Friday, April 28, 2006

Friday......

It is the end of the week. Yay! Rest time! Not for us. Realtor is coming tomorrow at 12. So we have to work our butts of like a crazy person. I'll have to explain to her about my yard from the other day. I hope she wont take any pictures. I just tell her to wait until I get that clean up. We are going to lay that outdoor carpet on the porch, spray paint the iron things out there. Work on the flower bed on the side. I almost got the weeds up. It is a big one. I have to go get more greenery to plant over there. I sure hope this house sells fast! I hate to sell it. I should rent it out. But these neighbors are going to kill someone and I cant put someone else life in harm that I rent too. Specially if they have kids. They still have not fixed my yard up or the person who did it or her hubby has not even said sorry to us yet. What jerk-offs they are. I wish to hurt her bad! But could not. I am an Angel remember this. LOL I guess in some ways I am. I not feeling to good today. Don't know why? I took 2 naps today. I must have been wore out. I do not know how when I have not did nothing. I just started to do a little now before I got on the computer. But why do anything when you have someone come behind you and mess it up. I don't understand that at all! I got Ana trying to clean her room. We got so much stuff it is not funny! I need to get rid of it all! Forget about it and give it to DAV or someone else. I got them coming May 12. I hope to get rid of a lot of stuff then. I best get a moving and find some stuff we do not need! Hope all has a good weekend! I will be here working my butt off.

Thursday, April 27, 2006




My poor tree and yard from the crazy lady next door. How am I gonna sell this house? Lord Help us sell and find a house before this baby comes. He/she needs a room of their own. I never had a baby's room. I can't wait!

WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!

Went to see the loan guy and we are appoved for buying house! YAY! He told me that we can start looking today. I was like WHAT? Don't we have to sell our house first? He said NO. I just can't believe it. So, Michael when can we look? LOL He is not here for me to ask. Darn. I guess we are going to stay home and get this house worked on. I called the home owners and they are gonna call me back to let me know. We don't have the extra money to add more work to this house. We already have enough to do here. The realtor is coming Sat. To get this job a rolling! YAY! Go Angel!

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

What a day!!!!

Went to the funeral. It was ok until they said my mom's name and when we die, we will be together again. How so freakin sad. I broke in to tears! Why did he have to say that? I do not want to die. I do want to see my love ones again, but not by death. The day just got worse as of this evening. I been cleaning and Ana came a running to tell me she got to get the dogs in before some thing happens. I was like what? So I dropped what I was doing and went on the front porch to see what is going on. Those crazy people got in to it again. The lady was in her truck and was blocked in by her son. So she could not get out. SO what does she do but get speed and takes off close to my house and hit one of my good trees ( it was a good size too) and speeds and tear up my yard with tire marks. Why did we put grass seed down and straw? For some crazy idiot tear it down and make it worse? Lord help me move away from these people! She was so close to the house, she would have killed or hurt Ana in her room. Ana was in her room at the time. I got my heart beating so fast. I do not need the stress with this baby! I am already stress out over the age thing and my grandma dying. Now all this. I got my tree down and it was planted by my mom. How are they going to replace that? It looked so good too. It had pink flowers on it and was so full! What to do? I called the police, but she was not there so they could not do anything. They told me to go downtown and complain with pictures and she will force to have to pay and maybe go to jail. Her sons told me they would fix it. But Gees how much longer do I have to wait to put this house up for sell? It is going to take a long time to sell anyway. I want to move in August. Before this BABY! But will I make it?

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Visitation day.........

My grandma sure look so different. She did not look herself at all. She had make up on. I don't think I even seen her with make up on. She looked so young laying there. I got to meet one of my half brothers. I don't think I every seen him before. How sad! He was with another brother that I did know a little. My mom had four boys from another man before my dad. They stayed with their dad. I never got to know them. Well, the brother I meet tonight, Jimmy Pat, he said that we need to stay in touch. He said he is gonna mail me cards and letters. Let's just wait and see. After they left, Michael (my hubby) said That he can see in me that I wish that I was closer to them. They remind me of my Mom so much. Made me cry. Thinking of her. I sure miss her! I feel like I have no one. No family! I am not close to any of them. There was so many people there and I did not know them, or have not seen them in many many many years. I feel like a orphan sometimes. NO MOM! NO DAD! I was the only child between my mom and dad. I am Happy that I have Ana and Michael. I guess I depend on him too much! I break down and cry too much too with him. I can't tell him nothing, that important! It has been a long day today. I went there at 1 til 8. My feet are swollen and I am wore out. I got to go back in the morning at 10. I am going to keep Ana home to go with me. I picked her up today from school early for she can go too. She was bored there. But she loves to be with her mommy. That's me!

