Thursday...

why do I have to take a nap almost everyday? After my naps I feel worse then I do before I lay down. What is a girl to do? I know I need my rest, cause when this baby comes there is no rest for the mommie. Will I be able to do it? I hope so. It is all new to me again. It is like starting over. How do you do it? WHat to do? I hope it comes back to me. Maybe it is like riding a bike. LOL It is coming up the Derby in a few days. I have never been to the track on Derby. I am sure it is crazy there. All those people. All those drunk people! I miss working at Holiday Inn at this time. I made good money during those days. The people you meet that comes every year. Heck I even seen and met Wayne Lucas the famous horse trainer. Man did he smell so good! I remember taking a basket of flowers to his room when he was not there and just going in there and getting a big smell of his room. I did not take nothing! I am not like that. Just going in there and his great smell. Everyone knew I loved him! He sure looked good too. I took room service to him all the time. He did make me mad one time and that was the end of our romance. LOL Well mine. We was so busy that day and it took a little longer then said. When I finally got it there he fussed at me about the whole hotel and rest. I was like so sorry then. It made tears in my eyes then. After that He was not so hot no more to me. But hey he is still famous! I was still glad to meet him and touch him. Oh yeah and smell him too. LOL

Boring day...

today is pay day and I have no where to go to. What a boring life! I did go get my lottery cash. I had $23 in wining tickets. I bought $8 more and won nothing. I wish to have a friend! LOL I just want to do something, I don't know what? I lead a boring life. I should be home cleaning. My house will be on the market real soon. No telling when someone will show up to look at. Lord I got to much stuff too. I need to get a storage unit to put some stuff in. I could pack a little. I got 2 boxes yesterday at Save-a-lot. I hate to spend extra money when I got a big garage out there to put things in. I guess that's why it is full now. LOL I am sitting here watching Regis and Kelly. Tom Cruise is on there. I do not care that much for him. Why is everyone so HOT for him? I just wish I had his money$$$$$$. He owes 4 planes. Must be nice. You could go anywhere you want to at that moment. Humm He just said he worked here in Kentucky at an ice cream place. I did not know. I wonder if he was born here. You learn something new everyday. LOL I just learn the not so interesting stuff. I had the septic guy come yesterday and lord you talk about smelling!OMG! What a smell. I hope it helps. The guy behind us has almost a little pond in his backyard from our septic overflowing. I was lucky he did not call on us. It has been doing that a long time too! We need to get hook up on sewers. But my gosh it cost $1000 to have someone to put it in, Plus almost $7000 to the MSD for all the work they did to put it in the street. How can anyone afford that? Well, I think I need to find something to do.Where should I start? Have a good sunny day here in Kentucky!

Tuesday morning....

OMG! I had worked my butt off this past 3 days. Michael did not work yesterday for the boycott of immigrant's. He did work at home. We did so much in the 3 days! We clean the garage a little. Took a load to Salvation Army. Threw away some stuff, move some stuff. I seen there is money to be made out there. I just got to make it! LOl I am going to plan on having a yard sale after Derby. THe lady next door is driving me crazy. I live by both crazy people! One on each side of me. I can not throw nothing away the lady next door wants it. And if you give to her you have to see it in her yard for months to a year. She has 2 kitchen sinks in her back yard. Why? What causes a person to have 2 sinks in their back yard? Oh well. Who knows why? She just makes me so mad too. We was working in the garage and she had to put her nose in it too. She can't hardly stand up, she walks with a cane. She told me that me and her can work out there while Michael is working. HOW? I can't lift those heavy boxes, she can't stand? What a crazy lady too. She also told me she wanted some table out there and I told her that it was old and then she tried to tell me no it is not! I ask my Aunt and she rem. It of my mom's and YES it is old! What is she trying to do to me? She told me to let her see what I am selling before I sell it. OMG! Am I able to have a yard sell now? If it was not too much trouble I would have it at a friends house. We shall see in a few more weeks... Yard sale or no?

Friday......

It is the end of the week. Yay! Rest time! Not for us. Realtor is coming tomorrow at 12. So we have to work our butts of like a crazy person. I'll have to explain to her about my yard from the other day. I hope she wont take any pictures. I just tell her to wait until I get that clean up. We are going to lay that outdoor carpet on the porch, spray paint the iron things out there. Work on the flower bed on the side. I almost got the weeds up. It is a big one. I have to go get more greenery to plant over there. I sure hope this house sells fast! I hate to sell it. I should rent it out. But these neighbors are going to kill someone and I cant put someone else life in harm that I rent too. Specially if they have kids. They still have not fixed my yard up or the person who did it or her hubby has not even said sorry to us yet. What jerk-offs they are. I wish to hurt her bad! But could not. I am an Angel remember this. LOL I guess in some ways I am. I not feeling to good today. Don't know why? I took 2 naps today. I must have been wore out. I do not know how when I have not did nothing. I just started to do a little now before I got on the computer. But why do anything when you have someone come behind you and mess it up. I don't understand that at all! I got Ana trying to clean her room. We got so much stuff it is not funny! I need to get rid of it all! Forget about it and give it to DAV or someone else. I got them coming May 12. I hope to get rid of a lot of stuff then. I best get a moving and find some stuff we do not need! Hope all has a good weekend! I will be here working my butt off.

My poor tree and yard from the crazy lady next door. How am I gonna sell this house? Lord Help us sell and find a house before this baby comes. He/she needs a room of their own. I never had a baby's room. I can't wait!

WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!

Went to see the loan guy and we are appoved for buying house! YAY! He told me that we can start looking today. I was like WHAT? Don't we have to sell our house first? He said NO. I just can't believe it. So, Michael when can we look? LOL He is not here for me to ask. Darn. I guess we are going to stay home and get this house worked on. I called the home owners and they are gonna call me back to let me know. We don't have the extra money to add more work to this house. We already have enough to do here. The realtor is coming Sat. To get this job a rolling! YAY! Go Angel!

What a day!!!!

Went to the funeral. It was ok until they said my mom's name and when we die, we will be together again. How so freakin sad. I broke in to tears! Why did he have to say that? I do not want to die. I do want to see my love ones again, but not by death. The day just got worse as of this evening. I been cleaning and Ana came a running to tell me she got to get the dogs in before some thing happens. I was like what? So I dropped what I was doing and went on the front porch to see what is going on. Those crazy people got in to it again. The lady was in her truck and was blocked in by her son. So she could not get out. SO what does she do but get speed and takes off close to my house and hit one of my good trees ( it was a good size too) and speeds and tear up my yard with tire marks. Why did we put grass seed down and straw? For some crazy idiot tear it down and make it worse? Lord help me move away from these people! She was so close to the house, she would have killed or hurt Ana in her room. Ana was in her room at the time. I got my heart beating so fast. I do not need the stress with this baby! I am already stress out over the age thing and my grandma dying. Now all this. I got my tree down and it was planted by my mom. How are they going to replace that? It looked so good too. It had pink flowers on it and was so full! What to do? I called the police, but she was not there so they could not do anything. They told me to go downtown and complain with pictures and she will force to have to pay and maybe go to jail. Her sons told me they would fix it. But Gees how much longer do I have to wait to put this house up for sell? It is going to take a long time to sell anyway. I want to move in August. Before this BABY! But will I make it?

Visitation day.........

My grandma sure look so different. She did not look herself at all. She had make up on. I don't think I even seen her with make up on. She looked so young laying there. I got to meet one of my half brothers. I don't think I every seen him before. How sad! He was with another brother that I did know a little. My mom had four boys from another man before my dad. They stayed with their dad. I never got to know them. Well, the brother I meet tonight, Jimmy Pat, he said that we need to stay in touch. He said he is gonna mail me cards and letters. Let's just wait and see. After they left, Michael (my hubby) said That he can see in me that I wish that I was closer to them. They remind me of my Mom so much. Made me cry. Thinking of her. I sure miss her! I feel like I have no one. No family! I am not close to any of them. There was so many people there and I did not know them, or have not seen them in many many many years. I feel like a orphan sometimes. NO MOM! NO DAD! I was the only child between my mom and dad. I am Happy that I have Ana and Michael. I guess I depend on him too much! I break down and cry too much too with him. I can't tell him nothing, that important! It has been a long day today. I went there at 1 til 8. My feet are swollen and I am wore out. I got to go back in the morning at 10. I am going to keep Ana home to go with me. I picked her up today from school early for she can go too. She was bored there. But she loves to be with her mommy. That's me!

I just got that phone call that no one wants. Telling me that my grandma died last night. I went to see her Saturday and how different she looked from 2 weeks ago when I seen her last. I hate when someone dies that you know. She was 87. She had 5 daughters, 2 already died (one was my mom). I feel so sad now. Now I have to go to the funeral and I do not like those! Who does? I get kind of panicky at them. I do not want to die! I hate death! It is no fun at all. Is there a place after death? Is there really a Heaven? Or is it just say? I do not want to find out either. I had so many bad dreams last night. Being pregnant, I been having some wired dreams! But last night, I had many different dreams. They all was so bad! I even dreamed of my mom too. I wonder if it had anything doing with my grandma passing?

