting to lose my tan. I went yesterday and today. Yay for me! I just now got to get me butt to the gym. I will starting next week. Michael has been home too much! He don't work if it rains. Not too much work any way for him. I guess everyone already has new roofs. We need a Hail storm here for he can get busy again. Big Brother comes on tonite! So it is Thursday!!!!!!!!!!YAY I remember. Ana is off to go to Bible school with the neighbors. She goes every year there. On Sunday we go to watch the kids sing and do plays. After church they have free food! Everyone brings in something if they want to. We haven't ate there in a couple of years. The preacher told Michael he only comes for the food every year.It made him mad. So we don't stay no more for the food. Plus it is to busy in there for my butt to be in peoples way. I can't stand it when there is a lot of people in a tiny room. It is not me. I get nervous! I am home alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What shall a girl do? Michael is working,finally! Ana just left. I at least have a hour or so alone. Yay! I will just sit here watch my birds make a mess and a nest. :)

Tuesday

I got out today! YAY! Just for a couple of hours. I had to go get my birds a nest. I seen them do the wild thing. So I thought a nest would be the next thing they need. It is Big Brother nite. It is almost time! I can't wait! This will be short. It has rain all day! Rain rain go away come back another day. I know we need it but I don't like to drive in the rain. Too many accidents in this weather. Hey! My plants got water too! YAY! For them! They may make it now a little long in this summer. I don't know why I don't water them? I forget. I still haven't been to the gym or tanning. I almost went to tanning this evening. While I was out. After going to the animal store and Meijers. I was pooped out, and hungry! Not much a girl can eat out fast if I am watching my Carbs. Well, It is time for my show. I got to go watch it. I love Big brother!!!!! Wonder what all the twist is this year?

Monday Monday...

It is starting a new week. I just hope I get out and do stuff this week. I only went to tanning 1 time and the Y 1 time. Lord, I need to work out. I need energy! :) I was surpose to go to the Y this morning for a trainer to show me the works. I called and cancel it. So my week is starting to be like last week. Lazy!!!!!! I want to go back to bed! I need to clean! I may go later to the Y. I can exercise while Ana is swiming. She gets bored to easy. Not me, I like to take it slow and easy. Lay around, watch t.v., snack. I guess thats why i am big. I am so lazy! I need to change that. Get me life in order. But first I think I need a nap. After I wake up I will start getting my life together. LOL :)))))))

Saturday

I been in the house for 2 days. No out side for me. I haven't felt good and I don't know why? I got my ring finger big. It is killing me. I don't know if something bit me or a ingrown hair. I can't get my wedding ring off. It is big and red the whole finger. I hope tomorrow I feel better. I need to go to store to get some food for my diet. I want some peanut butter! I been eating it in spoon fulls. Lol It has to be Jiff too. It's the best! It is kind of hard typing without my ring finger. I think I been depress too. I am not sure why. Maybe 'cause of Emily birthday is coming up next friday and she will be 16 years old. I am sure I wont get to see her until after her birthday. We got to go to court Aug. 30. They are trying to take my parent rights away. So I guess that means I wont get to ever see her. I have to get me a lawyer to fight this. I want her closer to home. She is doing so good now where she is. She is 3 hours away from me. I don't know why they had to move her so far. I know she has changed for the good. I hope she knows that I do love her and I want what is best for her. I can't believe she is going to be that old. That means that I am getting old. I be a granny for too long. I am to young for that. So I hope she waits until when I look old.(not feel old) I get carded when I buy lottery sometimes. It makes me so mad. I am 34years old. Do I look under 21? I feel over 100 years old. LOL

This is a picture of Ana and Michael. We went to buffalo Crossing a few weeks ago. Ana driving a golf cart. WATCH OUT!!! She is dangerous behind the wheel.

Thursday....

Where does the week go? I can't believe it is almost over. I only went to the Y one day. I need to go to the gym and exercise! I know yesterday I cleaned alot so I guess thats exercise. I did sweat! I don't know what I am going to do today. I do need to go to the store. I need some MEAT! For my diet. So far so good on my diet. Only if I can get more exercise I be happy! It is that time of the month so I don't feel like going to exercise. So hopefully next week will start doing it fresh. Get this weight off! I need to clean again I got other rooms in this house that are a mess! The whole house! Lol Well, I better get my Butt in gear! I got to go to store and tan and come home to clean!

Wed.

It has been a good day! I had so much energy today! I cleaned and cleaned. What happen to me? I think it those carbs. I am not eating them. I love this! I cleaned my kitchen and even moved my furniture in there too. Only if I can feel like this everyday! Michael had to feel my head make sure I was ok, when he came home. LOL Don't know whats wrong with me. But I love it!

Diet day

Tuesday! I started my Atkins diet and planning go exercise after Ana dentist appointment. I hope I make it! I ate some chesse and a slice of ham. Where the BREAD? Lol I almost didn't go on this diet this morning, I got so much fruit in the kitchen. I will miss that even though I don't eat to much fruit. I got a whole watermelon in there sitting on the floor.Ready for me to cut into it. Well, I am going to try this diet. I just want to lose weight fast and I think this one you lose faster then Weight watchers. I got to go to store today and get me some meat and stuff to make salad. It's time to go take Ana to the dentist.

4th of July!!!!

Happy 4th of July! It is fireworks time. I guess i will hear them all nite. All the loud noises! Tomorrow is diet time! YAY! I am so ready for this. I just hope when I wake up I feel the same way. LOL We went fishing this after noon and didn't catch nothing! I hook my finger! That hurt. :( I will live! I am going to hopeful start the YMCA tomorrow too. It is going to be my way of life now. Exercise and eat no carbs! I am going to get skinny by the time winter comes. I will be cold this winter with no meat on my bones to keep me warm. LOL I am home alone. Michael took Ana to go get fireworks at 10:00 at nite. Crazy!!! My stomach is killing me. We ate my last meal out and it was Golden Corral! I should have picked a better place to eat. It was nasty tonite! My poor big dog (PINTO) hates all the fire works, he is hiding under my desk. If I leave he has to be right under my feet. Buddy don't care. I got so much to do this week! I hope I will get it all done that I got to do. Man, someone got some loud fireworks over here. Well, I gonna go see if Michael is back and go feed the bugs outside.

Saturday.

I feel a purple mood! Not much going on today like always. Went yard saling. Not much since its a holiday. Happy Fourth of July to everyone! I can't believe it is almost my daughter Birthday. She will be 16 years old. God I feel old! I don't look it but sure feel it. I know its my weight thats making me feel old. Come Tuesday is big diet time!!! No more Carbs. I had to buy the last bag of BBQ Fritos. I wanted Chili-cheese! They were out. :( I have to make sure I have that bag gone in a few days! I got my grill ready and I am ready! I am going to do the YMCA. I went there today to look around again before I make up my mind.And I have and I am going to do it!!! I am going to the Y and going to lose this weight!!!!!! I am motivated now! Watch come Monday I wont be. LOL It depends on Monday I may start diet on Tuesday. Monday is a Holiday and not sure what we are going to do? I got to get me another bathing suit. I looked at Walmart and Lord! Plus size suits are high! Why so high? I guess the extra matrial! LOL Oh well! I have to find one this week. I am getting off to go clean. I been cleaning since I got home. YAY! What got into me? Don't know? I already dusted the living room and vacumme and swept the kitchen. 2 things of laundry. Now its time for dishes. I hate that I always get my belly wet. LOL