Monday, April 24, 2006

I just got that phone call that no one wants. Telling me that my grandma died last night. I went to see her Saturday and how different she looked from 2 weeks ago when I seen her last. I hate when someone dies that you know. She was 87. She had 5 daughters, 2 already died (one was my mom). I feel so sad now. Now I have to go to the funeral and I do not like those! Who does? I get kind of panicky at them. I do not want to die! I hate death! It is no fun at all. Is there a place after death? Is there really a Heaven? Or is it just say? I do not want to find out either. I had so many bad dreams last night. Being pregnant, I been having some wired dreams! But last night, I had many different dreams. They all was so bad! I even dreamed of my mom too. I wonder if it had anything doing with my grandma passing?

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Saturday evening...

What a nice day and I am inside not enjoying it. Michael is sick with the Flu, I guess. We was going to go over Thunder over Louisville. But he is too sick. I really don't care. I just don't think I can walk that much. My foot is swollen now and not even hot. I went to see my grandma today. Boy is she not doing good at all. I seen her maybe 2 weeks ago and from then til today she looks very bad. She is on morphine as off yesterday afternoon. She looks like my mom did before she died. My Aunt says that my mom is going to be the one that come for her. I don't understand the whole dying stage. How does that work? Who comes for you? When my mom was dying she saw Jesus in the front yard hiding behide the trees. It was hard today to see my grandma. It brings so much memories of my mom. I talked to one of my cousins that was there. She made sense to me. I am living here in my mom's house (and dad's and grandmothers) and they have too many old memories. I need a new house to make my own and have memories of my new family. There is a dog wood tree in the front of my house that when my dad was here in the hospital bed dying. My 2 sisters had planted it out there for him. He was in the house moving his hand to tell them where exactly to plant it at. I was in here too with him watching. That has been over 27 years ago. Those are old memories. I wanted to take the tree with us when we move. For I can have those memories with me always too. But now that I been thinking. I will plant our own Dogwood tree and let it have memories of our own and a new life. And tell/show this baby all the new things that we are going to do and let him/her have memories of us. I have to think good about all this. I know my mom and dad would want the best for me. I have to get over my stress and nervousness for I can go to the loan guy and get this ball a moving. I got a life inside of me that needs good memories! :)

Friday, April 21, 2006

Friday evening.........

I am so full! I just ate a sloppy Joe and chips. I can't eat too much now being pregnant or I get sick.I feel a sickness a coming soon. Rain here today and yesterday. We sure are getting a lot of rain lately. I am ok with that. We have been working in our yard trying to get this house ready for sell. We lay grass seed and straw down in the front yard. We still have to do the back yard. Maybe this weekend. It is starting to look better. I see the grass a growing (new grass). There has been a bear spot in the yard for the longest time. Michael parks his truck there. But NO MORE! YAY! I can't wait to see the grass there and no straw there. Michael fixed the 2 flower beds. We got 2 more to go. Hopeful that will be done Sunday. I got to get the weeds out of them and Michael will fix the rocks around the beds and lay mulch down. I may have to go get some more greenery to plant too. I need 2 or 3 more hosta's for the front yard. I hope that Michael will also pressure washer the drive way and porch. He has to go around the house too with it. We also are going to lay a green out door carpet outside too. He asked today if his brother will help him. I am so happy that he did. I feel bad that I can't do more to help him. He does so much! He is a hard worker! That's why I love him so much! LOL Tomorrow is Thunder over Louisville. I don't think I can handle all that walking. My feet swell up so bad now. They hurt when they are swollen. Doctor said it is normal 'cause of the heat. I just can't wait until Summer and swell all over. LOL I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Thursday morning...

I went to the baby doctor yesterday. He says I am high Risk being old. Heck, I am only 35. I did not think that was old. lol My body feels like old but I still get carded when I have to buy lottery. Crazy life, humm? At least I look young and I'm young at heart. lol I need to go have some more blood work done to make sure that the baby is ok. Then after that I guess I will have to end up at a specialist to get to know about my history and do ultra sounds to see more about the baby. And if all that does not work it is that big ol' needle in the belly. I do not think I can do that one. I am scared now. Maybe he is just trying to protect me if the baby does have something wrong with him and I can terminate the pregnancy. He says I have to look at the long haul and he can't decide for me. Would I be able to take care of a kid that has something serious wrong with him or her? God, I hope and pray nothing is wrong. I am sure nothing is, but you never know. I never took my prenatal vitamins in the first 3 months of this pregnancy. So lord help me have a healthy baby boy or girl. I really don't care what he/she is. I just want a healthy one!

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Tuesday morning............

Why every time I eat Fish I get sik now that I am pregnant? DOes the baby not like it? It is one of my fav. foods too. Man this baby don't let me drink soda and eat certain foods. How can a small little baby take over my body? Hope everyone has a good Tuesday! I go to see the loan guy today to see how much money we get. I hope enough!

Bye,

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Easter Sunday.