Saturday evening...

What a nice day and I am inside not enjoying it. Michael is sick with the Flu, I guess. We was going to go over Thunder over Louisville. But he is too sick. I really don't care. I just don't think I can walk that much. My foot is swollen now and not even hot. I went to see my grandma today. Boy is she not doing good at all. I seen her maybe 2 weeks ago and from then til today she looks very bad. She is on morphine as off yesterday afternoon. She looks like my mom did before she died. My Aunt says that my mom is going to be the one that come for her. I don't understand the whole dying stage. How does that work? Who comes for you? When my mom was dying she saw Jesus in the front yard hiding behide the trees. It was hard today to see my grandma. It brings so much memories of my mom. I talked to one of my cousins that was there. She made sense to me. I am living here in my mom's house (and dad's and grandmothers) and they have too many old memories. I need a new house to make my own and have memories of my new family. There is a dog wood tree in the front of my house that when my dad was here in the hospital bed dying. My 2 sisters had planted it out there for him. He was in the house moving his hand to tell them where exactly to plant it at. I was in here too with him watching. That has been over 27 years ago. Those are old memories. I wanted to take the tree with us when we move. For I can have those memories with me always too. But now that I been thinking. I will plant our own Dogwood tree and let it have memories of our own and a new life. And tell/show this baby all the new things that we are going to do and let him/her have memories of us. I have to think good about all this. I know my mom and dad would want the best for me. I have to get over my stress and nervousness for I can go to the loan guy and get this ball a moving. I got a life inside of me that needs good memories! :)

Friday evening.........

I am so full! I just ate a sloppy Joe and chips. I can't eat too much now being pregnant or I get sick.I feel a sickness a coming soon. Rain here today and yesterday. We sure are getting a lot of rain lately. I am ok with that. We have been working in our yard trying to get this house ready for sell. We lay grass seed and straw down in the front yard. We still have to do the back yard. Maybe this weekend. It is starting to look better. I see the grass a growing (new grass). There has been a bear spot in the yard for the longest time. Michael parks his truck there. But NO MORE! YAY! I can't wait to see the grass there and no straw there. Michael fixed the 2 flower beds. We got 2 more to go. Hopeful that will be done Sunday. I got to get the weeds out of them and Michael will fix the rocks around the beds and lay mulch down. I may have to go get some more greenery to plant too. I need 2 or 3 more hosta's for the front yard. I hope that Michael will also pressure washer the drive way and porch. He has to go around the house too with it. We also are going to lay a green out door carpet outside too. He asked today if his brother will help him. I am so happy that he did. I feel bad that I can't do more to help him. He does so much! He is a hard worker! That's why I love him so much! LOL Tomorrow is Thunder over Louisville. I don't think I can handle all that walking. My feet swell up so bad now. They hurt when they are swollen. Doctor said it is normal 'cause of the heat. I just can't wait until Summer and swell all over. LOL I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Thursday morning...

I went to the baby doctor yesterday. He says I am high Risk being old. Heck, I am only 35. I did not think that was old. lol My body feels like old but I still get carded when I have to buy lottery. Crazy life, humm? At least I look young and I'm young at heart. lol I need to go have some more blood work done to make sure that the baby is ok. Then after that I guess I will have to end up at a specialist to get to know about my history and do ultra sounds to see more about the baby. And if all that does not work it is that big ol' needle in the belly. I do not think I can do that one. I am scared now. Maybe he is just trying to protect me if the baby does have something wrong with him and I can terminate the pregnancy. He says I have to look at the long haul and he can't decide for me. Would I be able to take care of a kid that has something serious wrong with him or her? God, I hope and pray nothing is wrong. I am sure nothing is, but you never know. I never took my prenatal vitamins in the first 3 months of this pregnancy. So lord help me have a healthy baby boy or girl. I really don't care what he/she is. I just want a healthy one!

Tuesday morning............

Why every time I eat Fish I get sik now that I am pregnant? DOes the baby not like it? It is one of my fav. foods too. Man this baby don't let me drink soda and eat certain foods. How can a small little baby take over my body? Hope everyone has a good Tuesday! I go to see the loan guy today to see how much money we get. I hope enough!

Bye,

Easter Sunday.

Happy Easter! Did the Easter Bunny come to see ya? Oh my allergies are really bothering me. I have sneezed almost 100 times already this morning. My eyes are itchy and dry now. I do not know what I can take for it. I go to the doctor Wed. My second time to Baby Dr. I need to ask him what I can do about my feet. The get so swollen and hurt. I know he is gonna say stay off of the salt. But really I don't think I eat too much salty thing. I hope I don't have to ever stay in the bed and not get up. That be soooooooooooo boring for me. I am having Easter dinner for us 3. If I had a bigger place I would invite some people over to eat. Next Year! When I have that big house! I sure hope so! We go Tuesday for the loan and see how much we are gonna get. I am so READY! We found out yesterday that the Crazy neighbors was ran into our fence and bent it in a place. I am so PISSED off at them. And then another thing she did. We have a old pine tree back (almost in corner) in the yard and she trimmed some of it. And then threw it in our yard for us to pick up and get rid of. That is the second time she has done that. She trimmed the trees on the side of house too and threw them in our yard. They was not even bothering her. Why trim my own trees? So I have had it. What do I do, but move! They are gonna run into my house one night while we are all sleeping. They are drunks and crazys!

IT is sooooooooo hot!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, is it summer now? God it is in the Middle 80's. I was just sweating here by typing. I NEED FANS OR AIR. It really is too early to turn on the window air units. But, I am ready to clean them out! I hate the heat and more being pregnant! I have to go thru the whole summer to be pregnant! My feet are killing me from swelling up. How will I go walk anywhere? I got sick yesterday from the heat. I worked so hard in the yard and I guess the heat got to me. My face was red and I thought I was gonna pass out a few times. But I still got up to cook for Ana and Michael. They was starving too. Poor Angel. I wish Ana was older to help me cook sometimes. Michael was too busy outside washing the cars with a pressure washer. Then here it rain in the night. He was soooo mad. He did all that work for nothing. LOL

Nice day...

It is such a pretty day today. It is a little windy but feels good. It is gonna be in the middle 70's. Tomorrow and next day in the 80's. Gonna be a hot one. LOL I am just happy that winter is over and it feels like spring. All the trees are a blooming. My allergies are a blooming too. Michael called me a grouch this morning. From being one last night. I am truly sorry if I am Honey bunny. He has been real sweet to me lately. I told him I need to stay pregnant always for him be so sweet! LOL At least I am ok now. I was worried when I no can eat and throwing up all the time. I got 5 more months of Hell. How can ladies work when they are pregnant? I know I could not! Sick and now feet are swellening up. My belly swollen up too. LOL
HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday night.....

Well, I got my first Heartburn today. (the first of being pregnant) I hate heartburn. All I ate was fish and fries in the oven with Tartar and ketsup. Boy am I in a foul mood too. I been in arguements with Michael today. He just makes me mad easy now. I just walk away and forget it. The neighbors got on my nerves tonite too. They have a grand daughter that lives there too and the little girl told Ana that her mom said she can't play with ana no more or come over here. Then I heard the grandmother say 'cause how mean Ana and a friend was to the little girl. I just wish I could speak out and not be so freakin shy. But those people are crazy anyway. They drink and fight all the time. Last summer the grandma and the daughter in law got into a big fight outside. One was biting and the other was pulling hair. Long time ago The lady (grandmother of the little girl) had a brother there that lived there and he shot his self. They get drunk and yell, fight all the time there. I get scared living here next to them. They are gonna get someone killed one day. It may be that little grand daughter of theres if they don't be careful. I just can't wait to move more now. Get the freakin out of here! I hope this house sells fast!

Tuesday

It is such a nice spring day here. I am happy, the weather is good, the nausea is gone. What a beautiful day! I had another sign of pregnancy yesterday. Swollen feet and a real bad backache. But I rather have that then that throwing up stuff. That was horrible! I hope it does not come back! I think I may go work out in the yard today. We got to get this house together for we can find us a house. I want A house sooooooooooooo bad. I think we are gonna have a hard time getting a house now. We did our taxes sat. And screwed up big time on them! Lord! What to do now? I just hope if they see we sell this house and get that as a down payment. They wont look at our income. But who knows. Well, I am gonna get busy and clean some more. I had energy yesterday and I cleaned and cleaned. SO I am hoping I will do the same today.

Monday after the break.....

Spring Break is over! It did not last long. I got to get back in my routine of work. We got some straw yesterday to lay over grass seed. I can't wait until we do it. I may do some of it today. I still don't know what to do about the house. TO sell it or rent it. We got a lot of cleaning to do if we sell it. Painting and just all cleaning. We need to get our butts a moving! I want to put this house for sell this month. Well, I best get a busy doing something here. It is a mess here. I guess I was on break too last week. lol

It is April.

April rain begins May flowers. Why does it always rain in April? I love Spring but not all the rain. I am taking Ana to the movies today. We are gonna see SHaggy Dog with TIm Allen. Ihope it is a funny one. IT seems like one. Tim Allen is always changing his self. If it is not Santa it is a dog. So wish us fun and joy at the movies. I will enjoy that big popcorn! LOL

It's Friday..........

Yay! It is Friday. Spring break is next week. So I wont be writing much. I got to spend time with Ana. It is our last spring break alone. Next one we will have to share our time with the baby. I had to go today and get my blood work done. Lord do they need all that blood from me? They took 4 tubes full. OMG it hurt. That lady was rough! She said she had to for she could find my veins. Ok after they saw her they took off a running. It is a raining day here. I got wet from getting in and out of the van today. I hope I don't get sick. I hope everyone has a good Friday and a happy Spring Break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thurs......

I had to go to Lexington today to see my one daughter Emily. I have not seen her in a year I think. It has been a long time. I was glad to see her. Even though I get to see her she still takes all my money. LOL I did not get to spend long with her. Not even 2 hours. I wish I had more time with her. I really did not get to talk either. I am too busy driving and have no clue where I am to talk. It is a busy place there. VERY! I went by the U of Kentucky school. OMG it is big. Really big! Nice! But too big for me. No wonder they have a good team. It is a good school! Well, I am gonna go lay down I got a really bad headache. Calgon take me away...........

Wed.

What day is it? I think Wed. Lord. I am so sleepy. I need a nap. It is too late to take one. DARN! It is almost time to go get Ana at school. Another day in pregnancy. I am sick like always. I hate myself and I know others here do too. I just can't believe It wont leave me this sickness. Am I gonna have it for 5 1/2 more months? God help me, not to be sick no more. This baby wants to EAT! He wants to enjoy some good food and drinks. Like a big diet PEPSI. Yum. I am going to go watch my soaps. Have a good day!

Tuesday..........

I got a new drink! YAY! It is red fruit punch in a gallon. I had Michael stop on the way home to get a bag off ice and I drunk some and it was so nice and did not make me sick... Until I drunk 3 glasses full. I was so full. I am so tried of drinking water and choc. Milk. I want to drink other stuff. I am thinking that I am gonna have a girl. I was sick like this with Ana. Who knows. Well, I just got sick so I think I need to go lay down. That is a good excuse ain't it?

Monday, monday........

Oh what a day. Monday the start of a new week. Back to the drawing boards. Back to school from the weekend, back to work for hubby. I am back to doing what i do too. Cooking and cleaning. Lately I have not been doing much of that. I been sick. Well I had my choc. milk for the morning. I hape that made my baby happy. He was not feeling good the whole weekend! Nope! I was getting sick at 5 something this morning. I think it is too early for that. Thats what I call too early morning sickness! Well, I best get up and do some work around here. I got a lot since I been sick this week end. I did not do much.(nothing) Have a good Monday!

Thursday

I had to go to doctor yesterday. Lord what a day. I was gone until 3 p.m. I left before 8:30a.m. Why did I have to go to a Dr kind of far? Lord I almost had 2 bad accidents! That is my worst fear. Well, Why it took so long was the Dr could not find the baby heartbeat. So he schule a Ultra sound at a different place, farther away! In a area where it is so busy and a lot of traffic. I had to walk miles from the building. It felt like it.:) the ultra sound was ok. They seen the baby and lord he or she is very active! He was doing flips and steching his legs and arms. In one picture it looks like he is waving to me. That made me feel better. Just to see him move! IT was amazing. I am happy now. Just wish to get over my sickness. After I ate yesterday, I have been so sick and still sick today. HELP ME, Lord! I miss feeling good and able to eat.

Monday.......

It is the start of a new week. Oh boy how much fun! I go to the baby doctor Wed. I am trying not to think about it. I just know I need to shave tomorrow places that I have not shave in a long time........LOL Can't go to Dr and be hairy. I am not feeling good this morning. I feel throwing up in my near future. I ate a few saltine crackers this morning. Who was the one thought of that? It don't work! Well, on me it don't. I still feel Nausea. And feel more close to it now after eating those crackers. Well, I hope all has a good Monday. Enjoy yourself. I be here being sick................

friday evening.............

I took a 3 hour nap and now i am feeling bad. I think I am depress! I can only drink Water and choc. milk. Thats all. THat make anyone depress! Plus that 3 hour nap. I missed my soaps. Oh well, I have not did nothing today. Not lift a finger to do anything. Just to make my choc. milk. LOL I drunk a Yoo-hoo too. I love those drinks. I don't even think I can drink white milk again. Maybe this baby will be black, from all the choc. I been drinking. LOL I know he or she will be brown sugar. He will have that Mexican blood in him or her. Ana is not dark. She is darker then me. She don't burn in the sun just gets tan. She will love that when she gets older. Oh the summer will be here soon and I have no plans. Last year I joined the Y. that was fun. Not sure if I do that this year. Who wants to see this big ol' belly in the water? Man, my boobs are itching me to death. They need to get bigger. lol Lord thank god this day is almost over. I hope tomorrow is better. I will not take a nap tomorrow! Maybe i need to go out and stay out! Where could I go?

Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy St. Patty's day to all. Don't forget to wear you green today. You don't want to get pinch!

Thursday morning.......

Oh I feel bad again. I don't know why. I guess from this baby. lol I got my kitchen sink stopped up and a lot of dirty dishes. I had to go get a little tub for I can go wash some in the bathroom. Oh how fun! That's what I plan on doing today. Plus I need to give Buddy a bath too. More fun. I will be soakin' wet in a little bit. Well, I guess I best start my jobs. I hope everyone has a good Thursday!

Wed. Morning............

OMG! I am burping up something and it taste like White Castles. I have not had those in months. Oh why me? Makes me wanta get sick. I can't even chew some gum. I can put it in my month for a few seconds and have to hurry and throw it out fast or I am gonna throw-up. I came close a few times while out. That won't be a pretty site. While driving. It is tax time here. Finally Michael got his 10-99's yesterday. Lord, I hate this time of the year. We have to pay in. It looks bad this year too. His 10-99's say he got paid a lot of money! But really he did not. He gets the check and then divides it into his crew. Not getting paid anymore then his partners. I wish he did get paid that much a year. IT would be nice. I could have a good ol' time! LOL He got 3 10-99's this year. Lord more money to pay! One of them has he made way over 100, thousand dollars. That's a lot of taxes to have to pay. He don't claim it all. But lord if he did. Shooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Lot of money to have to pay back. Well, it is time to get off and go work! I feel like doing something...............................................................................A NAP!

Tuesday morning.........

It is almost St. Patty's day, so I'll write in green. There is so many different colors of green. I am not much of a green person. I don't think I look good in green. Oh well. I don't have to wear it. Not much going on here. I finally got a baby doctor appointment. It is for next wed. I am scared. IT is my first time there. I hope I like them. I hope they don't say much about my weight! If they do I be happy! Hey I know I need to lose! Why remind me? Well, I guess I have cravings now. I been craving Choc. Milk a lot. I been drinking so much. Sat. I drunk 3 or 4 tall glasses full. Yummy. I had to run to the store this morning to get me some more milk for I can make it. Michael has been real sweet with me. I wonder what happen? LOL He offers to get me things, when I am in bed or sitting down. He offered yesterday to wash some dishes for me 'cause of they may smell. I still get sick over smells! Lord I be so glad when this spell finish. I am hoping for 2 more weeks, maybe. Well, it is almost my daily nap time. I hope all has a green day..............

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Friday afternoon.....

I just took a 2 hour nap and I am still ready for another one. Lord. I got so much stuff to do. I got to make Fresh chix soup today. I got to cut the freakin' bird up. I hate doing that. We was going to have it yesterday. But I was hungry when we was out shopping. I told Michael that I will buy our food out. We had my fav. Mexican. Almost did not have it. He wanted Chinese buffet. I was likeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, (to myself) I do not want to buy that. LOL I do not like Chinese food. Lucky they have fried stuff there that I eat. Chix fingers, corn nuggets. Stuff like that. I do love there sugar rolls. They almost taste like biscuits that u fry and put sugar on them. They are to die for! I always have to have my big share of them. Oh well, sitting here and typing in this blog is not going to get my work done. I need to put some speed in my butt. I may write more later. Have a good sunshine day.

Wed. Noon

Oh boy my nausea is back. I was doing ok for a few days. But it is back! The worst part is throwing up and nothing coming out but a little water. Now my throat and insides are sore. I feel awful. I gonna go lay down for a short nap. It is my time everyday for a nap. I use to not take them. This baby is making me so tired. It is hard work being pregnant! LOL Wonder when I crave food? Shoot I can't even eat food to crave it? Lord. It is a lazy, gonna rain day. You know every day is that a way to me. LAZY! Well, I hear my bed a calling my name. I hope all have a good American Idol and Biggest loser day. I can't believe they are both on at the same time. I have to watch Biggest loser. I need a TiVo to tape American Idol. I will miss my Baby, Ace. Good lucky honey bunny. You got my vote.