Happy Easter! Did the Easter Bunny come to see ya? Oh my allergies are really bothering me. I have sneezed almost 100 times already this morning. My eyes are itchy and dry now. I do not know what I can take for it. I go to the doctor Wed. My second time to Baby Dr. I need to ask him what I can do about my feet. The get so swollen and hurt. I know he is gonna say stay off of the salt. But really I don't think I eat too much salty thing. I hope I don't have to ever stay in the bed and not get up. That be soooooooooooo boring for me. I am having Easter dinner for us 3. If I had a bigger place I would invite some people over to eat. Next Year! When I have that big house! I sure hope so! We go Tuesday for the loan and see how much we are gonna get. I am so READY! We found out yesterday that the Crazy neighbors was ran into our fence and bent it in a place. I am so PISSED off at them. And then another thing she did. We have a old pine tree back (almost in corner) in the yard and she trimmed some of it. And then threw it in our yard for us to pick up and get rid of. That is the second time she has done that. She trimmed the trees on the side of house too and threw them in our yard. They was not even bothering her. Why trim my own trees? So I have had it. What do I do, but move! They are gonna run into my house one night while we are all sleeping. They are drunks and crazys!

Friday, April 14, 2006

IT is sooooooooo hot!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, is it summer now? God it is in the Middle 80's. I was just sweating here by typing. I NEED FANS OR AIR. It really is too early to turn on the window air units. But, I am ready to clean them out! I hate the heat and more being pregnant! I have to go thru the whole summer to be pregnant! My feet are killing me from swelling up. How will I go walk anywhere? I got sick yesterday from the heat. I worked so hard in the yard and I guess the heat got to me. My face was red and I thought I was gonna pass out a few times. But I still got up to cook for Ana and Michael. They was starving too. Poor Angel. I wish Ana was older to help me cook sometimes. Michael was too busy outside washing the cars with a pressure washer. Then here it rain in the night. He was soooo mad. He did all that work for nothing. LOL

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Nice day...

It is such a pretty day today. It is a little windy but feels good. It is gonna be in the middle 70's. Tomorrow and next day in the 80's. Gonna be a hot one. LOL I am just happy that winter is over and it feels like spring. All the trees are a blooming. My allergies are a blooming too. Michael called me a grouch this morning. From being one last night. I am truly sorry if I am Honey bunny. He has been real sweet to me lately. I told him I need to stay pregnant always for him be so sweet! LOL At least I am ok now. I was worried when I no can eat and throwing up all the time. I got 5 more months of Hell. How can ladies work when they are pregnant? I know I could not! Sick and now feet are swellening up. My belly swollen up too. LOL
HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Tuesday night.....

Well, I got my first Heartburn today. (the first of being pregnant) I hate heartburn. All I ate was fish and fries in the oven with Tartar and ketsup. Boy am I in a foul mood too. I been in arguements with Michael today. He just makes me mad easy now. I just walk away and forget it. The neighbors got on my nerves tonite too. They have a grand daughter that lives there too and the little girl told Ana that her mom said she can't play with ana no more or come over here. Then I heard the grandmother say 'cause how mean Ana and a friend was to the little girl. I just wish I could speak out and not be so freakin shy. But those people are crazy anyway. They drink and fight all the time. Last summer the grandma and the daughter in law got into a big fight outside. One was biting and the other was pulling hair. Long time ago The lady (grandmother of the little girl) had a brother there that lived there and he shot his self. They get drunk and yell, fight all the time there. I get scared living here next to them. They are gonna get someone killed one day. It may be that little grand daughter of theres if they don't be careful. I just can't wait to move more now. Get the freakin out of here! I hope this house sells fast!

Tuesday

It is such a nice spring day here. I am happy, the weather is good, the nausea is gone. What a beautiful day! I had another sign of pregnancy yesterday. Swollen feet and a real bad backache. But I rather have that then that throwing up stuff. That was horrible! I hope it does not come back! I think I may go work out in the yard today. We got to get this house together for we can find us a house. I want A house sooooooooooooo bad. I think we are gonna have a hard time getting a house now. We did our taxes sat. And screwed up big time on them! Lord! What to do now? I just hope if they see we sell this house and get that as a down payment. They wont look at our income. But who knows. Well, I am gonna get busy and clean some more. I had energy yesterday and I cleaned and cleaned. SO I am hoping I will do the same today.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Monday after the break.....

Spring Break is over! It did not last long. I got to get back in my routine of work. We got some straw yesterday to lay over grass seed. I can't wait until we do it. I may do some of it today. I still don't know what to do about the house. TO sell it or rent it. We got a lot of cleaning to do if we sell it. Painting and just all cleaning. We need to get our butts a moving! I want to put this house for sell this month. Well, I best get a busy doing something here. It is a mess here. I guess I was on break too last week. lol

Thursday, April 06, 2006

It is April.

April rain begins May flowers. Why does it always rain in April? I love Spring but not all the rain. I am taking Ana to the movies today. We are gonna see SHaggy Dog with TIm Allen. Ihope it is a funny one. IT seems like one. Tim Allen is always changing his self. If it is not Santa it is a dog. So wish us fun and joy at the movies. I will enjoy that big popcorn! LOL