Tuesday..........

Have you ever wait on the mail man? When you wait on him he runs late. Any other day he is here early. I am waiting to see if i get my insurance cards. I got to go to doctor tomorrow. So if I do not get them I will not go to dr. I am almost 11 weeks and still I no go yet to dr. Lord. I best get myself to a clinic then. I hate going there too. You sit and wait and wait and wait, oh and sit somemore. I need to get my butt up from this computer and do some work. I should go exercise. All I do is exercise my fingers, LOL. I should have some skinney fingers then. Well, I am gonna sit here and wait some more on that late mail man. Maybe he already came and I did not see him pass. Oh Lord! Let me check! Nope! Not here yet. I hope your mail man comes on time today!

Monday noon..............

I got so much to do and so little time to do it. Yeah right. As long as I am sitting here on the computer I will not get nothing done. Mondays are rough! Cause I am gone on the weekend and do nothing. It is like my day off almost. Sunday, we went for a drive a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGG one. It was nice to see different stuff. Country stuff, like animals, farms, deer dead on the side of the rode with guts hanging out. That one was not nice but, it was nice to be out of Louisville.
I always thought I like to live on a farm. But the smell might brother me now. I can't even feed the dogs now. Well, I am going to get busy. I need a maid! I think I rather take a nap. Have a great Monday!

Sat. Afternoon............

Ok. The sickness is back! OMG! I hate it. I want to get rid of it. HOW? I was sick last night. I felt like food was stuck in my throat and would not go down. I would have felt better if I did throw up. But I didn't. I ate the last time of 3 in the afternoon yesterday, and it is going on after 1 in the afternoon today. No food or drink. I am soooooooooooo thirsty! I am nausea today. Just don't feel good at all. Give me HELP! Top it all off. I been laying in my bed all day so far. Well, my little 11.5 pound dog took a run and jump on my stomach. OMG! I was in pain. I cried too. Just a few minutes before that happen, I was like feeling better. Then wham! It happen and my bad feelings plus more is back. I love to EAT! I just can't. I pray I am not gonna be sick the whole 9 months. I am getting close to 3 months now. Just let the time fly by me. Only one good thing is I wont gain no weight or little with this baby, if I stay this sick. Who knows maybe I'll lose too. Well, I am gonna go back to my bed. Here I come bed...........................

Friday morning..............

Well, it is coming the weekend. It is back to cold. It has been so nice these past few days. Felt like Spring. I did not get to enjoy it to much. I was sick. Yesterday, I did feel good. Until the nite time. I threw up big time. Yuck!!!!!!!!!!! Ever time I eat I get sick. What is this the Baby does not like FOOD? What am I gonna eat? Grass? Weed? Oh makes me sick just thinking of it. I plan on going out today. I just hope I feel up to it. There is no school today here. I ate boiled eggs this morning. Please god do not let me throw those up. I will never eat a egg again in my life, if I do. I wonder what we are going to do this weekend? Probably nothing, just too cold. I know spring is around the corner someday. I will have to spring clean then. I usually get energy around then. So I hope it is soon. Well, I best get my day a rolling with a shower. Have a great weekend to all!!!!!!!!!!

i think he is cute......

I wish to be his little hat in his back pocket too. LOL

Thursday afternoon........

Well, I am feeling so good today. Yay! I am so happy! At least I got to get some work done today. Lord I been sick for dayssssssssssss. I went yesterday for my 2nd. Ultra sound. Michael went with me. We got to hear the heartbeat, on the ultra sound. It was beating fast. Maybe that is a sign it is a boy. It is amazing how big he got since my 1st ultra sound. It almost looks like a baby now. LOL I was glad Michael went with me. I like to see how he reacts, about stuff like that. He thought it was neat to hear the baby and see him/she too. I wish I had a scanner to post a picture of him. The progress of the baby. Well, I best get a moving some more while I can. LOL Who knows when the baby will get sick again. I am just soooooooooooooooooooo Happy that I am fine today.

Tuesday afternoon...........

I have turn into a LAZY bum. I am taking naps and staying on the computer for hours. I don't get much done around the house. I took a nap already today and now I am thinking of another one. Am I CRAZY? I go for my Ultra sound tomorrow. I hope all is ok. I know this baby is making me soooooooooooo sick. It must be a girl. I was sick like this with Ana. Somedays I can not drink my diet pepsi's that I love so much. The dark Liquid. Yuck. I am thinking about it now and making me sick already. I am no a sprite girl. But I have been drinking more of them in my life that I have ever drunk. Some times I can't even drink at all. I be so thirsty! The thought of something in my throat makes me nausea. Well, enough of that talk. I am going to get up and go lay down I feel it coming again...................

Monday morning......

Well a good start to the week. I feel so sick. I am nausea! I hate feeling that away. I was so sick when I was pregnant with Ana. I hope I am not that away this time. I still have not got to go to the baby doctor yet. I am waiting on insurance. What is taking so long? I am sooooooo hungry! But I have to wait until I feeling good again. We went to the Boat this weekend to play those slots. I loved it. But of course did not win any big money. What we did win we just put back into it. Then we ate at a buffet there too. The food was ok. To me. But OMG the line was so long. By the time you got to your table ur food was cold. Or by the time you got to what you was in line for the first time, the food was gone. I did not get to eat much! It was not worth getting in line for. LOL Shoot it also was a little high too $15 a head. Lucky I had a comp of $13 so I only had to pay 2 dollars for me. But still. Ana went over a sleepover. They went to Indiana to a Holiday INN to go swimming and stayed there. I am not sure if she had a good time. She was acting funny when she came home. I guess she did not get much sleep. Plus her stomach was killer her. Well, I am starting to feel a little better. DO I hear Pancakes or cereal calling my name.......................Angel come eat meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Friday afternoon......

Well, I was so sick last nite. I ate too much yesterday. Then after I ate dinner I went to lay down to watch all my nite shows. American Idol, Dancing with the stars, Skating with the stars. Boy is the Drew great on the Dancing with the stars. At first I did not care much for him. But last nite he did so good! Man, he was HOTT! I got a lot of work to do today. My new sofa is coming tomorrow and my hubby and brother-law is coming home to move the entertainment center, and the fish tank. Lord, this house is so small. I need room. I don't think it is gonna fit where I am gonna put the entertainment center. I can't wait to get a new house. I want a basement. We want to get a pool table for it and a big screen t.v. I guess my new sofa will go there. Then maybe not. IT is soooooooooooo nice. It is gonna be the nicest sofa I ever had in my life. I had a lot of sofa given to me. I even bought one, years and years ago. But it was a cheap one. Only $500 for a sofa and a loveseat. Shoot I am paying about $1000. For just a sofa. AM I LOSING IT? I hope not. Well, I best get a moving and clean. Oh how much fun for me.

Thursday evening.....

What a day. I have ate all day. I feel so bad. Now I have to go cook dinner and don't want too, cause I am not hungry.Why do I do the things I do? I need to exercise. I need to eat less. I am thinking of joining WW. Can you go if you are pregnant? Heck I don't need to tell them. They never know that I was. Maybe no one will. I never thought in my little mind that I weight this much. LORD HAVE MERCY! I need a fork lift to get me up when I am down. LOL Well, nothing else to report. At least no nausea today as of now. I am just overloaded with fullness.

OMG!!!!

It has been a long time since I last wrote in here. Shoooooooooo! Last time was in November. It is The end of Feb. A lot has happen since then. I am still in this house. We plan on moving this year! YAY! I can't wait. Well, Where shall I begin? Let's see. I have closed a chapter in my book. I signed my rights away over for my older daughter. I am so sorry. I was having so much trouble with her and she was not at home for almost 3 years. They had to move her far away, cause even the state was having trouble with her too. Now she is 3 hours away from me. I don't get to see her much and it is probably the best thing for her. Even though I love her, I just could not handle all the running away and lying. She was gonna get killed here. She hung around the wrong people. She is almost 17 and will be able to come home when she turns 18. That's not too long. She is happy where she is too. SO that is good. I want to move fast for I don't have the same problem with my youngest. She is a total different kid. She is so lovable and honest. She loves me so much. She is a mommy's girl. She has to have her mommy! Ok so end of that part of my chapter in my book. I open another one. I am Pregnant. I am 8 weeks. I was very shocked when I found out. We been trying for years, and nothing. I went to the Dr and they said it is probably all this weight I have gain in a short time and the stress why I could not get that away. So I let it go. And I never started feb.1 and I was like something was wrong. I was cramping and my boobs was sooooooooooooooo freakin sore. I could not be touched there. So I took a test and it looked positive and I still could not believe it. So I went to one of those women first things. And did a test and they said too it is positive. I still in shock! So the next day I went to this other place to have a ultra sound and it too said positive. I could not believe it. I never got to lose my weight! I was planning to have a lab-band operation in June when I got my insurance. OMG. That means I will gain more weight! I am so big now. I am miserable, now. If I gain any weight I will die. At least that's what I think. So I am trying not to gain any.
Thats my new chapter. I will get back to writing in here. My journal to Pregnant and my life.

Friday

It is almost over the week. The weeks/months go by so fast! Lord comes November next. My birthday. I will be 35. Lord I am getting old. The more I get old the more nervous I get of getting closer to die. Both parents died in the 60's. So do I have only have 25 more years left of my life? Maybe less if I don't take care of myself. I am going to starting Nov. 1st I am going on a diet and not ever try not to eat fry food. My liver can not take it no more. I looked up on the computer to see about a FATTY liver. It is just a begining of something BAD. SO I need to take care of me for I can live past my 60's. I don't do drugs and don't drink. I just eat. I guess that is a drug too. It is like my best friend. It does not judge you on who you are. WHat you do. He is always there for you. Makes you feel real good at the time he is in your life(when you are eatting) I need to find a new best freind, don't ya say? Or a hobby. Well, sitting here is not getting nothing done. I been trying to get rid of stuff. I need to put more stuff on the computer to get rid of and to sell. Have a great Weekend. I will. It is my last weekend to eat fry food. LOL :0)

A week later....

It is Tuesday and it has been a week since I wrote in here. MY BAD! lol Well, you see I live a boring ol' life. I went to one of my friend house to take some picture of some stuff she is selling. I love her house. It makes me want a new house of my own. I am so ready to leave this dump. Me and Michael made a deal tonite. Save money for we can move. If we can save $50 a week and not eat out like we have been. It will work! Starting Nov. 1st we are gonna do that and I am going to start my diet. And I am going to clean this house out of junk! I can't take all this stuff with us when we move. SO I am going to get it out of here. Freecycle it! Yep. I am so determine now. Lets DO IT!!!!!

Tuesday

Man I got a big headach for days now. It does not want to go away. It loves me and wants to stay with me. LOL I go get my Ultra sound tomorrow. I am scared. I hope my hubby takes me. SOme times he is a BUTT and sometimes he can be sweet. This is a time I hope he is SWEET! I hate driving downtown. Plus I can't take Ana to school until after 8am. Thats what time my appointment is. SO she have to go to school late tomorrow. Yesterday there was no SChool. We ran the roads together. Had a good old time. I let her pick a place to eat out. And she picked Ci-Ci's pizza buffet. We was the first ones there as they open. It was nasty. I hardly ate. I love pizza! But not this place. Every time I went up there, there was no pizza there. So if there was good pizza I did not get any. It is time to go get Ana from school. What fun!

Sunday morning...

I am awake and ready for what hits me today. I just wonder what that is? Not much going on in my life. I rented movies last nite. We watched Ring Two. It was good. We got another scarey movie for tonite. I go Wed. for my Ultra sound. I am nervous for that. Shoot my appointment is at 8am. I am surpose to be there 60 minutes early they said(for why not 30?) Well, it is downtown(a place I no like to drive or go) and it is about 30 minutes away. So shoot What time will I have to get up? Should I no sleep. It is gonna feel like that. LOL I can't eat/drink 10 hours before it. Oh my :( So no breakfast/diet pepsi for me. I best get ready to start my Sunday.

Friday

I am so sad! We had to call the school after 7 yesterday to see if Ana made cheerleading. It was a recording, If they said her name then she made it. Well, they never said her name. It hurt her feelings so bad. I just knew this would happen. I just want to go to that school and cuss them out for hurting my baby. She is such a pretty little girl. She looked so cute those days practice and to try outs. I fixed her hair so nice and cute. Life is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday morning

I been so busy these few days. from Thurs. of last week until now. I been running the roads. I went to the dr. friday and my liver enzymes are still high. I have to go to another place to have an Ultra sound. Shoot I got my Hospital bill and it was almost $2000. Lord just for 2 1/2 hours at the Er. I am in the wrong business. Well, sitting at home is not a very good business anyway. LOL Ana has been staying after school all week for practice for Cheer-leading. They have try-out today. So I hope she makes it. And I hope she don't. I just don't want to have to take her to all the games. They are at another school and at nite. I hate driving at nite! We shall find out today if she makes it or not. She is so pretty and would make a good one, but also so shy. You have to be a go getter and be smiling and loud. Thats not Ana. Well, I best get myself busy and start cleaning my house.

It been a long time...........

ok so you been wondering why I have not write. Well last week I was sick. I went to Hospital with some serious stomach pains last Wed. nite.(11:30p.m.) and lord I was in pain! FInd out with some test that my Liver enzymes was high. So I had to go to dr. Friday to recheck my blood. I will not know any thing until Monday, when I go back to the dr to hear about my results. Scary! Next week is bad for me. I go to dr. and have to go to Court for my speeding ticket in a school zone. I am worried on how much I have to pay. It is coming X-mas and I need to be shopping. I did get a few things the other day for Ana. I want to get it over with! I hate spending all that money! Charging up me credit cards. I am still trying to pay from last year on Walmart. Well, I am off to eat some Funyuns, YUM-YUM!

Tuesday

What happen to me? I cleaned another closet out today. YIPPIE!!! If you see my closets, you would understand what a big job that is. AND IT IS BIG! Not the closets, but a super big job. It is break time now. I am watching Passion. That soap is so crazy. They got a witch on there. I wish I had some magic powers. I would clean this whole house in a jiffy. :0)
Well, break time is over! My job is to clean the bird cage next. Oh How much fun. To clean up bird poop.

Monday

It is almost over. Yay! I mean for today. I am wore out. I cleaned out my closet today and shooo do I have a lot of clothes I don't/ can't wear. Why keep them. I still have so much. My back is hurting me so much. I have to take me a strong pain pill tonite. Make me pass out one. I have so much trouble with my back and hip, plus my shouder. I am sure if I lose it would help. I need to clean Ana closet next. I need some more tubs. It makes it so much easier. Put everything in them! Well, I am off to order some Avon. I looked at the book and I since some stuff I like. I hope everyone has a wonderful sleeping nite. I know I will with the help from a little pill. LOL

SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I am wore out. Been out running around all day. Went to a few yard sales, shopping,eat out and to a fall festival. Shoooooooo wore out. I tell you! Plain wore out. Other then that nothing going on. I think tomorrow we are going to fix the bathroom. Michael has to take the toilet and sink out to replace the floor. It is the second time he has done that. The whole floor is rotten out. Not sure where the water is coming from. I just need a all new house! Well, I am getting off of here to go find a snack. Diet time is going to be Monday. I order this diet book The 3 hour diet. My cousin is on it and lost 56 lbs. So I shall try too. Pray that it works for me.

Friday, friday,friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is here the weekend. No more getting up early. Even though I still do. Sucks! I want to sleep in but can't seem to do so. I stayed busy yesterday. I cleaned my kitchen. I put a Halloween table cloth on my table. I am trying to get in the Fall mood. It sure don't feel like it when it is 90 degrees outside. I thinking it is going to be a lazy day today. It feels like it. It is so better for me to not get on this computer until I get my house work done. Cause once I am on line it is so long house work! See ya, don't want to be ya! I burn the roof of my mouth this morning eatting brown sugar oatmeal. It was toooooo hot. I hate having that feeling in my mouth. Well, I am off to watch the rest of Little House On the Prairie. Love that show!!!!!!!!!

A Better day..

Yes, It is a better day then yesterday. I was a little afraid to drive any where, but I did it any way. I ran to the Dollar store to get me 2 diet pepsi's ANd I was happy! Happy go Angel, thats's me. :) I went to go see my grandma today in the Nursing home, she is not doing to good. It was good to see her. I also seen my Cousin, it is sad that Ana and her never met. I just not close to my family like others. I wish I was. Oh well. Better luck next time, when I am around. I finally got a hold of Emily. I talk to her for 55 minutes on my cell phone. It was so nice to hear from her. I mailed her a good box today too. My first. I usally wait till I see her to give her stuff. But it looks like I wont see her for a long time :'( I guess I am giving my parent rights up for her. I don't think she ever get to come home. She'll be 18 and she will be able to do what she wants too. Maybe then she will get to come home. Oh well.Don't want to think about it. Time for bed.

My Horoscope.

The focus is you, and it should be. If you can't make yourself HAPPY, then how do you expect someone else to do it?

(that is so me, I don't like me and how do I expect others to like me? I can't even make myself happy.)

The Worst day!

Oh What a day. I am writing in black 'cause thats how I feel. Where do I start? I took Ana to school this morning and could not decide to go to Rite Aid to get my 6 pack of Diet Pepsi's. Well I said to myself go ahead and just go. If I no go I just go home and sit there and eat. Well I was on my way. I was driving down the street, when I heard a siren and I was looking to see where it was coming from. I finally seen it. So I stopped to let it pass. After it was gone I turned on to another street when I heard again another siren. I look behind me I seen a cop. SO I thought it want to pass me so i get over. Darn if the freakin' cop was gonna give me a ticket. He said I was speeding in a school Zone. Well school had already started and it was past time. So Whats the problem? Why he gave me a ticket? That sucks big time. It is not payable. I have to go to court. I get so freakin' nervous when I go down town anyway. I have to go in Oct. and I am already nervous thinking about it. Well, I never made it to get my 6 pack of Diet Pepsi's. I was so upset and turned around and went back home crying. Will I ever get out again? I hate myself for going now. I almost did not go! Why did I? I could have prevent it(the ticket). Why me? Why me? :'''''((((

Tuesday

I got my exercise today. I went to Krogers and walked down every isle plus a couple twice. They moved everything around in there. I could not find nothing! It has been the same way for years. Why change it? Oh well At least I got me exercise. Not much going on here. I made 2 pumpkin pies today. Real easy! Just buy the can and milk and eggs and you can't go wrong. LOL And I didn't! Yay! I just not a pie maker. I ate a piece and it was good with whip cream. Yum-Yum. I got a lot of t.v. to watch tonite. Biggest Loser 8-9, Dancing with the Stars 8:30-10, Big Brother 9-10 and I wanted to watch that new show too My name is Earl at 9. I need Tivo. Maybe I can tape one of the shows in Ana room. Thats too much trouble. Why does all the shows have to come on in one nite? And some at the same time. I be going back to channels during commercials. I better go and start dinner. I want to get that done before all these shows come on. :) Have a good busy television Nite!

Monday morning...

All back to normal. Michael at work, Ana at school and I am home cleaning. I am on a break now. I think I did a good job so far. I got me some plastic containers to store clothes in, so I am thinking that is my next job. I need to clean out closets out. Shoooooo And that is a tough job there. I just got so much stuff. No where to put it. I got me a good place that I will put stuff that I will give to Salvation army. GIVE--GIVE! If I don't wear it why keep it? If I lose weight I just have to go shopping for new clothes. Thats all to it. Why keep clothes that I have not wore in years? Well, Back to cleaning. I got to catch up on my laundry! I let it get so out of hand. Now I can't catch up on it. So I am off to see the wizzard. The wonderful Wizzard of Laundry!

Saturday

I am too tired! I don't know why? I am so ready for a nap. Me and Michael talked last nite about moving. I am so ready to get out of this little, old, ugly, deathly house. It goes back to my grandma, she died here in this house, my dad got the house and he died in this house, my mom left with the house and she died in this house, I am left with this house and I am dying a slow death here in this house. I got to stop the cycle. I got to live somewhere else. I am too young to die. I got a life some where out there. And it will be a hppy one from now to the end of my life. I am going to have a nice house, nice car ( I got that now me safria van:) I want all the extras in life too. All nice stuff! I am worth it! I think! I have had a hard life and going to get rid of all that negitive and be possitive! I think I said that before. LOL!!! So let's get real! I am off to go take a snooze, maybe.

ffriday-friday morning

I had to go to the doctor this morning. Why going to a freakin clinic is so bad? I told them I been feelin sick lately. Did she do any test on me? NOPE! I go back in 3 weeks and increase my stress pills. I did my ovulation test last nite and i am not ovulated, I guess. It is that time so don't know why I am not ovulated. Hummmm? MAybe today. Those test are a little hard to understand. Maybe by my next trip to the doctor I will be pregnant. Shoot, they probably wont even run a test on me and I wont know. Sucks the clinic! I wish to have insurance to go to a for real doctor. Well, i need to clean and put my turkey breast in the crock pot.Yum-yum.

Thursday afternoon....

Oh how I been sick! I hate this! I want to be well again. This past week and last weekend... Shoooooooooo I was fever and throwing up and dizzy. What is wrong with me? Yesterday I went to Krogers and I walked down the coffee isle and I love the smell of coffee (don't like the taste but smells wonderful) I thought I was gonna threw up from the smell of coffee. I don't think I am pregnant. Auntie flow was here a few weeks ago. It was a short one but it was here. Today I feel ok. I have to go see my lawyer and talk to her over my case with Emily. It looks like it is better to volunteer my rights up before they take them away. It i volunteer them up, there is no court/trail thing. I hate to have to bring up all that mess again. Me and Michael is really getting along latly. He did make me mad last weekend, but I am over that. So today *I went to get a ovulation kit. If it is not to late. LOL I don't know why I want to have another kid. I am so scared of going thru that pain again. That is if I can get that away. Well we shall see after this month.

Thursday

Oh am I sick. Again! It sucks. I was fever last nite and in the nite my fever broke and I made the bed and my nite clothes all wet from sweat. I been laying around today. I feel like I need to throw up. Ana driving me crazy. She wants a friend to come over and I feel like crap. I hope this little girl don't get what i got. Michael came home early today and now is in the bed. I wonder if he has it now. I am scared to go in the room to see about him. I don't want him to get sick 'cause he brings home the BACON. We need that BACON!!! Yummy! Well, i need to get off to check on Ana. :((((

Tuesday afternoon..

Court day was today. I got Michael to take me. Thanks honey! I am glad he did. I just can't drive downtown if I got to park in a parking garage. I got a mini van and it seems tall. I get so nervous going in that I have to close my eyes. It went fast today. I got to go for a trail in Jan. They sure take there sweet lil' time. This stuff has been going on and on that it is driving me in sane. No wonder I am depress and stress out. Not much going on here like always, I live a boring life with stress in it. I need to clean and go to the store. I have to wait until I pick up Ana, before I go to the store. I NEED MILK!!! :) love me skim milk~

Monday Nite

HAPPY LABOR DAY ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not much going on just taking it SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO easy! And I do mean SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO easy. It is just like another day to me. LOL A easy day. Relaxing, taking naps,eating,on the computer,relaxing again. No soaps on! So that is gonna drive me crazy. I got to go to court tomorrow. So I am nervous. I post tomorrow about me day.

SSSsaturday..........

I am sitting here watching kids shows. Ana going to spend the nite at a friends house. Michael is working, so I will be here alone. Poor Me. :'( I got tons of stuff to do and like always I am sitting in me comfortable computer chair. At least I had a shower and ate of course. But here lately thats a all day event for me. I hope I get some energy when I come back from my running. I hope all has a good long weekend. Me it is just another day alone...............

friday nite.....

Not much going on. Dianna came over and tried to fix me computer. Thanks Honey child! I wuv you. She is so sweet. We need to do more together stuff.
I got White Castles out. Lord I know why they call them Sliders. They are killin' me tonite. I just went to pee,
It smelled like onions. My gas smells like the burgers. LOL
Great! Well, gonna go to bed.

September all ready?

I could not believe that it is already another month gone. Where did August go? It came and went. I watched BB6 tonite. YAY! James is gone and one of the good guys has HOH. I hope that Ivette goes. I hate that witch with a capital B. I been so down today. All this about Katrina. Its been on all day about those poor people dying and no food and water for days. I seen all these babies about ready for death with nothing to drink, in their moms arms just bearly hanging on. IT IS SO SAD!!!!!! I cried. Michael is watching some more of it now in spanish. It makes me so sick to see all this. Now gas is do high. I don't see me going no where. I just can't believe it all. Its like 911 all over again. Well I am get tried of watching this I am off to bed. Nite Nite all!

Wed. morning

It is the middle of the week. What have I did? Not a freakin thing. Today I plan on cleaning. It is already 10:40 and I am still on the computer since 9 this morning. SHoooooooooooo why is computering so addictive? I got tons of things to do. I had to go to court yesterday about my oldest daughter. I seen her dad.OH MY GOD!!!!!! I hate him for not being in her life. I know that is why she is the way she is today. He hasn't seen her since she was 7-8 years old. Now she is 16. Well, Pay backs are hell. He has gain so much weight! I thought I had. SHooooooooooooo nope! He has gain so much that he looks sickly looking. Like one of those people you see on a talk show in the hospital or home and can't leave. He has to weight 500-600lbs. I was in shock. When we was married he weight around 250. He was a big guy, big bones. But that big now. He is going to die for sure. That big. That makes me want to go on a diet for sure. I can't get that big. I am already big now. I got to get back in the gym, that does help. I will start eatting fruit and veggies. But I have to wait until tomorrow. I made rice puddin' last nite. Yum! That reminds me, got to run and get me some out!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday

Not much going on here, just alot of rain and rain. Is it going to stop? My yard is flooded. I had to wake up extra early this morning so I am going to bed now. Well, after BB6. Rain, Rain go away come back again another day..............

Monday

It is the begining of the week. What do I do? I almost eat a half a gallon of ice cream. I now I feel sick. I want to throw up. I end up throwing the rest of it in garbage. :)
It is a ugly day, and coming more ugly days. We are surpose to get so much rain in the next couple days. They are a little too late for the rain all my flowers have already died with no rain this summer. I'm to lazy to get the hose out and water them. Fall is coming. I like the temps in fall, but I sure don't like those leaves from all the big trees in my yard. I guess me and Michael made up. I cooked him breakfast this morning before he left. I am going to fix Nachos for dinner. Ana will be home late today. She is in Wildcat singers at school. Today the first day. She also signed up to be on the safety patrol for school too. SHe is growing up fast. She be in high school and having her first job next. I feel so old. I am only 34. Gosh in November I'll be a year older. I am surpose to have a baby before 35. After that age it is hard on you to get pregnant and the baby.
Well, my soaps are on. Got to watch them. General Hospital is getting good.

Sunday :(

We went sofa looking. I have such different taste in stuff then Michael has. He wants a leather for no dog hair will stick on it. Ok. I hate leather!!!!!!!!!!!! When you are hot and you have shorts on and you get up fast you leave your skin on the leather. Why do I have to have a freakin' dog that is losing his hair so much? I hate him. I have to vacume everyday and sweep the kitchen 2 times a day. Hair is every where! We are not safe eating in this house. I am so sick on it. He (pinto)is Michael dog, but my god then he should do something about him. I wanted to shave him, I know that I can't. Pinto don't listen to me like he does Michael so why didn't he shaved him yet? No telling and now it is toooooo late. He needs his fur for the cold winter months that are coming.
Ok back to the sofa thing.... I need a sofa and soon! We was going to charge some of it. I do not understand why sofas cost so much? You would think they have gold in 'em, for the price that they sale them for. I think I never will get a sofa. I got a freakin' hair up my butt and got rid of the one we had a few months ago. I guess more then a few. Well, we went to Value city to look at them. They sure don't have many selections. The one we almost got was Brown (yuck) they could come in Blue and Cream color ( not with kids and dogs, a cat or 2 flying mother fu**in' birds that I don't like either). Man can you tell that I am in a bad mood? I never cuss only when I am freakin' mad.
Why did god have to make up men? I think I would have been happy with girls only. I would of I think? Who knows!
A big storm is coming! It is surpose to rain alot this week. Oh great that means Michael will be at home. Well, I think I have fussed enough. Freakin' Satellite keeps going out. Can't watch t.v. when the wind blows. I should have kept my regular cable that keeps going up and up.
Have a great Sunday! I hope mine gets better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday

I am so bored. Not much to do today, or at least not much I want to do. I just want to be lazy. Been on the computer all day and nothing to do on here. Ana had a friend spend the nite last nite over. I was waiting her to go home when they asked me if she can spend another nite over. Lord, thats gonna screw up my Sunday. We all ways go out on Sunday like a family thing. I bet Michael is gonna be mad. I was thinking going to the nursing home to see my grandma tomorrow. I can't go now. Oh well. I should be cleaning my house instead of typing on the computer. It looks like it is going to be a longggggggggggg day. A long Boring day. Maybe Mr. Energy may stop by and help clean this house.
Am I dreaming or what?

Friday is here........

The week end is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No school! No getting up early!!!!! Taking it easy!!!!!!!!!!!! Well that one is everyday. LOL I feel so much better. I got an e-mail from my aunt telling me that my grandma is moved to a nursing home. Michael did not work today, so we went to go see her. I got to see her. YAY! Only for a little while. BUt atleast I seen her and told her that I love her. So if any thing happens, lord I hope not. I think she knows that I care. I am not close to her and I don't know why. When I seen her she reminds me of my MOM so much. Maybe that is why I am not close to any of my family. I am just a loner. I wish I was not that away. I am thinking going on a diet Monday. It is only because I am so full now. I ate MOBY DICK's a whale of a sandwich. I am so thirsty that I can't even drink cause I am soooooooooooo full. I had to walk down our street earler, it about killed me. It was hot and humid and the walk........ Shoooooo I am not in shape. I need to get back to exercising. Well, I think I will go see what my 9 year old is doing. She has a guest over for the nite. Oh how much fun.

Thursday

I been sitting on my big butt all day! Well,except when I laid on it. Took a nap. I can't seem to find any energy. If any one knows where to find him let me know. He just don't come a knocking at my door these days. I took Ana to the doctor today to get a referal to see a specialist. What as I figure they don't want me to go to one yet. Told me to get a humidifier for Ana room. SHoot those are high. The ones I seen in the store. I sure need to get up from my butt. But, I sat here to long that it is sleeping in this chair. So, I don't have much to post. Same ol' thing, just a different day. I need to go cook some dinner. I think I make Michael chix soup and don't know what to fix me and ANa. I am not hungry, 'cause I ate all day like always.
Have a wonderful rest of the day! Don't forget to let me know where I can find that Energy!

Milk shake...........

Why did they make Malts? I just made one for me and I feel sick now. I drunk too much of it. BUT Darn It was sooooooooooooooooooo good and cold. I am getting fatter and fatter. I have to take Ana to the dr at 9. So she be going to school late. I have to stop and feed her before school, so I am in my mind making plans. Going to Big Boy breakfast buffet. I love pan cakes and French toast. I haven't ate dinner yet. I don't think I could from that malted milk shake. It was Choc. too. Did I tell ya it was soooooooooooooo good? Oh my stomach is killing me. I took a long nap today. So I wont want to go to sleep tonite. Michael is still not home yet. I have not heard from him today. I hope he is OK. His knee is bothering him. I worry about if he can not work. Where will the Bacon come from? I got to have that BAcon! It is delicious!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Big Brother is boring now..

No Kaysar, No fun. It was boring tonite. Howie is not yelling at April no more. No fun. The whole day has been boring too. Maybe I am a boring person. I got to bored today with everything. Even The computer. Lord WHat happen?
Not much going on here. Just boring stuff. LOL I got an Lg&e guy coming to the house tomorrow to look around to see if he can save us any money on our electric bill. I sure hope so. Everything is so high these days. They say that bill is going up too this winter. It just went up last winter. Every one wants more Money. SO do I. Where can I get more? Well I think I will go to bed 'cause it is a boring nite. Nite Nite ALL........

I need more sleep!

I feel like I didn't get to sleep enough last nite with all that walking I did. Poor Ana woke me up after 12 with a bloody nose. I got up with her until it stopped and put her back to bed. Then this morning when we was about to walk out the door to school. It started up again. Lord this time I thought it would never stop. She was late for school. Great! The second week and already a tardy. I called the doctor so she has an appointment Thursday. She need to go to a specialist, but first has to go the regular doctor to get a referal. Thats so crazy! Now it will take a few weeks to get that appointment. They are just out for money$$$$$$$$$. Well My house is a mess I need to get my butt up and clean.

I am so sleepy...

We went to the fair and we walked, and walked, and walked. We walked so much my feet are numb. It was hot and expensive! I ate a funnel cake. Yum! YAY! Ana rode a few rides with Michael. It was a $1 a ticket and most rides took 4 tickets. With Michael riding with Ana it was like $8.00 a ride. They even had 5 ticket ones. I can't understand why rides cost so much. That is so crazy. Well I am off to bed. We got home around 9 at nite and we left at 10 this morning. Shoooooooo, did I say we walked alot?

a hot day

When is fall? I hope soon. I am so tired of hot weather. I could never live in Florida. I be complaining when it is winter too. So get ready. Ana and I went to the Ymca today and went swiming. I got me some sun. Yay. I am losing me tan. I need to get back in the tanning booth. I just watch BB6 and I am worried now that my team, (the good one) is not looking good for them. Beau got HOH and it is time for him to put 2 people on the block. I am sure he is going to pick Janelle and Howie. I still so sad that Kaysar left. But I am happy that Jennifer the liar is gone. YAY,YAY,YAY,YAY. I could keep going, but Ana just came in here wants me to wash some clothes for tomorrow(it is 10:00p.m.) to late to wash. We are going to the Kentucky State Fair tomorrow. It is alot of Walking. SHooooo My legs will be sore and chapped come Monday. Well, I got to run and wash her clothes.

No more sick. YAY!!

I am so happy that I am no more sick. I am just bored. I need to be cleaning, but too lazy to do so. I trying to get my laundry caught up. Lord I got mucho!!!! Michael cleaned his truck up the other day and brought all his nasty work clothes and sheets that he covers his seats in. So I got lots to do. But my BUTT loves my computer chair. lol Plus I am not having trouble with AOL today. YAY! I been online all day. Thats bad. I been trying to figure out who is leaving today on BB6. I hope that mean liar Jen. She is a 2 face witch. It sure is a hot day today. Well, I am going back to see about BB6 I don't want to miss nothing. So Have a hot and Happy day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am a true Kaysar fan!!!!

Black Thursday....So sad.

Here's looking at you, Kaysar.He tried to play a clean game but that just isn't an option when playing against the likes of Jennifer, Maggie, Ivette, James, etc.. he made some mistakes and admits to them, and he trashtalked some but didn't like doing it (although he was hysterical with it, and right on target)I think he'll be surprised by the amount of respect he's generated for himself and also by the number of fans who thinks he's just dreeeeamy.. overnight feedsters in particular will miss his humor and his odd but ever so watchable courtship of Janelle.. he'll be missed more than he knows

Oh me sickkkkkkkkkkkk

I am sick and don't know what is wrong with me. I woke up 5 something this morning freezing and shaking. I got up to take a hot shower, as hot as i could. I was in there for about 30 minutes it seems like. I just stood there with that steaming hot water hitting my body to warm me up. I was wanting to throw up too, but no can. I had a real bad asthma attack. I did my inhailer 3 times. Michael wanted to take me to the hospital. I hate hospitals! My whole body hurt later. And still does. I am sore in my ribs. Now i got a headach. I just ate a grilled cheese with 7up. SO I am happy I got something down. I was scared this morning. I had to drive Ana to the school and I thought I was not going to make it. I laid in bed all day, I am fixing to go back in there. It is BB6 nite. I can't wait to see who goes. I am sure Kaysar will be gone. He is such a hunk of a man. :) I like to meet him. Jump his bones. LOL No just joking. I am a married girl. Well feeling like I am getting sick again.

This is a funny one..................

Sunday

I am so sad. I want to cry. BB6 is getting on my last nerves. Why can someone promise you to keep you there and go ahead and put you on the block. Kayser just came back in the house. Now they want him to leave. He let this girl have HOH for she can see pictures of her boyfriend. And she promise not to put Kayser up that week and what is she going to do........Put up my honey bun. I want to hurt her. She is so little so it will be easy. LOL
I told Michael I want to have another child and soon. I am going to buy a test to see when I can get that away. Am I loca or what? I think watching BB6 has made me go nuts. I am turning 35 this Nov.(old) It is best to have a baby before you turn this age. Well if i do get pregnant i wont have it until May or April so I will be 35 1/2 and plus I am going to have that Lap band done in August 2006. So I better have one before I have that done. There is no for sure thing that i will get that away. I don't know if I can get pregnant. But I will try hard this month. It will be fun trying. LOL

Saturday

I wake up to my freakin allergies a mess. My eyes are ichy and running, my nose a sneezing a million times. I am hungry. I need to go to the store but don't want to get out in this heat. It is gonna be a hot one again. Michael left to go to work this morning. How he works in this I do not know. I am just glad he does, for pay these bills. One thing I can say about him is that he is not lazy and a go gether type of guy. I am not that away.
I think I am sick! I am sitting here thinking of what to eat and where to go and eat. Lord all I am thinking is FOOD! What a sicko. I wish I had some milk for some cereal. I got me some Honeycombs! I can eat those with no milk. Let me go see what I can go find in my empty kitchen..........

Friday...

I felt like I ate and ate today. I was soooooooooo hungry and could not get full. I made me sick. I ate 2 hot dogs with bread before I got on here and lord my stomach is killing me. My allergies are driving me nuts. My nose is sore from all the sneezing. I wish I could see Kayser I think I will feel better. :)))))

My grandma is in hospital and I want to go see her but I hate hospitals!!!!!! I am not that close to her but still she is my grandmother. She got fluid around her lungs and heart. Her heart is failing her. I need to go but I get so freakin nervous. I hate feeling this away. Why can't I be a normal person? If something happens to her before I get my nerves to go see her I will be so depress. I hope to go see her Sunday, I will make Michael go with me. I just don't want to go alone. I am a follower......

Kayser is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks America for voting him back in. Now I hope he shakes up the whole house ( and his butt too). It was a very good show tonite. I can't wait to find out who the HOH is next. Some heads are going to roll.
Went swiming today at the Y with me friend Dianna. I had a good time We need to get together more often. It sure was a great day to be in water. It was a hot one. When is summer over? Oh No then comes FALL. I like Fall but not all those freakin ugly leaves that comes off the trees. I got some big freakin trees in my yard too. Well, I am going to see if I can find out more about BB6 and who is going to be the next HOH.

Wed.

I been busy today. I moved my bedroom around and cleaned it. YAY! I finally got it done. SHoooooooooo it took me long enough to do it. I also clean my whole bath room. Yay I have no clue where i got this energy. But I better not stop now, got to keep it up...............

tuesday...

It is big brother nite. YAY! I can't wait. Not much going on I live a boreing life. LOL I am feelin' better. I am on some new stress med's. I have been eating less, not feeling hungry. That is a big PLUS++++++++++++ I am thing of having gastric bypass/ lap-band. I am so big and can't lose any weight. I think that is the only way out , so today I been calling ins. companies. Oh MY gOD!!!! They sure are high in price. I wonder if Michael let me take a loan on the house for this operation? Thats a bad ideal. I want to move so bad. This house is killing me. I feel it! So I need to get out of here. I even move to an appartment for a little while if I didn't have all these animals. I live in a jungle here. Cat/Toby, dog/ Pinto, dog/Buddy(my baby), 2 birds/coco & Loco. Whats next?


Well almost time for BB6....................

Monday

I been not feeling good in a few days so thats why am late on posting. It is like 1 week as of tomorrow that school starts. YAY! I hope I got a little energy this evening, I am going thru my clothes! I got so many and wear the same ol' thing. I probably got enough clothes here to wear something different every day. Too many! Why keep them if you do not wear them? Well I still got the energy so I best not stop. LOL

friday

Lets see........ I am having trouble with aol. Why me? Lets see how long can I be on this time. I wrote in the blog 2 times today and I get kicked off and can't recover my blog. I been haveing troubles alot so thats why I haven't writen in here. I get so freakin mad over this computer some times. It drives me crazy! I don't know what to do. I been on it for 2 days all day almost trying to see what the problem is. It is Aol. They don't like the Angel. Not much going on. I am going to send this in before I get a kick..............

doctor update

Went to the doctor Wed. they drew blood and PEEEEEEEEEEE. I could pee a little bit , I hope that was enough. I got a big bruise on my arm where they took the blood. I haven't heard from them so I hope my test are ok. But that is clinics for you, You could be dying and they wont tell ya, until it is too late. I remember my mom going there and telling her she had a sinus infection and really she had a tumor in her lungs. Then another time she went she had a broken leg and they sent her home did not even checked it, until she went to the ER and they did a X-ray on it. I hate Clinics. I am trying to get me some Insurance. I just don't want to get screwed with it. I don't know much about insurance. Whats a PPO and HMO? Whats the difference? WHo knows. I am thinking of getting insurance to have a Bypass surgrey. I thinking it is the only way out of my fat body.......................

Tuesday nite...

I feel like I can't breath. I been down today and I don't know why? Maybe I am scared to go to the doctor tomorrow. I don't know why, it is a clinic and I am sure I will come out of there the same way I went in there, Not knowing a freakin' thing about my health. I am sad today too. I watch Big brother. I don't want Kayser to leave. I like him. I am so sure he will. I just hope that Janell gets them back good. Don't be mean to Kayser. He looked kind of rough tonite. I think he knows he is leaving too. Poor Guy!

My plan was to go to bed early. I was in there, but I just could not sleep or breath. So I came in here (living room) and still I no can breath. I guess my asthma is acting up. I guess I need to tell the doctor to run some test on me. I need to know what is wrong with me. I know I am depress and I have no life. But hey! That is my choice that I have no life. I am so scared that I will get Cancer. Both parents had that and died. I thinking that stress will make you get it. My mom was so stress and depress after my dad died. She ended up with it too. I know now how life is so hard and confuse. What ways to go. How to get there. I want the best for my children. Am I able to give them the best? Why am I around negitive in my life? How do I get away from it and if I do. where do I go. I feel like I am stuck here in my life, I am afraid to step out that door sometimes. Afraid to go some where a lone. I watch t.v. and see how somepeople are so happy and get along so good with each other. Why can't my life be like that? I want a fraiy tale dream life. Every day I will be happy, energy,smiling, sunshine, a all time beautiful life....................Then I wake up..... :'(

Tuesday..

I am sitting here watching my friends little girl Gabby. She is so cute. It makes me want another kid. Ana is 9 years old, so I can't remember what it is like to have a little baby. Some times I think I want and some times I think I don't. I really can't make up my mind. Oh n0 I change the channel to LAZY TOWN. She wants to watch that. Oh Boy what a show! They didn't make these shows when I am growing up. No wonder why kids are the way they are. Too much violence in cartoons. They are so stupid, now these shows. I have to see what Gabby wants. I post more,later.......

15 more days until school. WOW!!! It is so hard to believe that summer is almost over. I almost got Ana stuff ready for school. I am glad. I got to eork on getting her some shoes and pants. I have a hard time finding pants for her. The size she can go around her is too long in lengh. I wish I knew how to sew and was good at it. Even if I was , I am too lazy to do it. I been planing all summer to move my room around and Have I done it yet? NOPE! I am just tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Lazy! Thats alot of o's. Oreo, Yum! That sounds good. Talking about O's. I like to have some right now. It has been awhile since I had a cookie. I better go to bed for I forget O's and food. So long.....